Last night around 3:30 I had to call for an ambulance because my friend texted me that she had taken pills to kill herself. I was high out of my mind and didn't really know what to do. I am scared that all of the distress that comes from EMTs knocking at your door at 4am and waking your whole family because of a suicide attempt will outweigh any help she gets after. She didn't want me to get her help, she didn't want to cause a scene and I feel awful for forcing her to endure that. Her mom texted to thank me this morning so I do feel better. I still worry it won't be better.

This isn't really an OCD related post. I'm just venting because this is a lot.

Question, if any one can answer: should I tell my friends that she's in the hospital and for an attempt? One of them knew she was suicidal last night and I think just thinks everything is okay since I talked her down earlier. The last thing I want to do is tell people when she might not want me to.

Don't tell anyone she hasn't cleared. She's most likely in a 5150 hold right now and will be for the next 12-48 hours, during which time she has limited to no contact with anyone. After talking to a members of county mental health she'll probably be transferred to a "secure mental health facility." It sounds like you have a good relationship with the mom and she'll tell you where if you ask. Give her an hour or two once she arrives to get settled- there's paperwork, meeting the social worker, food, getting her room set up/meeting roommates, and group therapy. Then you can call them, get the right number, and ask for her-- it's up to her if she wants to answer your call.

@excalibre-hotmessexpress But for the record, I've spent 4 separate stays in a mental hospital and the last time it happened, in June or July of this year, I had overdosed on my medication and told my friend, who is always high, what happened. I didn't want to make it a big deal. My friend who is TERRIFIED of cops and has a large distrust for doctors called my mom and the cops. She saved me. From someone in the position of your friend, I have never been mad at her- without her, I may not have survived, and I never would have gotten better. Even my 1st 3 stays, for 2 other times I was feeling suicidal and an OCD flare-up, I was never mad at the people who brought me forward, even when the stays brought me no coping mechanisms and more trauma. I'm so sorry you're going through this.

@excalibre-hotmessexpress Thank you so much. Your experience really brings me hope. Though I am scared, I don't feel as guilty now. Thank you for sharing and for all the information. I will be in touch with her when I can and respect her boundaries as well

Do you have Instagram? I have to send you a helpful post.

do you think you can just link it in the comments? Thank you by the way

@nicocd You're welcome! 💜💜 And I'm actually not sure how to do it😭 wait I'll try

@itsAnna if you go to the post and press the three dot button on the top right, it should give you an option to copy the link!!

@nicocd https://www.instagram.com/p/B-feYIPpaga/?utm_medium=copy_link Here's the link. Please read the caption too

@nicocd yessss I did hehe! Thank you so much!💜

@itsAnna Thank you!!! I appreciate it so much. I was scared she'd hate me but I would rather her be alive and mad at me than dead.