- Date posted
- 3y
- Date posted
- 3y
It sounds like you're obsessing about being alone though, that could be OCD if you're ruminating about the thought of being alone all day and it causes you a lot of anxiety. I don't specifically worry about being alone, but I can relate to depression feeding into my anxiety though to the point that it makes it hard for me to be myself as well. I feel like I wear a fake smile a lot, but there's a lot of moments too though when I'm really happy and I'm not having to wear a fake smile. I feel kind of bipolar maybe? But anyways, just because you don't fear death yourself but you fear losing someone else doesn't mean it's not OCD. And even though you know God is the only one who knows who goes when, it doesn't change the fact that you still worry and obsess about a loved one of yours dying. Everyone worries about dying or other people dying to some extent, but I'd say if you're sitting around feeling anxious about it all day or for most of the day then it's probably OCD. But that's just my opinion, I hope it is helpful though. I can also relate to not wanting to do regular everyday things like cooking or doing dishes or doing laundry. I do those things regularly but they give me some stress while doing them if I take longer to do them than I want to be doing them or if someone interrupts me doing something. I also want to be done with everything I know I have to do in a day by a certain time too, if I get done later than I'd like to (which is most of the time) then I normally feel kind of stressed and anxious or frustrated too. It bothers me to hear people using God's name in vain, cussing, yelling, hitting another person, being disrespectful to others etc. too, I just don't like hearing people talk like that, especially when it's people in real life, not so much on TV but also on TV sometimes too though. I'm also very indecisive too (unable to make up mind), I get stressed when I have to make a decision, even something small like "what should we eat for dinner?" or "what should we do tonight?". I just wanted you to know that I struggle with a lot of the same things that you're struggling with and to remind you that you're not alone in the anxiety that you're feeling. I don't know if I offered much encouragement though, but I hope and pray that you'll find peace as you continue in your journey through life. I hope and pray that all of us on here will find peace through OCD and everything else that we're facing too. God bless my friend! :)
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- 3y
Thank you my friend. Just hearing and knowing that someone shares some of the same things I feel and do makes me feel validated, if that makes any sense. Sometimes reading the posts here make me feel a bit more stressed, reading what others are going through and the types of OCD there are out there. A lot of them are scary. But I want to be here to support people and to chat with my friends. Right now I am at the Orthopedics waiting to see my new doctor. Can you believe it. My Dr. is Tony Stark (IRONMAN). I just had to give the girls at the front desk a bad time when I checked in. I said,"I have an appointment with Ironman." Obviously, they have heard that before but they laughed anyway. My husband has a lot of appointments coming up, surgery is on the 23rd. I have lots of appointments myself, and with me not driving it's gonna be interesting. Please pray that my depression and anxiety go away soon.
- Date posted
- 3y
I'm glad I could help you feel validated and understood. I think all of us with OCD struggle in more similar ways than we may even realize sometimes. And you're right, a lot of the different types of OCD are really scary and I can't imagine struggling with some of the types that others struggle with, but at the same time I know the types that I struggle with bring me a lot of stress too. I'm glad to be here to give support and receive support from others, it really makes a big difference to have friends by your side who understand and care for you. :) and wow! That's so cool that your Doctors name is Tony Stark! š I'm sure him and the ladies at the front desk do hear comments about him being Ironman a lot, lol. I'm sorry that your husband has a lot of appointments and surgery soon, I hope and pray that his health will improve and he will feel better from all of this. I hope and pray that your appointments will all go well too and that you can find a safe way to get to them since you're not driving right now. I'll also be in prayer for your depression and anxiety to go away, but just remember that you can make it through this, nothing is impossible with God, He can handle anything that you face in life. God bless my friend! :)
- Date posted
- 3y
Made it through the night, and now beginning another day. Anxiety still there, but not sure if it feels strong because of my back pain or not. I found a site about an IV Dr's can give people who have tried many antidepressants and have found nothing that works that will help with depression and anxiety. It takes up to 6 times and insurance does not pay for it, so it could be pricey. One place in Montana charges $495 per session for it, so that would be around $3000. There are only 3 places in Montana that does it. I sent them all messages just to see if they would get back to me. There sites seem legit, but we will see. There may be reasons I have that would keep me from being able to do it. I just want to know if I would or wouldn't be a good candidate.
- Date posted
- 3y
@Figuringitout1 I have been checked and right now am taking 10,000 IU's, or 250 mcg. I like the 10,000 cuz it sounds so bada** :-)
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- 19w
I don't know what this is, I don't know enough about OCD, my psychiatrist put me on a medication and told me I have OCD and a mood disorder but I didn't ask any questions because I didn't want to be annoying. I have "evidence" that every year, when I think about death, the world kills someone I love, and it always happens twice. I have nothing to help change that, like, I don't do anything with my thoughts or anything numbers or ritually, so I wasn't sure if it even was OCD, but I do move my hands in certain ways to make my friends happy or improve their lives. Also I cant turn off my fan or something SA related will happen (i dont know how) I think that the world is threatening me, and that if I do something wrong or involve myself with certain things, the world will punish me and the people around me, so all I can do is apologize I've tried looking into the different types of OCD, and all of them are things that I've been anxious about before, but I haven't really been so anxious about any one of them in particular or held onto it for so long, or done any rituals, that I would probably not even say I have OCD. Like, I worry that I'm a nazi, I worry that I like kids, I worry that I killed my friend, I worry that I have schizophrenia or am somehow giving myself it, I worry that I'm going to abuse someone, I worry that I've already abused someone, I worry that somehow I might die, I worry people can hear my thoughts, I worry about ignoring my friend when he cried out for help, I worry that God has already rejected me from heaven, I worry that I like women, I worry that if I don't hit the hammer 9 times on the wall when Im using it that just something bad will happen that I dont know what and I don't know why, and I feel like I don't have a single compulsion that can even "fix" or bring relief to any of these things besides saying sorry, because if I say sorry at least people know that I am apologetic for the crimes I've committed, but saying sorry doesn't fix anything except my own guilt so I'm just a bad person looking for sympathy or seeking attention I don't know enough about OCD, and I don't know how to seek help for my condition because I don't even know if that's really what I have, if I'm not just simply anxious, or possibly schizophrenic Does any of this seem familiar to anyone? Can it be this varied and unfocused? Does this really sound like OCD, or can it be anything else, because I don't want to bark up the wrong tree when I could just be taking medication for something else.
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- Date posted
- 19w
Hi! Itās pretty difficult for me to get the courage to post this but Iām really struggling to figure out if what Iām experiencing is OCD or Anxiety or neither. I think I have the āpure Oā type of OCD where most of my compulsions take the form of ruminating and trying to figure out something all in my head. When I hear this talked about in forums or online the intrusive thoughts donāt really match mine- I worry often about things that seem more āgroundedā if that makes sense. A common one for me is my own identity- i will spend long amounts of time stuck in my head trying to figure out my feelings (often sadness or other real emotions I have and patterns I have) and why I feel that way and what in my life caused that and how itās impacting other things in my life. I also think often about which parts of my personality are the real me and which arenāt. Sometimes this takes the form of strictly ruminating and sometimes I have fake conversations with people I know. Itās intense and I feel I have to figure it out but with no specific intrusive thought that says something like āyou have to figure this out or all of your loved ones will dieā but itās very intense. I think also often of all of the decisions I need to make in the future and how theyāre going to affect those I love and care about as well as how much Iāll regret them. I imagine all of the ways I think my actions will emotionally hurt others and how to make the least harmful decision, but to me this feels like a valid concern but go over and over and never come to a conclusion. I often just get scared and never make any move because I donāt see an option that doesnāt hurt someone somehow. But again Iām having a hard time identifying the intrusive thought behind it. But I also donāt choose to think about these things most of the time. This is almost all decisions but especially big life decisions. Itās such a struggle because they are things I eventually do have to make decisions about. There is so much more to it that would take too long to explain but in general a lot of my fears revolve around pleasing others/ understanding others emotions to ensure theyāre okay, my own identity and personality, and work/school performance. Someone mentioned OCD to me because in my head it feels like I have to solve these things and will go over and over them but I seriously canāt figure out if itās anxiety, OCD, or none of the above. Itās all very disruptive to my life. I am never not thinking or not trying to figure something out and I feel as if I have no control over it Anyone have any insight?
- Date posted
- 16w
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