No matter what I do, or say, or try - My OCD IS TAKING MY LIFE FROM ME. Still chronic nightmares leaving me vacant most mornings. Will put on music, hop out of bed, down a red bill, turn on a comedy, call a friend, cry - nothing helps. I know my triggers. I know my OCD so well, I worked through my truant, in AA, in Outpatient - NOTHING IS WORKING.

It's a powerful illness and the more you try to handle it, the worse it gets if you don't handle it the right way. Can you get a therapist? I know it's disheartening.

I started with a NOCD one yesterday, but I’m in panick mode. This looks like me on the couch, safe, at home - but in internal calm choking panick.

@Anonymous ERP and therapy can be terrifying. It's the way out but it isn't easy.