does anyone else have things that they stopped doing because of ocd? ~
i am having an obsession with false memory and it consumes my day of trying to remember what i think i did. it takes me away from the people around me
@honeybee17 im sorry, i struggle with this too and i usually end up zoning out or thinking over the situation a bunch of times while hanging out with others, but it does get better and im here to help if you need ~
@✧ ˙｡⋆ Bee ⋆ ｡˙✧ yes i do too, it’s called dissociating. it’s nice to know when you’re not alone :) stay strong and i’m here too! 🤍
@honeybee17 Me too :(
@honeybee17 This is what I’m going through !!!! I can’t take it anymore. My false memories happen instantly after an intrusive thought
@Nrp Me too and it happens basically everyday for me
@alittleapple Same here , it feels endless and it’s exhausting. I have my first therapy session Monday and I am hoping it helps me
@Nrp It really is exausting. It feels so real everytime and everytime I get a new one I am like well this one must be real because ___.
@alittleapple Yup! And everytime I try and pull myself out of it my ocd ropes me back in by saying “but what if you did “
@Nrp Yupp same and the guilt makes me really think about death alot
@alittleapple Does the therapist help you with your false memories ?
@Nrp same here! there is no time in between from reality and false memories. it hits in a second. it’s one of my main themes. it’s really hard because i feel guilty and feel like a bad person and i’m just waiting for my world to crash any second.
@alittleapple it happens to me a lot as well.
@Nrp With erp but im new to it so idk if it helps yet
@honeybee17 Same :(
@honeybee17 Yes like for me I will get an intrusive thought/image and then the anxiety comes strong and I freak out and immediately get scared I did something
@alittleapple I’ve never done erp with a therapist I’ve tried on my own, but I need an actual therapist who specialized in ocd bc I can’t take it anymore. Wishing you peace and light and a new look on your ocd journey
i am not present
I have a question, have you solved all the things you thought you did or are you living with thw uncertainty? How do you deal with the uncertainty if the things are really just horrible? I’m having such a hard time with this
@alittleapple Usually with this theme, it’s constant everyday and I forget about the ones from the previous day bc of the new ones happening that specific day
@Nrp Same but there’s always a disgusting feeling of guilt and depression
@alittleapple I can never just enjoy the moment or look towards the future because Idk how much longer I’ll bear this and will be able to stay on this earth
@alittleapple Yes I feel the same exact way, always lingering guilt which leads to my depression
@alittleapple Please hang in there , things will get better I promise you, I’ve gone through this many times except this time I am seeking help.
@Nrp I get so angry and frustrated over everything now omg I’m having a hard time not putting the blame on myself
I’m struggling so much :( I really don’t know how long I can do this
im sorry, what's been bothering you the most? ~
@✧ ˙｡⋆ Bee ⋆ ｡˙✧ Everyday I am convinced that I killed people :( new ones daily and although sometimes they get “solved” and I’m like “oh yeah i didnt do any of them” the next day I’ll be like yes i did. And they build up