I dont even know who I am anymore ...

@cesar CAn i ask you

@ademsao05 Yes

@NOCD Advocate - Cesar O. Basically i have relationship OCD i just had a dream that I cheated on my gf, also I have other weird thoughts that I hate my girlfriend :( because she is a b*tch or idk, it makes no sense and it triggers so much anxiety :( ,

@ademsao05 Thanks for feeling comfortable with me, I know how you feel. Dreams like thoughts are out of your control. The fact that you are bothered by cheating on your girlfriend in a dream means that you wouldn't cheat on her in real life, intrusive thoughts will come and make us feel bad because they go against our values. I've had intrusive thoughts about most people I love and it's not how I really feel about them, it takes time to learn how to disregard these thoughts and just see them as thoughts not as our values. It's normal to feel annoyed at someone or angry, especially living together or seeing seeing often, but it's also good to talk about those feelings when there's a real problem. If everything is fine and you're getting those intrusive thoughts then you know it's ocd trying to get a compulsion from you, let the thoughts be and move on don't overthink what they mean, because they don't mean anything, enjoy time with her responsibly, live! Dreams are just that. Don't let ocd tell you what to do.

You're welcome, remember this though, you have ocd and doubt will strike you again eventually but remember don't overthink it, laugh at the thoughts and live

@NOCD Advocate - Cesar O. Hello I’m really struggling with the thought of what if I like this girl I haven’t seen in 3 years more than my girlfriend of nearly 3 years because I had more of a crush on her back then than I did when I first met my girlfriend but I wouldn’t change my girlfriend for the world she is the most important person in my life and I would literally die for her she means everything to me I just want to go back to how it was before these thoughts talking about getting married and having children together and now anytime I try have a nice thought about her my mind replaces it with the other girl and it gives me so much anxiety I just want to love my girlfriend I hate this

@Anonymous Out of love for her seek therapy and do the work the therapist says, you can't live your life on what ifs, be honest with yourself about your feelings and don't make any important decision until you have ocd under control, don't let ocd decide for you. I also can't decide for you

@NOCD Advocate - Cesar O. I’m in therapy and been diagnosed with ocd I’ve had similar thoughts before but they moved onto a new topic and I forgot about them now there back I can’t shake them

@Anonymous I know it's easier said than done but you now know ocds game and the rules it plays with, choose not to play, don't engage in compulsions, let the thoughts be in your head and recognize them as just thoughts, no need to shake them, or to run from them, does she know you have ocd? It could be a good idea to let her know about your ocd not the thoughts but the condition to infirm her of what's going on with you. She might be of great help

Have you have you gotten over it or are you still going threw it any help would be so much appreciated

@Anonymous I just disregard it

@ademsao05 Easier said than done lol

@Anonymous Ik but you have to