I have a terrible fear of going crazy. This is a new obsession for me and this time i feel like i really can't deal with it. It feels like i am really crazy. Like i'm alone in the world, like i start to lose my memory. I fear that i will do something bad and won't remember anymore and things like that. At the same time, i feel guilt, shame, i fear that i'm prettending, that i'm just dramatic. It's unbearable, i don't know what i did to deserve this.

These are common OCD fears. #1 I’d rather be “crazy” than have OCD. I really don’t think there’s any worse condition than OCD. And #2 who cares if you’re being dramatic? Like aren’t we all dramatic sometimes? Why should we fee shame over that.

Just know the real You you’ll get thru it

OCD is playing tricks on you! I get these same fears, that one day I’ll have a break down and do something drastic, or that my mental state will get worse. But my therapist reminded me that it’s not something we need to worry about because we can’t control the future, and it’s best to be present, try to be mindful of ourselves in the now, realize you’re okay because you’re here in this community and you are in the drivers seat.

You are not alone in this it just “feels” that way!! I experienced the same thing!!! OCD wants to isolate you and create a fear that you can’t talk to anyon because they will judge you and that is simply not true!! I thought I was losing my mind and it was scary and is when you are going through it!!! But remind yourself that this is just ocd!!!!! You didn’t do anything to deserve this, God doesn’t operate that way either! Psalm 103 says he does not treat us as our sins deserve but has love and compassion for us! We just have a faulty mechanism in our brains but we can retrain it, it takes time but you know what?!!!!! This is making you stronger than you know right now!!! Your going to come out the other side of this and be able to help someone else because you walked the difficult path ahead of them!!! Keep going!!!! God loves you and so do we!!!!! <><

Im going through this right now too