So the game didn’t go how I expected with my friends but our team won tho, I just felt left out and judged by one of my friends in our friend group I felt like she was judging me and seeing me in a different way like if she was suspicious of me :( idk if it’s bc of when I liked a guy who was one year younger than me and she said something like “you like younger dudes kat?” But my other friend didn’t take it seriously she thought it was a joke but this was like a few months ago so that’s why I’m thinking if it’s something I said or if acted a certain way bc I also felt kinda left out too and felt like she was closer to my other friend more than me :/ idk I feel like I’m being dramatic or too sensitive abt it but I do get friend jealous or just feel left out and isolated if I don’t feel like included especially if I’m like kinda trying but idk whatever I’ll just get over it ig 😭 I hate conflict so I might keep it to myself and not tell her abt it. I just feel like maybe I don’t have a right to be defensive bc what if that makes me a pedo and I’m denying it? Like my abuser would say stuff to me abt how like he wouldn’t do anything to me and stuff like “I’m not gonna do anything, you’re acting like I’m gonna do something to you !” And idk if I’m the same way :( I really hate this. Omg this is soo long sorry y’all but if you read it then “🥺❤️🩹” I love you but I honestly just feel alone in this theme sometimes and I feel better to vent here 😭 but I don’t mean to always like get attention but I just- idk I hardly ever feel listened to when I open up abt my true feelings so yah 😅 haha I’m done now 🧍🏽♀️
