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Parents dont slate me, they just think its āa phaseā ā¦. But im 18 and ive been out for a year now This ocd is crazy
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Iām sorry your parents triggered your OCD so deeply. Those we love and who mean well can accidentally set off avalanches because we value their opinions as we value them. OCD loves that! It loves to hit us where it hurts the most. It also loves to hit us where we wouldnāt expect it, hence where we were feeling certain before it latched on. As a note on your parentsā comments. I personally try to stay open to gender issues, but I also struggle with FULLY understanding. I can logically understand that definitions are expanding and even appreciate embracing that I can find myself better when looking beyond binary. It takes time and work to let knowledge become instinct. However, after decades (personally) and generations (collectively) sometimes itās hard to COMPLETELY grasp ānewerā (they arenāt new at all, just more commonly discussed and accepted) concepts of gender. So while trans persons have existed since genders have, cisgender persons have a lot of catching up to do in understanding and accepting it in a complete and contemporary manner. Why do I remind you of all that while youāre struggling? Because youāre right. And while you love your parents and value what they say, your OCD glommed right onto that. So while your OCD is trying to make you feel uncertain about your own identity. Iām just trying to impishly point out to your OCD the vast uncertainty in their comments. Whether or not my words were any help at all, please know Iām sending you strength and comfort. šŖš¼š
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