If I tell suicide hotline that I’m gay what would they do fuck I’m scared right now I’ve completely gone off the deep end I shut down I don’t even talk to people anymore people at work think I’m gay im almost positive I’m just in closet I know I’ve come on here and said this a million times but I think I actually am gay just was too stubborn to admit it and am extremely scared of what people with think about me I’m a caring person but I’m ashamed of these thoughts I’m scared to even call hotline

I won’t tell you how you should feel about possibly being gay or not, OCD can make things feels really, really real. But I know for a fact suicide prevention hotline won’t judge you at all if you tell them you’re gay or are having these thoughts. Let’s say worst case scenario, you are gay, and it’s not OCD. You are still a caring and amazing human being, none of that will change by you being gay. Again, I won’t say you are gay or not since OCD is terrible and can make our thoughts feel really real, but please don’t be ashamed either way, you are amazing, I hope everything goes well for you!💜

suicide hotline will not judge you. but i definitely recommend a therapist. even if you were just gay, therapy is beneficial to anyone and everyone. it sounds like these thoughts and feelings are distressing you and causing you to drink and isolate yourself. both of those factors are more than enough reason to seek long-term treatment. if you feel bad enough to call a suicide hotline, then seeing a therapist is well within your rights. there is absolutely nothing wrong with seeking help. no one's problems are any better or worse than yours.

Have you tried talking to a therapist?

Suicide hotline is a great resource for you! They have no idea who you are and will stay neutral!