I feel so so guilty about things that I used to do. I committed to never doing those things again because it doesn’t align with my values and I realized what I was doing wrong and I needed to change. I’m so afraid of all of this coming back and ruining my life and I’m afraid that I’m a horrible person. I keep going over the things I did and when and imagining how I’m going to get caught in the future.

Real Events OCD

I struggle with this too! It's so hard! But we have to remember it's just OCD. Everyone makes mistakes - our brains just get stuck on them more than others.

I am sorry that you are having such a hard time.  We are not perfect people so the fact that you have committed to not repeating the event means you have learned.  That is the best all of us can do.   