I am probably completely crazy. I don't trust my own memories. Like i ask myself: Did that really happen or i just imagined it? I don't want to be crazy. I feel very depressed for some days and i have no one to talk to, i don't want to talk to anyone because they'll think i'm crazy. I have no hope anymore.

That’s what ocd is it makes you doubt anything and everything it’s horrible you are not alone tho so don’t think that you are

But am i crazy? I feel so awful and alone. It's like i'm deconnected to this world. Everytime i kinda get rid of a thought, a stronger one appears

So the one time I actually had such a strong memories of meeting up with my ex partner & texting it feels like it happend I even looked for the texts in my phone - we have been broken up 7 Years & have not spoken since. OCD makes me feel that these things happend. Like I dreamt it & convinced myself it happend

So I totally get you, it plays tricks on you. You are not crazy you are strong you are getting help & you will beat it

Thank you very much. I hope you'll feel better too