I'm such a weirdo for having peculiar OCD urges. I keep sticking my index finger into my nose as deep as I can. I want to stop but the urge is strong 😔

I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.

I obsess constantly about my hands being dirty and feel like I can actually see the germs and bacteria crawling all over my hands if I can’t wash them as soon as I touch something. It’s really embarrassing since people in my life have noticed this “weird” behavior but it’s a huge problem for me and I don’t know how to make the obsessive thoughts stop.

when I watch my sister and she does something around her lips, I don't know why she has this habit of touching them and scratching them, I feel that it attracts me or excites me. I don't really know how it stops..if it stops..if it's ocd...I can't spend normal time anymore…I am alone in this..?!