I have a terrible fear of going crazy. This is a new obsession for me and this time i feel like i really can't deal with it. It feels like i am really crazy. Like i'm alone in the world, like i start to lose my memory. I fear that i will do something bad and won't remember anymore and things like that. At the same time, i feel guilt, shame, i fear that i'm prettending, that i'm just dramatic. It's unbearable, i don't know what i did to deserve this.

Anybody struggle with thinking you have schizophrenia or are slowly developing it? Mine just kinda popped up out of the blue today. Idk why I have a sudden feeling that I might hear or see something that nobody else will hear or see. I just feel like I’m stuck in my own head and I might act out of impulse. It’s making me feel anxious, uncomfortable, and worried that something might be wrong with me. I even feel like covering my ears so I can calm myself down with some piece and quiet. Please tell me someone else knows what I’m talking about

I’m scared that I’m going insane. I’m scared that I’m gonna hurt someone. I thought I was getting better. Why is it coming back now? During the school day it’s usually okay and easy to distract myself, but when I am home it gets bad cause I have so much free time. It often makes me feel like I don’t recognize my surroundings and like life doesn’t feel real, even though I do!! Like I know where I am, but it feels like I don’t. It also does that with people occasionally where like I know them but my brain makes the connection I have with them feel weird. I’m scared that I’m going insane. I’m scared that I’m just gonna black out and hurt somebody, or lose all my empathy and hurt someone. I don’t even know where these come from, or how they relate but I can’t stop worrying about it. And I’m scared to post this because what if someone replies with yes, I am going insane. I just need comfort and reassurance, even though I know that would only make it worse. But how else do I deal with this?

Woke up this morning immediately looking for the thoughts that I’ve been having even though i don’t want to think about them. I feel like i ended up bringing them upon myself and then i had a super gruesome thought and have been worrying about it all morning. Is it possible to bring thoughts upon yourself? Is it ocd or is it just me? I’m just so scared of going “crazy” that i keep looking for thoughts deciding if it’s me or not if you know what i mean. It’s such a scary feeling When you feel like you don’t know who you are 😭 i literally am just petrified of completely losing sense of who i am and doing something bad and being locked away forever. Is it possible to just turn bad? Does anybody know what i mean by that? Like you secretly have a double ego and completely turn into somebody different? Does anyone else experience this? Is it ocd? I’m so scared i feel like i can never catch a break.