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Shoes shoes shoes oh how I hate them. They are one of the biggest triggers for me. I cannot get over them. Smelling things in the air is a big one for me also, but not with gasoline specifically. Pregnancy had hit me really hard also. I'm a mom and constantly worry for my child (1.5 years old), thinking I might do something to contaminate her. I also have a hard time being present with family because I'm lost in my own head most of the time.
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I hate shoes as well. Its a current trigger for me. I have a door mat outside and one inside so shoes dont touch my floor but then i look at the mats as being contaminated. And if we have the lawn fertilized or pest spray applied it’s only amplified 1000 times. I don’t want my life to be wasted worrying about these things anymore!
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My OCD has been pretty quiet for over a year and only upon getting pregnant has it reared its ugly head and the thoughts are just as scary even though I should know better by now. Anything I can do to help let me know :)
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I may not completely understand where you're coming from, given I have never had a kid, but I'm proud of you for opening up! I can't imagine how difficult and stressed you must feel, especially with kids.
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Thank you so much. That means a lot. With or without kids we all think very similarly with OCD so I’m sure you know enough of what it’s like :)
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Ocdmom80, did you have general anxiety issues too ?
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I always thkught of my ocd as causing general anxiety since it manifested in so many ways.
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I understand
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Have you been officially diagnosed with OCD? What brought you to NOCD? I’m new here but have been diagnosed for awhile with OCD.
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Yes I have here on NOCD. I've suffered with it for many years though before reaching out for help. I reached out for help in an attempt to make my life easier to live. I'm working on it with a therapist now, let's see.
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What brought me to NOCD was the fact that I don't have to leave the house. Leaving the house is quite difficult for me.
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Did it start after giving birth?
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No it just became worse than before during pregnancy.
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@BB94 My OCD worsens before my period and during pregnancy so clearly a hormonal component. I have trouble differentiating whether my thoughts are REALLY OCD or have validity. I constantly ask my husband for reassurance.
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Thank you Don't say you should know better, it's okay. It changes the ways it gets under the skin, that's okay you'll fight it off again.
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First post... I ruminate all the time, getting triggered by the smallest things that remind me of terrible events in my life or fears tied to my compulsions. It could be as small as a lawyer looking at my LinkedIn profile and me convincing myself that means I'm getting sued. Or even an article about taxes that makes me spiral into thinking I'm negligent. I could be fine one minute & wonder if I'm making it all up and then cry for two hours the next, cursing people who are neurotypical and wishing I could be like them. I tried talk therapy for two years and now I'm doing NOCD + ERP because I'm pregnant and had to reduce my dose of medication. Pregnancy almost made my OCD mental compulsions worse, and I got diagnosised with MDD, too. Not to mention the skin picking disorder I've had since childhood. It's becoming really hard to be positive despite a daily gratitude journal, walking 5k steps a day, and doing calming yoga with the occasional meditation when things get really bad. I'm trying, I really am. But having three diagnosed disorders makes me feel like I'm set up to fail despite having a wonderful husband and life, plus my coming first baby. It makes me feel like a horrible person when everything around me is seemingly fine but I can't seem to focus enough on the present to appreciate it. I feel so lost about it all and am plagued by guilt and shame. Does anyone else relate?
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Please if someone can reply! I really just need someone to talk to. I don’t even know how to control my OCD. It honestly feels like it’s controlling me. Everyday my mind focuses on every bodily sensation I have and it’s like a broken record player, I have horrible health anxiety and my OCD just makes it worst just thinking about it everyday. It feels like everyone who I explain it to looks at me like I’m stupid/crazy. I use to be much more tame with my OCD, I use to eat things without worry, now I can’t even touch things I use to eat without worrying that I’ll get an allergic reaction (despite eating them BEFORE,,,but my mind tells me otherwise) and omg worrying about heart attacks, pulmonary issues..and I couldn’t even enjoy my own child’s birth because my mind was on high alert thinking I would hemorrhage any second or develop pre-E (complications of postpartum) I was miserable for the first couple of months of my baby’s life and I didn’t know what to do. And now, I’m pregnant with my second (4wks) and all the OCD thoughts and anxiety is coming back at me and I have no one to talk to, I feel lonely. And even if I considered taking a pill, I’d worry about being allergic to it and refusing to take it. I ruin everything for everyone. I remember I ate out one night and I started to think “you’re gonna pass out! You’re gonna pass out! (Without ever passing out before) and I had to leave! I feel like I ruin the mood for everyone when I don’t even try to, and I hate it.
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I’m new to treatment and only realized I have OCD a few months ago. I went through a tough and abusive marriage and ended up getting divorced. I had my first panic attack several years ago and ended up needing to go on Lexapro. This helped me significantly and allowed me to leave my partner. Several years later and I decided to stop Lexapro because I thought I was good to go. I’m in a very healthy relationship, have a great job, friends/family, go to the gym and have a wonderful life. It’s been about a year off the meds and I’ve had some panic, but I’ve been able to manage it. For some reason, the last three weeks has been really difficult for me. I have different spirals and different thought processes: what if I’m schizophrenic? What if I have a deeper mental disorder? What if I hurt someone? What if I need to leave my partner? What if I end up becoming so depressed that I end up hurting myself? My brain just goes from one what if to the next and once I conquer one, the next one pops up with even more intensity. I started taking NAC and inositol and I’m taking saffron during the day because I really don’t wanna go on back on medication but sometimes my thoughts scare me and I’m convinced that I’m not gonna get better and I know that’s just the OCD loop, but I’m wondering if this resonates with anyone else!
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