- Username
- Rose
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Two big things that keep me in the recovery path. One is: I’ve changed my lifestyle. I go to sleep most of the time relatively earlier. I do yoga and meditation almost every day and exercise. I keep myself busy with engaging work, nature, and a support system of like minded people. The second big thing: This is the hardest one, because in the western industrialized world we are taught we are our ego and we are our identit, but- I have worked to eliminate narratives about who I am. OCD loves narratives. The second you say “im such and such” is the second OCD questions it. I’ve become more of a chameleon. “I am that I am.” OCD can’t cling to you if you don’t spend time defending your identity. “I’m a good person.” “I’m a heterosexual” “i love my partner.” All those things cause ocd to question yourself. But when you seperate from the narrative you learn to just be. And when you learn to just be- you can enjoy everything. And of course erp, and acceptance of feelings and thoughts really helps me. As well as a lot of self compassion and reminder that life is finite, so just let it go.
Wow. Thank you so much
Recovery is a process and an imperfect one at that. You might find support through our community groups- they're a great way to get support while you navigate recovery. It's easy to get caught up on "what if"s about the past- but that's simply another attempt of OCD to control your life! It's important to have self-compassion and recognize those ruminations for what they are. It might help to spend some time focusing on your values - the reason why you wanted to recover from OCD in the first place!
Why don’t you sign up for it again?
The finances. I did it twice already.
@Rose I would call around to ERP therapists and see if you can negotiate price. I only pay $20 a session
@Maybe,MaybeNot Wow. I have gotten in debt since my onset of ocd. Gone through several therapist and at first I didn't know what I had so lots of doctors and tests, etc.
@Rose Yep I just keep calling around until I get what I want lol. Lots of private practices will do what they call a sliding scale fee. You just have to ask for it and tell them what you can afford. NOCD does not do that.
Ive posted on this app a few times this week, and I don’t like being a negative person, I just feel like I need to vent to people who get it. I’ve had ocd since I was a child, and I’ve been doing ERP for like 6 months and I’m still STRUGGLING. The spirals are horrible and I just worry I don’t have the strength to recover like a lot of other people have. Has anyone else felt like this and gotten through it? One of my motivations is to come out the other side and being able to post my success story here to hopefully inspire others. Curious to hear your success stories if you’re comfortable sharing.
I need a different perspective on this. I feel like I'm being run through the ringer. I'm doing what I can to avoid reassurance and not avoid triggers but I get triggered every day. I'm trying so hard to sit with the panic and the horror but it's so hard. It gets to the point I feel physically sick. Is there anything that I can do to help with this? I feel alone. I don't feel strong, I feel like a punching bag. Why is this so hard to master? I really want to know it gets easier. I've been suffering from POCD that has evolved and gotten worse and worse over the past eight months that has been torturing me multiple times on a daily basis and I feel like I'm drowning. I want to run away and hide because my life feel like it's seconds from being ruined. Please, please tell me this gets easier. That this ERP therapy will stop making me feel like I'm dying. The small moments of victory feel so brief only for me to get hit with another wave. There is so much uncertainty over such a horrific thing I feel ill. I feel afraid to be alone with my mind. Please if anyone out there can please give me tips on how to handle ERP. One moment I think I'm finally beating this thing and the next it's got me pinned and I'm terrified my life will be ruined. I want my peace back, I need help and I'm doing everything I can to resist compulsions but I feel so alone and dirty and disgusting. Please help me. Thank you for any advice 💕
Hi everyone, how are you doing? It’s been a really long time since I’ve posted on here. I still remember at the beginning of this year (in January) I had gotten my ocd diagnosis. After that I did ERP and I did get better thankfully. Started doing mindfulness and being present in the moment. 11 months on I feel better than I was at the beginning. Yes there are times where it is tough, but after the rain there is always a sunshine Right now I feel like I’m relapsing, but the truth is ocd isn’t something that goes away… it’s something that will always be a part of you. You just need to learn to accept it. Sometimes when we get better we forget that ocd is still there, that’s when we get caught off guard. This is a reminder to myself first, always continue to be consistent with ERP. By the way, has anyone got any advice for when ocd themes/symptoms resurface again? Thanks!
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