I feel numb and heartbroken. Not sure who to talk to. I need more therapy sessions as well

I'm sorry you feel this way. It's great that you're recognizing this as a good time to get some additional therapy sessions in. This is important so that you can start to manage the situation now rather than letting it potentially get even worse. Do you have a NOCD therapist? Do you need some additional help in getting in touch with a therapist? Let me know and we can try to help you out. You've got this.