I’m not really sure how i feel. I thought i had pocd with groinal responses but I literally can’t get the arousal to go away at all. Like all day I’ve been hyper aware of how my groin feels. It’s also like during all thoughts and conversations. I know I’m worried I’m a monster and it’s making me sick but i also feel like the constant state of arousal is actually NOT POCD related but just. Something else. Can anyone else relate? It’s really hard to not focus on it.

Jen22

Date posted: 6y ago

Hey this is really normal! I don’t have POCD right now (but I did four years ago for a year and a half). I currently struggle with HOCD and the arousal happens for me sometimes or more like a feeling/sensation of attraction that goes through my body. Sometimes it’s just the thought of she’s attractive and sometimes it’s a feeling but regardless, I have experienced what you have described in both POCD and HOCD. Anxiety often shows itself as arousal. Also, remember that you can think a child is cute or adorable just like you can think someone of the same sex is beautiful or attractive without wanting to be in a sexual relationship with them. I have to remind myself of that all the time.

Haunterr

Date posted: 6y ago

Thank you. I’ve just begun the journey which is why i think this is all so hard for me to understand. But you’re right, i hate how i feel, I’m not excited by this feeling, it makes me want to vomit. Which i need to calm down because i understand the intense fear isn’t making it better, but i need to remind myself it’s not a good feeling and that’s a positive thing, it means I’m not a monster. Thank you for sharing your story with me, it makes me feel less alone.

Jen22

Date posted: 6y ago

Yeah of course! And also don’t forget that ocd can also make you wonder if you might like the thoughts and feelings. Sometimes it can be very convincing in that regard. That’s also completely normal for ocd if that happens to you. It has happened to me! It’s called the doubting disease for a reason. Hang in there!

Haunterr

Date posted: 6y ago

Thank you. The thing is i don’t even think kids are cute lol. The problem has become i see a child and think to myself “oh my god am i pedophile?” For no reason. But after i had that intrusive thought a few times, i feel a sensation in my pants.... but now it feels literally constant. I’m not thinking of children, but i am thinking of how awful i feel if it were true.... so i do this it’s my ANXIETY making me feel the arousal and not like any actual person or child.... it’s just really strange and I’m not sure how to get over it... i think the feeling in my pants is making me feel worse than ever now. How did you ignore it?

Jen22

Date posted: 6y ago

Yes it’s the anxiety. And honestly, I still struggle not to ignore it for the HOCD. But what I did with POCD, and what I try to do with HOCD is let the thought or feeling pass through me and try not to ruminate over it so much. But also I know that none of this brings me joy. I never wanted to be a pedophile and I don’t want to be homosexual. I have nothing against people who are homosexual, but my dream has always been to have a husband. Do I think women are structurally beautiful? Of course. I also think sunsets are beautiful. It means nothing. So I try to not overthink these intrusive feelings or thoughts. I know how hard it is. It’s the worst thing ever. I hate it more than anything. But we are all on this journey together!

Tabbykittycat

Date posted: 6y ago

I found the groinal response took longer to go away than the obsessions

My OCD Academia

Date posted: 17w ago

Groinal Arousals/Responses Are Driving Me Insane

Every time I go to bed late and I’m falling asleep, I suddenly get an intrusive thought of a child’s face and my groinal area always responds to it. It’s such an uncomfortable experience. I am way too tired to try and freak out so I end up falling asleep. The next morning I’m always trying to figure out whether I had the groinal response first or after the thought. I start giving OCD power but it feels like If I let it go, then I’m in denial or whatever. I don’t want to ever do anything sexual with a child. I don’t even feel comfortable talking platonically with people who are 17, much less a child. My therapist says that I have a deep rooted fear that I’m this horrible person and that OCD loves to feed off of it. When you get a groinal response, it makes the thought that much more real. I never want these things to happen. I want to only be into adults. It’s so discomforting and stressful. Especially since I’m hyper checking how anxious I am, and if I find I didn’t really have much anxiety, then I’m like “well if I didn’t have anxiety, what does this mean?” And more questions occur til I end up in a rabbit hole

POCD

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 17w ago

Self pleasure and intrusive thoughts :/

I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh

POCD

malolin_21

Date posted: 11w ago

I feel anxious

I’m on my period and o think my ocd feels a little worse today… I feel anxious and like something bad is about to happen, like I can’t move or talk cause I’ll freak out or snap and do something. Also I had a gronial response about an SA topic and I feel horrible, I’ve noticed that I do have these gronials as if I’m actually into that but idk if it can happen that you have the gronial and think “oh I’m horny, not about this but I am” is that possible? Idk how to say it… also I think I just want reassurance but I’m also scared…

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