SUPER common to feel this way. It’s your OCD trying to pull you back into the doubt and uncertainty.
It’s like I thought knowing I have ocd was going to solve my problems and it actually made my life so much worse because now idk what real feelings or not and what’s ocd or not 😅
And it’s especially hard with my ROCD I just don’t see hope right now
@ocd_ I have ROCD and the pandemic just made everything spike. Watching Dr. Patrick MCGrath’s sos video has really helped me when I’m spiraling. Love is not a feeling but our actions. We can’t know anything for certain and that’s where OCD gets us because it demands certainty. ERP literally saved my life when I literally had lost my mind and wanted to leave my husband and children. The thoughts can be so powerful at times that they make you physically ill and think “is this my subconscious demanding to be heard?” You can really spiral. ERP, breathwork, and meditation can really help. Again, you are not your thoughts you are your values and actions. Hopefully that helps a little bit. I have been where you are and it feels completely hopeless. It comes and goes in waves and know that the feeling you’re feeling won’t last forever.
@NOCD Advocate - Chelsea G. Thank you, this honestly helped a lot. Unfortunately I just have made a lot of mistakes and regrets in my relationship so it wasn’t the most stable once ROCD kicked in. Which has made my life even more complicated and hard to figure out.
@ocd_ If you’re willing to fight for it, you still want to be there. Try to push through.
Yeah unfortunately I kinda let my ocd pull me back in a bit, just gotta keep going forward!