Some days this shit is still so hard. I have never simultaneously felt so weak and so strong in my whole life. I am just tired. 2 more days till I find out if I am fired. It could honestly go either way. I some how managed to still keep pushing and trying, for the last 6 weeks knowing the probable outcome. I have managed to put in the work on my self & figure out what is going on with me and what I need to do for the most part to help my self and got my production level close to what it needs to be, and the reality is that it just may be too little too late. Doing my best to not borrow troubles from tomorrow...and that is getting harder and harder to do these last couple days. PS...venting my reality and the challenge with this major uncertainty, not seeking re-assurance :)