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I'm sorry you're struggling, I'm sure that is a rough combination. I agree that making sure you do enough during the day helps. I also find i have the most energy at night, but luckily I'm able schedule-wise to just stay up a bit and be productive before heading to bed. Have you tried having a bedtime routine? Like x amount of time before bed, pick out clothes for tomorrow, pack lunch, etc., a bath in the semi dark with candles and soft music, or meditation, or stretching. And like reading, or journaling, or knitting, or whatever quiet non-screen activity, then bed. Idk I think I've heard you can like, train yourself to associate things with sleep, like ope it's dark and the bedtime song is playing and I put on my fuzzy socks, brain says time for sleep. But for the alone thing, I can relate to that too. There are times I feel so alone I could cry, and when I get that way I usually journal. I'm like you know what, there's no one to talk to right now, I'm going to talk to myself, I'll tell myself about my day, I'll reflect on my thoughts and feelings, I'll write goals for the future or a funny story I heard or even just how I feel alone. Sometimes I do cry while I'm doing it. And then I think about my future self reading it at a time when I'm not feeling alone and picture me being happy that I wrote it all down, because reflecting on the rough and the bad and the bits of good will help me see how much I've grown. And I usually feel at least somewhat better by the end.
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Also, not to keep rambling on, but exercise might be another good option. Sounds silly but it could help not only to tire you out, but to also produce some feel good chemicals that help against the others. I prefer dancing my heart out in my kitchen as opposed to traditional exercise, but they've got all sorts of programs you can do at home too.
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Hey I’m here if you want to talk I just try to work during the day so I’m tired at night and I feel you all to well people don’t want to be around you because you don’t like yourself it’s fucking hard and is a huge inconvenience in life but I hope you find your way
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Thank you I really appreciate that. Ya It is definitely more difficult to reach out for help and advice when I dont have anyone and always feel like a burden on my family. If you dont mind me asking what is it you struggle with?
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You’re not a burden to them it’s just hard for them to understand how we feel it’s ok you didn’t ask for this none of us did I struggle with sexuality ocd or I’m just gay idk at this point I’m just lost
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I can imagine thats not a pleasant subtype to deal with( none of them are pleasant lol) I have had a few of those thoughts over the years. I mainly struggle with order, symmetry, schedule and ritual stuff but since the pandemic started it has shifted to intense health paranoia/ fears its very complicated. Also have trichotillomania:(
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I feel like it’s just me. But at night when I start to fall asleep, play on my phone, or watch TV; I’ll get major intrusive thoughts and a butt load of anxiety. Has anyone felt the same about this? How have you managed it? It’s getting exhausting and even causes me to sleep-less.
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OCD can be so isolating. I’m in a health anxiety spiral and struggling at work. I feel like I am failing everywhere and feeling very alone. My support system is tired of hearing about my fears, health wise and work wise. I find myself crying a lot. I don’t particularly enjoy doing anything anymore. I feel like I just can’t get comfortable in my skin or my head sometimes. I’m not sure how to else to describe it. Like nothing soothes me or makes it better. Even sleep is bad dreams and waking up anxious all night. I’ve always felt different from everyone else but when I’m on meds I can fake it better and I feel more connected. I want to go back on SSRI’s but I’ve been dealing with health issues and the meds exacerbate them so am delaying for the time being
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This is gonna be a long one: So a little over a month and a half ago, my OCD started to spiral again. I’ve had ups and downs with it in the past, my main themes often changing. When I was younger it as afraid I’d run away, in middle school it was germs. But as I got older I started having intrusive thoughts of the meaning of life, suicide, and dying, with those fears being my common themes now I’ve gotten a lot better since it started back up, but lately have been panicking because I’ve had intrusive thoughts that my methods of trying to heal are wrong. I’m 21, and for the last 3 years have lacked ambition and haven’t pursued my dreams or things I want to do. I just sleep, work, eat junk food, and play games or watch YouTube on my time off. Things I still love, but after years of living this way, I’ve hit a breaking point and want to start doing more with my life and the people in it Yet, almost EVERY new thing I’ve been trying to do or start, I’ve been having thoughts that they’re wrong or won’t help. Here’s some examples: I’ve started trying to eat a bit healthier, and my brain is telling me it’s not gonna fix me and I’m just avoiding food I like (junk I know makes me tired and sad). Then the moment I indulge in even one unhealthy food item, it tells me I’m failing at taking better care of myself and that junk food just numbs the feelings Same with video games. I tell myself it’s okay to play them as long as it’s not to avoid anything or they don’t take up my life like they have been. The second I do I feel guilty, say it’s cheap dopamine and hindering me from being productive and that I’m numbing my feelings again Same story for everything. Trying to walk and go outside more. Head tells me I’m avoiding being home because it makes me anxious. Then when I stay home it tells me I’m wasting time I could be spending outside or with people I love I’ll wanna spend time with my family or friends because I’ve been a hermit for years and miss spending time with them. When I try to, head tells me I can’t because then I’m avoiding the issues I have and seeking reassurance, and that I need to learn to tolerate this alone. But then when I stay home too long, I get anxious and sad because it does make me happy being around them even if I’m not seeking reassurance, and they genuinely do help me feel better (for example I saw my grandparents last night and talked about my feelings and desire to actually go out and live life, and they helped me understand uncertainty is part of life and I should do things I want anyways and even helped come up with things I may like to try doing. Now my brain tells me it’s bad to get help or open up about my pain) I’ll have racing thoughts in my head and I’ll be arguing with myself over rather it’s better to face them head on, ignore them, or let them run their course. It feels like no matter what I do, I’m feeling guilty and shame for it. As if any attempt at feeling pleasure or doing something that makes me happy is “avoiding the problem”, like I HAVE to focus on my intrusive thoughts, anxiety, and sadness 24/7 otherwise I’m “avoiding/burying it again” I know not to avoid these things and it’s best to confront them (if they’re real problems I have like relationship issues and insecurities and loneliness) and learn to tolerate the anxiety and uncertainty of life and OCD, but my attempts at “helping myself” are quite literally what I feel is currently keeping me so miserable. They’re sucking whatever joy I have in life out, telling me it’s bad, and that I have to feel this way all the time so I can “learn to tolerate it” I’m just so scared of doing all of this wrong, and I think my OCD I knows that and is currently using that to toy with me. I want to be healthier and happier, but then I feel guilt and fear for not being healthy 24/7 and indulging in not healthy things like video games and the occasional junk food. Anybody else ever felt this way?
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