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- 3y
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As I was reading your post, you took the words right out of my mouth. I was diagnosed with ocd, adhd, anxiety and depression. And suffer with intrusive thoughts which for me act out in a contamination way. I don’t want to get too much into it and end up posting a novel. But I just wanted to let you know your not alone, It takes me days to do something someone would probably be able to do in one evening because I advoid doing what is going to cause me anxiety because just about everywhere in my own house there is something contaminated. I don’t know what your intrusive thoughts are but maybe you can prioritize around them and build up the courage to tackle what your putting off. Like for me I just got on here to see if I could across some encouragement or support because I am currently trying to fight my compulsion to go sanitize my phone because I THINK it MAY have touched something contaminated and it’s leading me down an intrusive thought spiral. And also on the other hand, I am out of Lysol wipes because I used two entire canisters in the last 2 days. And I only used them on my phone and purse…
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- 3y
That’s my world too. Covid has really added to my contamination issues. I’ve been asking myself if my partner would clean something and if they wouldn’t, I try not to. For example, my partner teaches. When she gets home she still uses the phone no problem. My phone hasn’t left the house in a week and I wash my hands after touching it. Now I’m working on fighting the urge and committing to washing my hands when I leave the room to force myself to sit for a time without washing. Good luck!!!
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- 3y
Hello, I definitely agree that OCD really does affect more than I initially understood. I recently realized that too. It is soul crushing (for me at least) to feel so out of control with my own thoughts. My first step is signing up for the support group via zoom on this app. I haven’t attended yet but it would be so helpful to be able to listen to what other people are feeling and what works for them. I believe it is free. Either way, just know I definitely understand how frustrating it can get and I hope we both can find something to help. The first step for me is to meet other people who understand.
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I completely understand and am in the same situation. I have been suffering with my ocd technically since 3rd grade but it didn’t get to the point where it interferes with my life and daily tasks until about 12 years ago. Maybe a little longer. I think I was either 16 or 17 when it really hit me hard. And I know that isn’t very reassuring that I have been suffering daily with this for 13-14 years but truthfully it’s because I never gave my full effort to get a handle on it. I always took the easy road which was to give into my compulsions. Which is the complete opposite thing to do!
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- 24w
This my first post and frankly I am so scared. I was diagnosed with OCD as my first diagnosis, at only 10 years old. Ever since, my OCD has COMPLETELY overtaken my mind and actions. Im scared that if I ever get my OCD figured out and under control, I may loose a part of myself, because its so familiar to me and all Ive ever known. As someone who is ready to tackle their extreme OCD thinking, where should I start? I am open to any/all suggestions. PLEASE leave any advice that you recommend and that has benefited you in your own journey!!!! Thanks!
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Hi, I’m new to the app as of today. I’m 20 years old, and wanted to get some stuff off my chest about the types of OCD I’ve been experiencing over the years. I’m not entirely sure how or when my OCD was brought up, but I’ve been a perfectionist for as long as I can remember. Anywhere and everywhere I go, if I see things placed in an order/angle that my brain doesn’t approve of, next thing I know I’m “fixing” it to be in the placement I feel looks better. I’m not aware of why I feel the need to do that, but until an object is in the “right” placement, I won’t take my eyes off of it. My eye will even twitch. Another form of OCD I have is in relationships. I spend each day overthinking and over-analyzing every one of the relationships that are important to me. Friends, family, significant other. Another one is what’s considered “Pure OCD” . When I get an intrusive thought of something devilish, whether it’s randomly seeing my great aunt naked bc my grandma considers her “fat” even though she’s not, or it’s seeing something demonic and traumatizing, I immediately tell myself, “I don’t wanna see/think about that” over and over and over until the thought is gone. Or I’ll try to replace one mental image with another. One other form of OCD I face every day, is religion. I got baptized for the first time in my life earlier this year in January. I had finally started to repent for my sins, and now I’m constantly feeling afraid that I’m letting God down due to my depression/lack of motivation and vaping/smoking. I also fear excessively that He’ll banish me from His kingdom, or just turn a cold shoulder. I know that what I’ve just typed up is probably all over the place. That is my brain unfortunately. How do you go from being a mentally disorderly and seemingly erratic young woman, to a more well-established, successful woman? I’m all ears!
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- 13w
Hello, I’m new to this app. I’ve always had an anxious brain, and I’ve had coping mechanisms for as long as I can remember. When I was a kid, from as early as I could spell, until I was probably early teens, I would constantly write words in my head along to the beat of music. It’s such a vivid memory because I never stopped doing it. The word had to perfectly match up to the lyric and I loved that it kept my brain busy. I grew out of that, but felt like good context. My anxiety increased drastically around ages 17-19, and I began therapy. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety and panic disorder, due to having a panic attack nearly every day at that time. I overcame that as well, and now the panic attacks are every now and then, but the anxiety is constant, and some recent symptoms have led me to believe I might have some form of OCD. Maybe not. I’m trying to understand myself and get better so I joined this app to make sense of things. Lately I’ve been having really intense intrusive thoughts. I’m really embarassed and they make me feel like a bad person. Thoughts pop in my head seemingly out of nowhere. It will be an image of me harming myself or someone else in a really bad way. (Trigger warning) for example the other day I couldn’t shake the image of me putting a knife through my own forehead, although it’s not something I want to do. Or I’ll imagine someone killing me. I imagine my loved ones dying often. The thoughts feel so out of my control it’s insane. I hate them. Another persistent issue that isn’t as new is replaying social scenarios. I’m a hairstylist so this one is difficult since I meet a bunch of new people every day. I obsess over how I act and if people like me. I will impulsively say things all the time and they will haunt me for weeks. I question even my closest friends and family who show their love. I find myself so angry and numb and like I have so much built up emotion and a busy mind always. While doing my job I spiral really badly if any little thing goes wrong and it’s embarassing. I know there’s more but I can’t think of it now. I just want to feel better and like I’m not constantly battling my mind.
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