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anonymous
11d ago

My contamination ocd is getting worse everyday idk what to do. I have to wear socks whenever I go downstairs to avoid crumbs touching me, then when I go back to my room I have to change my socks because anything “dirty” couldve touched my socks. I cant have “dirty” towels or my shower curtain touch me after a shower, and if my curtain touches me I have to re-shower. I make “clean” areas in my house where only I can sit and if someone rearranges it I go crazy. I only touch certain parts of doors and handles. I have to wipe down every chair I sit in. On top of real event ocd, POCD, intrusive thoughts, false memories, and intense anxiety, this is all getting very difficult.

anonymous
11d ago
And surprisingly, even though this theme is the most physically taxing I prefer it to the intense anxiety I get from real event.
Praise
11d ago
Are you in treatment? ERP and possibly medication in addition is the effective treatment. It takes a lot of hard work but it is worth it
anonymous
11d ago
I’m not.. I was in therapy this time last year but my therapist didn’t know what she was doing and made it worse.
Praise
10d ago
@anonymous I totally hear you, I just encourage you to seek proper treatment if at all possible - it's the only way to heal and recover
via
10d ago
Hi, I really appreciate you posting this as I’m reading it I feel like “wow I’m not alone” I do the exact same thing with wearing socks downstairs and then changing them once I get into my room. I also experience “dirty” towels and if my shower curtain touches me I have to re shower. I hope you know you are NOT alone... The changing socks can be extremely stressful and what I do now is I bought a “clean” new pair of slippers and if I need to walk around my house I slip them on and then I take them off once I get into my room. ( I find this helps with making less loads of laundry ) I’m not sure if this is helpful or not, but I truly hope things get better for you soon.
anonymous
9d ago
Oh my god I cant believe someone else deals with something as specific as this?! I’m really sorry you’re dealing with the same. It’s so exhausting.
anonymous
9d ago
@anonymous I hope things get better for you too.