It's a powerful illness and the more you try to handle it, the worse it gets if you don't handle it the right way. Can you get a therapist? I know it's disheartening.
I started with a NOCD one yesterday, but I’m in panick mode. This looks like me on the couch, safe, at home - but in internal calm choking panick.
@Anonymous ERP and therapy can be terrifying. It's the way out but it isn't easy.