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I can imagine how scary this is for you. It is very easy to get wrapped up in the anxiety of the triggers to harm yourself. The OCD feeds off of this anxiety and it creates narratives in your head that you ruminate upon until you convince yourself that something is true when it isn’t. It can feel so real though. I hope that you are in therapy and are getting help. I am having my first ERP session this evening. This illness is incredibly tough. This is how I think of them. The thoughts are the same thoughts that everyone else has at different times. Most people can just let go of them like water running down a sink. They just go away. But for OCD we have a hook in our brains - like a fishing hook - that catches these thoughts and doesn’t allow us to just forget about them and move on. Instead we ruminate on them and obsess over them until we convince ourselves that they are real or truth. Try to think about that the next time you are triggered and let the fish on your line go away back into the water. You can best this.
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My issue is that I get depressed and I have thoughts that feel real like I really want do it but I have been having these thoughts on and off in severity since I was 7 and I’m 42 now. It’s awful
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Hello, read my comment above, it might help a bit? Also I'm here if you need a chat!
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Hi friend! First of all I just want to say that I can't imagine how tough you have it right now. But it gets better. Anxiety passes and your mind calms I promise. You mustn't believe everything your mind illustrates. A mind is a beautiful thing but if you pay too much attention to it it becomes an ailment. OCD is a jester that is trying to trick you. So instead of emotionally engaging in the though just let it pass. Watch it from afar in your mind and it will calm. Lastly, it might be a great idea to talk to a therapist as well because conversation therapy can help a lot! It helped me. Also I'm here if you want to chat about anything to get your mind of things 😁
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thought*
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I have never acted on the thoughts even though it feels like I want to.
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Thank you to everyone who gave advice! It was very helpful! :)
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I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
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Really bad theme right now is death, I keep thinking about how one day or at any moment my heart will stop my brain will stop & my memories & everything I know will all fade away. It is giving me so much anxiety I’m only 18, but I realize it all happens to us it is bound, we are born to die. I know it’s a silly thing to be scared because it’s not helping the quality of my life worrying about it and even when I do die, I won’t care , if you don’t have a working brain then how can you care 🤷♀️. It is tainting my everyday life currently & honestly making me terribly depressed & it is giving me derealization & making me feel nihilistic, I’ll remind myself it’s okay but then with my ocd i don’t stop thinking and thinking about it and it’s seriously so hard to stay present in the moment because this thought just feels like I can’t scrub it away it’s miserable I struggle with religion, but I do pray to anything that’s out there possibly listening, because it is comforting, it just feels like this whole experience Is pointless & I am afraid of the unknown and what is to possibly happen but I’m subjected to it anyways so why should it matter
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