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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
This isn't really an OCD related post. I'm just venting because this is a lot.
Question, if any one can answer: should I tell my friends that she's in the hospital and for an attempt? One of them knew she was suicidal last night and I think just thinks everything is okay since I talked her down earlier. The last thing I want to do is tell people when she might not want me to.
Don't tell anyone she hasn't cleared. She's most likely in a 5150 hold right now and will be for the next 12-48 hours, during which time she has limited to no contact with anyone. After talking to a members of county mental health she'll probably be transferred to a "secure mental health facility." It sounds like you have a good relationship with the mom and she'll tell you where if you ask. Give her an hour or two once she arrives to get settled- there's paperwork, meeting the social worker, food, getting her room set up/meeting roommates, and group therapy. Then you can call them, get the right number, and ask for her-- it's up to her if she wants to answer your call.
@excalibre-hotmessexpress But for the record, I've spent 4 separate stays in a mental hospital and the last time it happened, in June or July of this year, I had overdosed on my medication and told my friend, who is always high, what happened. I didn't want to make it a big deal. My friend who is TERRIFIED of cops and has a large distrust for doctors called my mom and the cops. She saved me. From someone in the position of your friend, I have never been mad at her- without her, I may not have survived, and I never would have gotten better. Even my 1st 3 stays, for 2 other times I was feeling suicidal and an OCD flare-up, I was never mad at the people who brought me forward, even when the stays brought me no coping mechanisms and more trauma. I'm so sorry you're going through this.
@excalibre-hotmessexpress Thank you so much. Your experience really brings me hope. Though I am scared, I don't feel as guilty now. Thank you for sharing and for all the information. I will be in touch with her when I can and respect her boundaries as well
Do you have Instagram? I have to send you a helpful post.
do you think you can just link it in the comments? Thank you by the way
@nicocd You're welcome! 💜💜 And I'm actually not sure how to do it😭 wait I'll try
@itsAnna if you go to the post and press the three dot button on the top right, it should give you an option to copy the link!!
@nicocd https://www.instagram.com/p/B-feYIPpaga/?utm_medium=copy_link Here's the link. Please read the caption too
@nicocd yessss I did hehe! Thank you so much!💜
@itsAnna Thank you!!! I appreciate it so much. I was scared she'd hate me but I would rather her be alive and mad at me than dead.
@nicocd You're so welcome!!!!!!!!!! Yes exactly!❤️❤️❤️❤️💕
Last year I used and app to talk about my POCD and people called me a pedo and told me to kill myself. It has been months and I had even forgotten about it, but I talked about my mom yesterday and I feel a sense of doom now. Like, I could have lived my life normally, but this happened. I feel overhelmed, and don't know exactly what to do, cuz when I stop to think about it, it is something awful, but I spend months just not caring, I don't know what to do, it was not even close to the worst thing that has ever happened to me, but it still feels terrible, it keeps echoing in my mind, and It won't go away, and yes I know it is OCD, I just want to let It go. And I lied somethings to my mom cuz if I told the whole truth she would be even more heartbroken (I just didn't say what app it was and I said it was recently, and not months ago) And I feel bad, but now I can't go back, but if I told her the whole truth, she would've just broke down. Basically she thinks it was yesterday and in another app, and I told her I just commented on something. But I feel so bad! I don't want to tell the truth to her, but also, I don't know...
Today my mom broke down crying because of how much stress she feels having to take care of me, she said I can’t do anything in terms of being able to take care of myself and she’s right I can’t, she breaks down constantly because of me, I don’t know what to do, it’s been like this for years, part of me feels like the only way to save her is to kill myself, I don’t want to die, but it feels like the only way to set her free, I don’t think anyone but her would miss me anyways, I feel utterly hopeless. I’m not going to do anything to myself the voices are just SCREAMING that I need to. I can’t work, I can’t go to school, I’m trying desperately to get therapy, I don’t know what else to do, I wish I was a child again and I felt like I had a chance to be okay. I love my mom so much and she loves me and I’m killing her, I’m actually killing her, with how fuckinh worthless and pathetic I am, it’s too much, I miss being a kid.
Honestly I’ve never felt like the worst person ever , all my life I’ve always struggle with fitting in and making a good friend group, and I always think I don’t do enough for anybody and sometimes when I feel like somebody is becoming cold or distant I make sure to keep a distant too out of respect or a mechanism to help me not feel hurt , as a result a friend of mine did this and I stayed away because I had no idea what she was going through and my other friend who I’ve met at the beginning of the year I’ve never had a good feeling abt her because I noticed her starting to be really flirty with my boyfriend and when I tried talking to somebody about it , she twisted the entire situation to her assuming I was sl*t shaming her, which I’d never do that is not in my dictionary , so when I arrived to school everyone said she was saying really bad things about me and what’s worse is that she did this two months ago and I found out last week I cried to all of them about it and they ignored me they all laughed and just left me there to cry , I tried talking to my friend who slowly grew distant instead I noticed her getting closer to the friend who wronged me . I noticed all my friends growing a distant , I slowly felt like I failed as friend and then I slowly starting convincing myself i was a failure in general , so as a result, I turned to marijuana and cough medicine, and multiple dealers reach out weekly so I can buy more stuff , and what’s worse is that I know these people are not good friends but I still let them get to my head and on top of that I resort to substance abuse to help with my overthinking and anxiety , I need advice
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