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Thank you so much🥺💗. Hoping better days for you!!
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Guess what not to long ago I felt the exact same as you exactly lol but I promise if you keep fighting ocd it gets easier and easier I kept on fighting towards that and I'm feeling lots better I still have ocd and still fighting but if you keep fighting it will work I used to hate the month September sooooo much because September 1st was the first day my ocd got really bad and I got anxiety thoughts that day and it was so scary because I had ocd but it wasn't nearly as bad as it got that day and then I went to a bunch of different t doctors and counselors and really just trying to fight it and here I am so I belive you can do it Fight!!!!
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I’ll try to keep fighting even tho it feels hard :( you continue to fight tooo💗💗
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Totally agree with all. Three years ago I was so much worse than I am now. Had Suicidal Ideation, tried to cut myself, even tried to jump out of the moving vehicle. Since we had gone through this 20 years ago my husband was ready for anything. And I know I really did not want to kill myself. I also believe that God and His son Jesus are with me to help me through this. I am a survivor and will get through this. Too many people love me and have been praying for me, and I will not let them down. So far I have survived Covid, now I will survive this. Don't know if I got off topic. Sorry if I did. One of my many vices
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I’m glad you are in a better spot today!!! I hope you continue to progress and get to the spot where you want to be!! I have also experienced suicidal thoughts. I had let go of the wheel two times when driving alone at night but i quickly grabbed it because I knew I didn’t really want to do that. Also because I didn’t want to hurt the people around me who believe in me. My mom told me nothing lasts forever just for periods of time. To not worry it will get better! You will survive, we all will survive! Thanks for commenting and reading it’s much appreciated 💗
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This goes for everyone that is going through this process. Love y'all
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There is hope. Do not give up, also I look at crying as a compulsion. Try to live with these thoughts and not react with them by crying and see the long term difference! :)
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Can it be a compulsion? I feel like the thoughts get overwhelming and I want to cry because it just makes me sad
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Yeah it sucks no one around knows. I cant tell them either because they wouldn’t understand. Sometimes I wish I knew someone in real life that suffers the same as me. I know there’s a lot of people out there that suffer too but I feel like knowing someone close to me as friend wouldnt feel as lonely :(
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Ionerjayv3, Thank you for being here with me. We will get through this together. I feel the only way from here is UP. And that's where I plan on going. Love you too, and see you at the finish line. Good luck
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I genuinely can't help but feel irredeemable over every little mistake made or regret I've had. It's so up and down, but I just miss the certainty. Knowing "this is who I am." I'm so disconnected from myself. Like, I'm really, really trying. Today is really rough... I got triggered the other night, and it's been hell since. I've been fighting seeking reassurance. I want it so, so incredibly bad, but I know it won't help me :( Some days, I just don't want to be here. It's funny because yesterday I felt amazing until I got triggered. I just immediately spiraled after that. I don't know. Does it genuinely get better? Will therapy really help me? Sometimes, I think maybe this is the best it'll get, and that scares me. Sorry for the vent. I'm just feeling so overwhelmingly anxious right now. I can't even cry (due to Zoloft). It feels claustrophobic somehow, having all these emotions trapped inside of my body with nowhere to go 😭
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I’m definitely having an episode right now. A few times I’ve thought about coming onto this app and writing something but then I spiral further and further and I forget about anything except what’s triggering me. Then I think about this app again and intend to write a post… but again I’m spiraling too hard to focus on anything else. But I finally ended up here because I got an email from NOCD. I opened it and read about someone who ‘overcame their OCD.’ It made me spiral harder, because I genuinely don’t understand how someone can control this. How do I stop? How do I silence my brain? I was told to sit with my thoughts and not try to divert them, but if I do that I have an extreme episode so bad that I feel disconnected from myself. I looked at myself in the mirror and it felt like my eyes were seeing someone standing in front of me and not my reflection. It scares me to think that I will be experiencing these episodes forever. I literally just put my phone down twice because I thought my cat was choking to death because he had a hairball (he’s fine) I just feel like I can’t see a way out of this. It’s not curable, and I don’t understand how someone can ‘conquer’ something that feels so out of control Obviously it’s possible, but unfortunately that reassurance doesn’t always break through the most awful thoughts Sometimes there’s nothing that can make me calm down, I just have to ride it out I hope there’s never a day where it’s so out of control that I can’t keep it in at work, and I ruin my own life by having a severe panic attack while I’m there and being fired. If I had the type of episodes at work that I have consistently at home, I would be so humiliated. It scares me. I’m trying so hard to be normal like everyone else. I just want to be happy. I just want to live.
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