Is it a compulsion that you are trying to neutralise your urge to perform a ritual by reasoning with it?

Aw that sucks! I always do that to stop the anxiety from getting worse. Guess I have to do nothing now.

I think I'm lost.. I can't deal with the anxiety without doing the compulsion, it's so painful to wait until the urge is over.

Are you in therapy? In therapy you make an hierarchy, and gradually stop the compulsions so you dont get overwhelmed. But in the long run we have to learn to sit with the discomfort until we notice that it isn't so bad.

@Estrid I'm not seeing any therapist now or doing any form of therapy. I'm too afraid to face the compulsion, I don't want to get involved in the activity so I normally seek an emotional response to calm down the urge, is that a good idea?

@PolarisJoy I dont really get what you mean...sorry. I think anticipatory anxiety is the worst. When we allow rhe feelings they aren t that hard as we thought. Its when we try to protect ourselves from the feelings it gets tough.

I'm not the right person to answer because I dont know if you want to harm yourself because of anxiety, inner pain relieved or if you are afraid to hurt yourself...