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As I was reading your post, you took the words right out of my mouth. I was diagnosed with ocd, adhd, anxiety and depression. And suffer with intrusive thoughts which for me act out in a contamination way. I don’t want to get too much into it and end up posting a novel. But I just wanted to let you know your not alone, It takes me days to do something someone would probably be able to do in one evening because I advoid doing what is going to cause me anxiety because just about everywhere in my own house there is something contaminated. I don’t know what your intrusive thoughts are but maybe you can prioritize around them and build up the courage to tackle what your putting off. Like for me I just got on here to see if I could across some encouragement or support because I am currently trying to fight my compulsion to go sanitize my phone because I THINK it MAY have touched something contaminated and it’s leading me down an intrusive thought spiral. And also on the other hand, I am out of Lysol wipes because I used two entire canisters in the last 2 days. And I only used them on my phone and purse…
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That’s my world too. Covid has really added to my contamination issues. I’ve been asking myself if my partner would clean something and if they wouldn’t, I try not to. For example, my partner teaches. When she gets home she still uses the phone no problem. My phone hasn’t left the house in a week and I wash my hands after touching it. Now I’m working on fighting the urge and committing to washing my hands when I leave the room to force myself to sit for a time without washing. Good luck!!!
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Hello, I definitely agree that OCD really does affect more than I initially understood. I recently realized that too. It is soul crushing (for me at least) to feel so out of control with my own thoughts. My first step is signing up for the support group via zoom on this app. I haven’t attended yet but it would be so helpful to be able to listen to what other people are feeling and what works for them. I believe it is free. Either way, just know I definitely understand how frustrating it can get and I hope we both can find something to help. The first step for me is to meet other people who understand.
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I completely understand and am in the same situation. I have been suffering with my ocd technically since 3rd grade but it didn’t get to the point where it interferes with my life and daily tasks until about 12 years ago. Maybe a little longer. I think I was either 16 or 17 when it really hit me hard. And I know that isn’t very reassuring that I have been suffering daily with this for 13-14 years but truthfully it’s because I never gave my full effort to get a handle on it. I always took the easy road which was to give into my compulsions. Which is the complete opposite thing to do!
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