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- 3y
Its so hard feeling that way or to just keep on going having bizzare thoughts all day . I wish I could just wake up one day and feel like me again
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- 3y
@CatLove9 Im on about week 5 of zoloft, but I just added in buspar 2 days ago I hate the way meds make me feel..but I also hate living like this so im taking a chance with meds again π This is my second ocd relapse...its so strange how you can be great no thoughts and then random out of the blue OCD gets its claws right back into you.. And of course convinces you its real ...its an evil disorder
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- 3y
@CatLove9 It really makes it discouraging knowing it can come back at any moment out of the blue. It hit me hard at 27 I went to a crisis center and everything ( I had no idea what was going on ) I didnt sleep for 14 days straight i felt like I could climb the walls my anxiety and fear were so bad i was afraid to be left alone with my kids...that i would somehow wake up from my sleep and do something to them..i didnt know if I wanted to kill myself it was a horrific time...but looking back at how i was as a child it was always there It just came full force at 27...( I thought I over came the hardest time of my life) then again at around 32 (π)now im 35 and here it is again. Now it rotates a few subtypes or just throws the most bizzare crap at me.. It wears you down. I feel like a totally different person than I did 3/4 months ago. My thoughts are constantly hijacked. Its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel...it sucks Hugs to you I know how hard this disorder makes everyday life
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- 3y
@CatLove9 Yes, I started erp a few weeks ago In the past when I had my first relapse I worked with an ocd coach ( Ali greymond) and I got back on my feet This time im working with a nocd therapist and the ocd coach I haven't felt like its helped..hopefully in time it will
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- 3y
@CatLove9 Yes I feel the same, the exposures don't cause me much anxiety, but when im face to face in real life with my theme it gets the thoughts and doubt going and that feeling like this is real A lot of my compulsions are mental and feel automatic so I find the response part of erp difficult I also like Nathan Peterson videos hes big in the ocd world check him out if you've never heard of him
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- 25w
Anyone else just have days where they feel more calm and donβt have as many intrusive thoughts? But then later at night time it just comes back so you only had relief even for a little bit ππ I feel like even when Iβm not having my OCD send me intrusive thoughts, I always have a feeling in my stomach that something is wrong/off or a sense of doom. I always just feel on edge and anxious as if my mind is always preparing itself for the next horrifying intrusive thought to torment me with ugh π«
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- 24w
Having a bit of an interesting time lately, feeling like I am on a roller coaster because every day has been a bit different. Yesterday was a pretty good day, my anxiety was low and intrusive thoughts were easier to work past. What I noticed was although anxiety was low, I still felt overwhelmed by thoughts sporadically throughout the evening. This morning I had some intense feelings after waking up, but find myself almost in the same place again. Any tips or tricks that have worked for you on managing through thoughts with low anxiety?
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- 23w
I'm in college and about an hour ago i had class. I like to sit alone bc I get a bunch of stupid intrusive harm thoughts. Anyway I couldn't focus AT ALL today. This girl decided to sit next to me and I wanted to ESCAPE. Like i desperately wanted to get up and leave to the bathroom and wait till class was over. I took a deep breath and stayed anyways and tried to focus on lecture but i kept getting so many thoughts and I kept hyperfocusing on my right hand (which was next to her) and my hand felt so weird! Like tingly?? I was like "omg why is my hand feel so weird?? Does that mean i want to do something?!" And it kept imagining me grabbing at her or grabbing my drink and throwing it on her while i was trying to take a sip. I tried eating my breakfast to distract myself but i was holding a fork and got another thought. I realized i was tensing my hands (as a compulsion... i try to keep them as still as possible and as close to me as possible bc the thoughts feel so distressing and the "what if i act out " is playing in my head) And I was internally panicking and now im at the library feeling sad and i feel like I need to solve this. I spent the past hour just mentally reviewing the whole class time rn. The whole class time I was at the edge of the table trying to stay as far as i could and i would get relieved whenever she would stand up to leave the class for something. I managed to make it through the whole class without leaving though but the question in my mind is bothering me so much, "how do I know that these thoughts aren't genuine or are thoughts I want to carry out and why was my hand feeling so weird?" I feel stressed at the library and i want to figure this out π
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