I've recently started to identify less with being a Christian and now I can't stop thinking about what if I actually want to be a Muslim. Idk much about Islam, it's cool, but it literally feels like I'm going to convert and idk what to do. Ignore this? But questioning isn't a bad thing in itself I'm just freaking out

I’ve lost my interest in men. I’ve been telling myself what if I’m gay for over a year now and I feel like I’m gay now. I feel like my biggest worry is coming out now. In my religion and culture it’s wrong and I don’t want it. It all started as a movie scene last year. I’ve accepted it I’ve given up. I feel like I’ve been in denial the past a year. I’m on tinder looking at girls now cause I don’t know anymore. Now I can’t seem to find someone I’m interested in I can’t see myself kissing a girl or sleeping with one. I just truly believe I’m gay and I have to call my mom and come out. I want to cry. I’m nervous idk what’s real. Am I gay? Or is this ocd? Am I bi? Should I come out? Was my life a lie? Am I in denial cause it’s unacceptable? Will my parents love me? If I’m worried about them then it’s cause I’m in denial right? Ugh I want to die.

I think this is my religion/existential OCD? I think I’m having an identity crisis because I feel like I know who I am. What I mean is that I place my identity in my values, and my passions. But I feel so incredibly guilty about that. Because everyone says to live through Christ. I’m having lots of doubts. Maybe I’ve made everything up. If I want to be a real Christian then I need to place my identity in only Christ, and to me I suppose that means to make religion the most important part of life. If I’m honest, I don’t think I can put God first. My passions and purpose seem to go before Him, even though I know that’s wrong. Or is it. I don’t know. I’m having an existential crisis at 17 because I’ve been through the ringer. I’m just so confused. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to put my worth in Christ. And I feel like an awful person for that.

I'm a Christian, I've been a Christian for as long as I can remember. I love my faith and was in the midst of getting back into it. However now I'm afraid. The troubling thing about the abrahamic faiths is that there is a heaven and there is a hell. I'm not sure much about Judaism but I know in Christianity and Islam that he'll exists. Now I saw some thing stating a claim that all Christians will go to hell in Islam and now I'm questioning my faith and can't stop thinking about it. Not to say that I don't love my muslim brothers and sisters. I'm I just very confused and scared. I can't afford to be wrong.