Why does these thoughts feel so real, it feels like I really want what my thoughts are telling me 😞

This is happening to me too. You are not alone

That makes me feel better but sometimes I question is it even ocd because it feels soooo real

That's ocd. It's hard because the thoughts seem real and threatening but they are only thoughts. It sounds simple to deal with for someone who doesn't have ocd, but it's incredibly difficult. Remember, ocd attacks the things that are precious to you.

You are definitely not alone💕