I’m so worried that this isn’t ocd this thought has been stuck in my head for like 2 months now

I had a horrible thought and it was my own thought. I feel awful. Also my heart is racing all the time

I’m so scared I’ll be stuck in this forever soo soo scared

idk why this is such a recurrent thing for me , I get so scared through the day when I’m not distracted when I think about psychosis. or being put in a mental hospital that it gives me bad anxiety, one time I had a panic attack at the thought of having it 💔 I can’t pin point if it’s intrusive thoughts because it’s a fear of mine .. or not. I think this is the worst thought / fear I have