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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
This isn't really an OCD related post. I'm just venting because this is a lot.
Question, if any one can answer: should I tell my friends that she's in the hospital and for an attempt? One of them knew she was suicidal last night and I think just thinks everything is okay since I talked her down earlier. The last thing I want to do is tell people when she might not want me to.
Don't tell anyone she hasn't cleared. She's most likely in a 5150 hold right now and will be for the next 12-48 hours, during which time she has limited to no contact with anyone. After talking to a members of county mental health she'll probably be transferred to a "secure mental health facility." It sounds like you have a good relationship with the mom and she'll tell you where if you ask. Give her an hour or two once she arrives to get settled- there's paperwork, meeting the social worker, food, getting her room set up/meeting roommates, and group therapy. Then you can call them, get the right number, and ask for her-- it's up to her if she wants to answer your call.
@excalibre-hotmessexpress But for the record, I've spent 4 separate stays in a mental hospital and the last time it happened, in June or July of this year, I had overdosed on my medication and told my friend, who is always high, what happened. I didn't want to make it a big deal. My friend who is TERRIFIED of cops and has a large distrust for doctors called my mom and the cops. She saved me. From someone in the position of your friend, I have never been mad at her- without her, I may not have survived, and I never would have gotten better. Even my 1st 3 stays, for 2 other times I was feeling suicidal and an OCD flare-up, I was never mad at the people who brought me forward, even when the stays brought me no coping mechanisms and more trauma. I'm so sorry you're going through this.
@excalibre-hotmessexpress Thank you so much. Your experience really brings me hope. Though I am scared, I don't feel as guilty now. Thank you for sharing and for all the information. I will be in touch with her when I can and respect her boundaries as well
Do you have Instagram? I have to send you a helpful post.
do you think you can just link it in the comments? Thank you by the way
@nicocd You're welcome! ππ And I'm actually not sure how to do itπ wait I'll try
@itsAnna if you go to the post and press the three dot button on the top right, it should give you an option to copy the link!!
@nicocd https://www.instagram.com/p/B-feYIPpaga/?utm_medium=copy_link Here's the link. Please read the caption too
@nicocd yessss I did hehe! Thank you so much!π
@itsAnna Thank you!!! I appreciate it so much. I was scared she'd hate me but I would rather her be alive and mad at me than dead.
@nicocd You're so welcome!!!!!!!!!! Yes exactly!β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπ
Can someone talk with me? I know I posted a lot about this and I want to stop.I know only a therapist will tell me what to do..But please..can someone give me some advice? I am scared I did something horrible.I didnt help a kid 3 years ago.I feel like I left them in danger.I am so sorry.The worst is I didnt helped in all these years.I want to tell the kid I am sorry but I dont want to make them remember.I got terrible thoughts and I still have them and I feel like I betrayed them and still betray them.Bcs I didnt help and bcs of the thoughts.I dont know but I think about what happened.and how terrible it was..especially because they told me and I didnt help.I dont know why I think that but I feel like a monster.I met with them today and with their parents (which I feel like I betrayed them too) and I talked with them.but i was very anxious and I am scared their parents judge me .I want to help now..but idk how.Is it too late? I am scared I want to help just because I feel guilty.I want to live in the present and do something now but my mind makes me think of the past..Any advice? Thank you
Yesterday I had a panic attack from OCD fears. I live alone, so in my panic I called my mum just to get some emotional support. It did not go well. I was asking for reassurnce to much and basically she got annoyed with me and started to chastise me. She said I was being ridiculous and accused me of just making up my symptoms to emotionally manipulate her. She even went as far as threatening to call the police on me to have me sectioned. I feel so humiliated. I know that I can be annoying during my panic attacks, and that my OCD puts a massive toll on my familiy. But I don't want to manipulate people. Now, I feel like an abuser. In these moments, seeing how much my weakness makes my family suffer makes me just want to not be here anymore.
My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest BIGGEST fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so so wanted in the moment and SO real. Which I don't understand. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support?
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