Why do I get a flair up of ocd and anxiety before a vacation?! So annoying!!! Any advice on how to get back on track and stay there? It's like my ocd doesn't want me to enjoy life.

I do the same thing! I hate learning things incomplete or undone so I drive myself mad trying to finish everything up!

Of course, your ocd wants you to suffer and ruminate all day locked in your room. It’s a bunch of crap. Just agree with bulshit that it’s telling you and go on with your life. I admit that I am worst pedophile and murderer and evil satan person who’s gonna burn in hell God’s willing for eternities. Yet I’m gonna go out and have a good time and work on my car a little bit.

I know that feeling. It's when things are the most important to us, or we kinda "need to feel okay" we put a lot of pressure on ourselves and try so hard to be okay that we kinda do the opposite

I kinda learned to accept that my ocd will come anyways especially on a holiday. But I know I'll manage and one day I will be able to enjoy my vacation completely. But hey, I try to see flare ups as an opportunity to practise my erps