My real event ocd has been bugging out lately. Having trouble practicing self acceptance on not fearing my failures and mistakes at all times especially since everything seems to be a trigger

This can be really tricky and hard when it feels so real. Keep in mind the DSM focuses on things like stress and anxiety but I think it misses us talking about things such as guilt, shame, discomfort etc. OCD makes us feel these things and that doesn't necessarily mean that we did anything wrong - OCD just naturally makes us feel these emotions and feelings because that's the nature of OCD. Your commitment only needs to be resisting the mental rituals and physical compulsions associated with trying to figure it out, resisting trying to achieve that certainty, etc. Because no matter what OCD tries to tempt you into, there is no way of knowing 100% or being certain about anything that happened in the past. I know it will feel so critical and so necessary to go back and review, but it will never be enough for the OCD. Keep resisting!

Hi there! I am so sorry that you're experiencing such distress. I have been there, and it doesn't feel good one bit. I just started a book called "The Self-Compassion Workbook for OCD." This book really focuses on practical ways to show yourself compassion and acceptance during our most difficult of times. You should check it out, especially if you are struggling with that self-acceptance aspect! Do your best not to ruminate or find answers to questions that arise. You are stronger than you think! Keep it up!