Those are called intrusive urges and are pretty common when dealing with OCD. OCD will twist everything and blow it out of proportion. Keep this in mind!
Happens to me too! 🙋🏼♀️ My brain keeps saying ”just once in your life, you want to know what it feels like, you sick puppy…” it’s just a false urge, however real and convincing it feels. Imagine if someone locked you in a room with a person tied up and a knife and someone said ”you can kill this person, there will be no consequences” would you do it? I’m betting the answer is still a solid no.
Get this with pocd. It it horrible and traumatizing. I just have to remember it’s part of ocd and not me
I feel many times that i want to do these bad things i feel extremely pressure on this but actually i don't want i have a huge fear of doing them