Aprl2209
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Aprl2209Aprl2209
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Its so hard feeling that way or to just keep on going having bizzare thoughts all day . I wish I could just wake up one day and feel like me again
Aprl2209Aprl2209
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- 4y
@CatLove9 Im on about week 5 of zoloft, but I just added in buspar 2 days ago I hate the way meds make me feel..but I also hate living like this so im taking a chance with meds again š This is my second ocd relapse...its so strange how you can be great no thoughts and then random out of the blue OCD gets its claws right back into you.. And of course convinces you its real ...its an evil disorder
Aprl2209Aprl2209
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- 4y
@CatLove9 It really makes it discouraging knowing it can come back at any moment out of the blue. It hit me hard at 27 I went to a crisis center and everything ( I had no idea what was going on ) I didnt sleep for 14 days straight i felt like I could climb the walls my anxiety and fear were so bad i was afraid to be left alone with my kids...that i would somehow wake up from my sleep and do something to them..i didnt know if I wanted to kill myself it was a horrific time...but looking back at how i was as a child it was always there It just came full force at 27...( I thought I over came the hardest time of my life) then again at around 32 (š)now im 35 and here it is again. Now it rotates a few subtypes or just throws the most bizzare crap at me.. It wears you down. I feel like a totally different person than I did 3/4 months ago. My thoughts are constantly hijacked. Its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel...it sucks Hugs to you I know how hard this disorder makes everyday life
Aprl2209Aprl2209
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- 4y
@CatLove9 Yes, I started erp a few weeks ago In the past when I had my first relapse I worked with an ocd coach ( Ali greymond) and I got back on my feet This time im working with a nocd therapist and the ocd coach I haven't felt like its helped..hopefully in time it will
Aprl2209Aprl2209
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- 4y
@CatLove9 Yes I feel the same, the exposures don't cause me much anxiety, but when im face to face in real life with my theme it gets the thoughts and doubt going and that feeling like this is real A lot of my compulsions are mental and feel automatic so I find the response part of erp difficult I also like Nathan Peterson videos hes big in the ocd world check him out if you've never heard of him
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- 12w
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