Sarah🕊
- Date posted
- 3y
lets_be_happylets_be_happy
- Date posted
- 3y
You know, I just had that thought yesterday for the first time! I was at my doctors and they were asking about my OCD. But mine is a lot of mental compulsions but then she asked if I did any hand washing or checking. I might have been interpreting it all wrong, but I felt the sense that my OCD wasn’t OCD enough for her 🤷🏻♀️ and then I spiraled for a while. But from what I’ve read on here, I guess that can be pretty normal for us to doubt it
Sarah🕊Sarah🕊
- Date posted
- 3y
I have been having really scary intrusive thoughts lately. Some are connected to old intrusive thoughts and some are new. Some of the new thoughts revolve around false memory; or more accurately memories that are normal but my intrusive thoughts attached to them trying to make me doubt whether I did something bad and just forgot, or make me doubt in the way that maybe I blocked it out because I’m a bad person. I know it’s just OCD, but the thought or mental images are so scary that I start to doubt even more. I get extremely scared that I will start to believe the intrusive thoughts and I won’t be able to distinguish anymore. Lately I also have fears of well what if I actually don’t have OCD and I’m just using OCD as an excuse to cover up that I may have done this bad thing that the intrusive thoughts are suggesting . It’s so upsetting and frustrating. I get so sad and start to cry so much and then I get angry and then feel hopeless. There are no words to describe how sad and frustrated and scared I get. I start to think how can I live like this? And then when I have a calm moment ( could be a day, half a day or hours or minutes) I start to even feel more confused and doubtful😔😢
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