Does anyone doubt that they even have OCD at times? I feel this way when I have low symptoms or the intrusive thoughts aren’t as loud. I start to doubt everything and even when I’m feeling calm I feel uneasy. Like what if I’m crazy and I’m pretending to have OCD. 🤦🏻‍♀️ ( and even on the calm days I still have anxiousness as to why I’m not reacting to my intrusive thoughts). Just yesterday I was feeling awful and now I’m feeling calmer ??

I have been having really scary intrusive thoughts lately. Some are connected to old intrusive thoughts and some are new. Some of the new thoughts revolve around false memory; or more accurately memories that are normal but my intrusive thoughts attached to them trying to make me doubt whether I did something bad and just forgot, or make me doubt in the way that maybe I blocked it out because I’m a bad person. I know it’s just OCD, but the thought or mental images are so scary that I start to doubt even more. I get extremely scared that I will start to believe the intrusive thoughts and I won’t be able to distinguish anymore. Lately I also have fears of well what if I actually don’t have OCD and I’m just using OCD as an excuse to cover up that I may have done this bad thing that the intrusive thoughts are suggesting . It’s so upsetting and frustrating. I get so sad and start to cry so much and then I get angry and then feel hopeless. There are no words to describe how sad and frustrated and scared I get. I start to think how can I live like this? And then when I have a calm moment ( could be a day, half a day or hours or minutes) I start to even feel more confused and doubtful😔😢