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Thank you so much🥺💗. Hoping better days for you!!
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Guess what not to long ago I felt the exact same as you exactly lol but I promise if you keep fighting ocd it gets easier and easier I kept on fighting towards that and I'm feeling lots better I still have ocd and still fighting but if you keep fighting it will work I used to hate the month September sooooo much because September 1st was the first day my ocd got really bad and I got anxiety thoughts that day and it was so scary because I had ocd but it wasn't nearly as bad as it got that day and then I went to a bunch of different t doctors and counselors and really just trying to fight it and here I am so I belive you can do it Fight!!!!
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I’ll try to keep fighting even tho it feels hard :( you continue to fight tooo💗💗
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Totally agree with all. Three years ago I was so much worse than I am now. Had Suicidal Ideation, tried to cut myself, even tried to jump out of the moving vehicle. Since we had gone through this 20 years ago my husband was ready for anything. And I know I really did not want to kill myself. I also believe that God and His son Jesus are with me to help me through this. I am a survivor and will get through this. Too many people love me and have been praying for me, and I will not let them down. So far I have survived Covid, now I will survive this. Don't know if I got off topic. Sorry if I did. One of my many vices
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I’m glad you are in a better spot today!!! I hope you continue to progress and get to the spot where you want to be!! I have also experienced suicidal thoughts. I had let go of the wheel two times when driving alone at night but i quickly grabbed it because I knew I didn’t really want to do that. Also because I didn’t want to hurt the people around me who believe in me. My mom told me nothing lasts forever just for periods of time. To not worry it will get better! You will survive, we all will survive! Thanks for commenting and reading it’s much appreciated 💗
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This goes for everyone that is going through this process. Love y'all
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There is hope. Do not give up, also I look at crying as a compulsion. Try to live with these thoughts and not react with them by crying and see the long term difference! :)
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Can it be a compulsion? I feel like the thoughts get overwhelming and I want to cry because it just makes me sad
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Yeah it sucks no one around knows. I cant tell them either because they wouldn’t understand. Sometimes I wish I knew someone in real life that suffers the same as me. I know there’s a lot of people out there that suffer too but I feel like knowing someone close to me as friend wouldnt feel as lonely :(
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Ionerjayv3, Thank you for being here with me. We will get through this together. I feel the only way from here is UP. And that's where I plan on going. Love you too, and see you at the finish line. Good luck
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