PLZ SOMEONE HELP! I am currently and this happens a lot have anger rumination and I learned about what that is today. Every time I am upset at my partner (I have just right rocd) I dwell in it, and can’t forgive even if there isn’t an apology and the person didn’t mean to do said thing or even told me they are sorry I feel that way, I feel threatened and mad at them even if it’s not their fault and they didn’t actually do anything wrong I received the wrong impression I can’t change how I think my automatic feeling and response is anger and the thoughts “well his impression was a certain way so that’s his fault for showing that”… then I blame him and I feel bad because it hurts his feelings when he didn’t actually mean to make me feel a certain way and I saw something different than what his intention was. I still think automatically on repeat and feel so stuck that it’s his fault and he needs to apologize and even then I try to process my emotions and cry and let it out and try and move on but the terrible dread I feel that just sits there of anger and feeling justified and crossing my arms just continues. It’s like my irrational mind and rational mind are fighting and texting about this is not good, I would rather talk in person but I got exposed to covid at work and I am waiting for my test results whenever that is. The thing that happened was I was going to take a rapid pcr test because I wanted results fast so I could do Halloween and go to a Halloween party tonight and then they told me it’s not as accurate as the regular pcr test that takes 24 hours and I felt pressured because he told me his dad has surgery that week so he can’t have that chance and decision making with ocd is hard so I felt half like okay I am waiting because I def don’t want him to be sick and I have to be really sure I don’t have covid and then the other side was once I did the regular pcr results he said I didn’t have to and he would be okay with the rapid one and I felt mad at him because I already had that pressure and then could have gone to that Halloween party and stuff but I do know that my ocd would still be like that’s wrong to just do the rapid one because of a party and then get his dad sick. So I feel mad that I had to do that in order for him and then I suffer by not being able to go out tonight. Hopefully someone can respond I know this is long