Literally no one would believe me when I tell them I didn’t exactly know how bad it was when I made the mistake I did.. not even me some of the time. I keep telling myself I should have thought so much harder before doing that. Even if I had just done one thing different it would have been fine. I want to turn back time so badly but i would feel guilty if I did because with feel I deserve this pain which I do but🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣lmao

ocd is a wild ride lol

Ikr. But ik I deserve it at this point so im just sitting here and doing my school work

@snva nope no one deserves ocd. sending u love girl

It's so good that you can recognize this and laugh about it. Sometimes a laugh is all OCD deserves. Regretting mistakes and then being overly careful about future decisions is a struggle for me too.

We all have things that we regret having done. That makes us human. And if you hadn’t made this mistake ocd would attack somewhere else. OCD is not about the intrusive thought. It is about our response.

that is so true

I'm struggling with this so much... Cause my childhood taboo and sexual mistakes are ending me..😔

@itsAnna You are not your mistakes. Are you in ERP therapy ?

@Jeffrey Thank you so much. 😭 I'm not in ERP therapy tbh cause I don't really think there is any better therapist in my country plus I can't afford it. :(

@itsAnna hey come to the support groups, they are a great place to learn about erp if you cant see a therapisr

@itsAnna You are not alone in this! I am struggling with the same things. It makes it so much harder to talk about but I know there are others out there like us feeling the same way, that we are the only ones who have done such horrible things and everyone would turn away from us if they knew. It’s hard to believe this but I’m pretty sure someone else looking at the whole picture would tell us our ocd is making us feel isolated and so much worse than the rest of the world and it’s not true!

@Manz I don't know why but when I click on support groups, my phone gets full on white screen so I can't join the support group 😔

@Have a sunflower🌻 Thank you so so so much. Your comment means the world to me.. My OCD also makes me think that my sexual and taboo mistakes are actually crimes.. is this common? Did this happen to you too? :(

@itsAnna hey, yeah for some reason i can only join when i go to the website in my computer and sign in

@Manz Aww so you can't join it from your phone either? :(

@itsAnna no. only from my computer. not sure why

@itsAnna once you join though, they email you the zoom link which im sure you can use through your phone through the zoom app. i havent tried it that way but im pretty sure its easily possible

@itsAnna Oh yes! This is also very common! I worry about that and I have talked to others who are in the same position.

@Have a sunflower🌻 .... and here I thought I was the only one..

@itsAnna you are not alone for sure

@Manz Thank you so much 😭

@Have a sunflower🌻 Thank you so much for everything 😭💞

@Manz Awwwee

@Manz I tried again but my phone isn't allowing to join the support groups at all :(

@itsAnna do you have access to a computer or laptop you feel comfortable using? i would sign up from the website page on a desktop. go to www.treatmyocd.com ...you just login and click the 'community' tab. you can click 'see all groups' to see everything offered throughout the week. there are also links to the livestreams

@itsAnna you can also access the same site from your phone if you use a browser instead of the app

@itsAnna Of course! At least we will know each other in jail if it comes down to it 🤷🏼‍♀️😂😬. I’m always here for support!

@Have a sunflower🌻 Thanks for supporting.. Oh ..that's..a..joke right..?

@Manz Thanks a lot!!! But I tried again with the link.. it still didn't work. :( Also, I don't have my own laptop or my own computer so..

@itsAnna Yes! That’s a joke. Sometimes if I don’t joke about the things that are freaking me out, I’ll just panic. Plus I feel like it helps take away some of ocd’s power. Sorry if it scared you that wasn’t my intention at all!

@Have a sunflower🌻 I keep getting notifications on this post since I commented and just wanted to say that humor is definitely a cure in the moment sometimes. 😊

@natbrigham Haha thanks! It’s funny when that happens and you become like the third wheel and just observe as the conversation continues. That happens to me sometimes too!

@Have a sunflower🌻 Haha yes! I'm not trying to be creepy or anything though lol

@natbrigham Haha yea it’s like hey 👋 so not that I’ve been reading the whole conversation (I’ve been reading the whole conversation 😂) but I came across this comment that resonates with me… Don’t worry you don’t seem creepy. We post on here knowing anyone can read it haha

@Have a sunflower🌻 @natbrigham i used humour a lot. made a couple posts on here that were humourous but i deleted them because i wasnt sure the humour-level of folks or if the jokes would be taken wrong. nice to see others make fun of their ocd too :)

@itsAnna im really sorry the link wont work. did you type it in to your browser or try to link from here? i wish the app worked better

@Have a sunflower🌻 Hey! Don't worry! You didn't scare me it's just OCD always makes everything so serious for me. Sorry hehe and sometimes joking can stop us from freaking out haha! 💜💜💜

@Manz I tried the link. Didn't work 😔

@itsAnna are you okay the other post got deleted. still there? don’t commit that won’t help anyone at all.

@itsAnna call the suicide hotline and talk to them.

@itsAnna Oh good! I’m glad to hear that I didn’t scare you. Sorry that was definitely not my intention! I understand though with most of my ocd topics I can’t really joke about them yet but this time I was able to probably because just knowing I wasn’t alone on the topic eased some of my anxiety.

@itsAnna Algorithms on social media are silly sometimes.

Oh my goodness! Same! What gets me sometimes too is I did it more than once so it is not really a mistake so much as a bad choice that I kept making 😬.