Well, can I tell you how I was diagnosed with OCD? It all started when the pandemic appeared, I remember I was very afraid of being infected by COVID, and I couldn't leave for ANYTHING, and my grandmother had to stay in the hospital because she had a worsening of the kidney disease at the same time, and I was so worried and so afraid of her getting Covid or dying from her illness, I couldn't sleep or eat anything, I was vomiting and crying for a couple of weeks, then when she got better, she came home, and then about a week then my mom had to get an x-ray, and I remember being obsessed with the fear that she had a serious illness like cancer or something, and I couldn't stop praying that God wouldn't let her sick. Then I started having different kinds of obsessive thoughts and intrusive thoughts, and all these thoughts made me very anxious. I was obsessed with: getting a disease, fear of my family members dying, being racist, fear of an accident and many intrusive thoughts. And then it all got worse when two of my best friends told me they could be bi, and I started getting obsessed with the thought "if my best friends are, I must be too", and that thought killed me, and my anxiety became worse than ever, and I hated it more than anything, my brain couldn't stop telling me that I was attracted to every girl I saw. I looked for a psychologist, but I couldn't tell her anything, it was impossible, I didn't stop crying and feeling very bad. And then I started having intrusive sexual thoughts about everybody, even my family and my best friends, and I started a new obsession about being in incest, ugh, it was horrible, I just wanted to be away from everyone, it made me sick. About a month later I had an intrusive thought about hurting my mom and it scared me, it made me really afraid and nervous, I couldn't stop crying and so I went to a psychoanalyst and I told him about this thought, he told me that it could be my anxiety and fear of losing my mother. But these thoughts didn't stop, they came stronger and more frequent, I didn't want to be alive with these thoughts, so I started having some suicidal thoughts, and those thoughts scared me too, and I was very scared of dying. So I went to a psychiatrist and she diagnosed OCD, and prescribed me some medications. Now I'm on ERP therapy and I'm getting better little by little. I still have a lot of intrusive thoughts and a lot of other themes, but this text would be too long if I explained everything, so that's how I was diagnosed with OCD, if you want to share your story with OCD, feel free to comment :)

Lms526

Date posted: 4y

So my story is kind of strange. OCD was never even on my radar until last month. I was listening to a podcast that discussed mental health issues, but it wasn't a mental health podcast. I decided to listen to an episode that featured a guest that has OCD. Prior to that, I thought OCD was just handwashing and wanting things very neat and organized. So I was beyond shocked when I realized I had many of the same thoughts and experiences as the person with OCD. I started to think I had OCD as well. I decided to do some research to prove to myself I didn't have OCD. But it did the opposite. Once I knew what to look for, I realized I started experiencing intrusive thoughts starting around age 8. For the first time, things I had written off as personality quirks started to make sense. I realized for the first time that my thoughts and experiences weren't normal. I believed everyone struggled the way I did. Shortly before starting treatment, I had one of the darkest periods of my life. I knew I needed professional help. But I felt completely hopeless. I didn't believe anything would change. I went into my OCD assessment believing that my counselor would tell me I didn't meet the criteria for OCD. But instead, I got diagnosed with OCD at age 45. ERP was brutal. But it works. I have made major progress. I haven't reached recovery yet, but I am determined to get there. ERP has been life changing for me.

LoverGirl

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story jere! It’s so hard when you’re dealing with multiple themes! I struggle with rocd and hocd and it has completely destroyed me. It’s so scary because I’m in a long term relationship with my bf and it’s been so hard. But you are not alone !

PanikinSkywa...

Date posted: 4y

Thats very brave to tell your story and put yourself out there like that. Im almost done with ERP! Keep pushing through, its worth it! Best of luck on your healing journey!

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