Does anyone else suffer with cheating ocd? It feels like your gonna cheat on your bf with one of his friends… this makes me feel extremely horrible and guilty. This all started when I first met his friends in the summer and I got along with one of them, he was funny, friendly and kind but my ocd is saying I want to leave/ cheat on my bf with him which is giving me so much anxiety, guilt and shame like who tf thinks like this?! 😫 someone please help

What is your worst fear? be no loyal with your bf? Your bf can be jealous of your relationship?

I would say my worst fear is cheating on my bf

I think you like to see even admire your friend, you must be afraid of her reactions, of disappointing her?

Sorry I have no idea what you are talking about

Oh apologize me for my message,i understand for me bf it was "bestfriend" not "boyfriend"

I have same ocd

It sucks and makes me feel like a horrible person as well as super guilty

I do! But mine is a little different than yours. Mine initially started like yours worrying I would lose control and eventually that turned into real event/false memory OCD. I cheated in the past and somehow didn't feel any remorse for my past actions until last year. OCD attacks what you value. For me, it attacked my morals and uses my past to devalue me now. I love my boyfriend and I would be devastated if I were to hurt him like I have hurt others in the past. You seem to value your relationship with your boyfriend very much and OCD has decided to attack that. The best thing you can do is learn to live with the uncertainty. I know, not an easy thing to do. I still struggle!! I'm here if you need to talk :)

@nervousbeans Thank you so much☺️ it makes me feel extremely guilty and horrible because I love my bf so much he is my first serious bf. Before I knew my bf I was talking to this guy that went to my school for a few days nothing serious at all and he was invited to my friends party and tbh I liked him but the guy I had a massive crush on before this one was there to and I was drunk and kissed him and later on in the night I kissed the one I was talking to at the time (sorry if this is getting confusing I don’t want to use names) and it sort of ruined things with him and I got upset because I was drunk, and I liked him but I got over it in like a week because we was only talking for like 3 days so sometimes that plays on my head if I was at a party with my bf and I accidentally kissed someone else

I feel this, it’s almost like ur brain gives u the urge that u want to too it’s so weird because clearly we don’t want to do that(cheat)

Yeah I know but I’m trying to accept and practice that thoughts are just thoughts and don’t mean anything

I have the same theme or thinking other people are attractive and then feeing extreme guilt and shame and the intrusive thoughts of other people when I just want to be happy and enjoy my relationship. I also have health concern OCD but this has def been the WORST theme ever because my relationship was the most important thing to me