i really don’t know what’s true anymore

when i’m not thinking about a compulsion so i do things “regularly” does that mean it’s not OCD? i’m just confused is it all in my head? am i just faking it in my head all this time? sorry for posting so much my mind likes to go spiral lol

I used to be able to determine what was my OCD and what’s real life but now it’s all just blending together. I literally can’t tell what’s true between what’s not true. my overthinking is absolutely terrible and rituals and everything is just crumbling.

Usually my thoughts go from statements, which I fight all the time, to doubts like “do I” or “i don’t know” but I don’t fight this. I’m not sure if this is progress or it’s the truth. Anyone else feel like this?