I can relate. If I can go back to August of this year and wish that I didn’t have this thought then maybe I would be worrying and doubting my character and thoughts in relation to my harm OCD.
Omg same like.. I miss my old self. I have harm OCD so bad
I know…it’s so hard thinking about how I was before. Oddly enough, August was my last “normal” month too.
@ashleyc95 Mine was May
@briii🌸 I can relate. My harm OCD started as harm thoughts towards my mother. This all happened before I moved to college. I wish I can go to my old sel because now I’m scared to be around my mother whom I dearly love for the fear of harming her. I often fear going back home for the holidays because of my OCD flare ups. I often find myself thinking if I would able to make memories and experience life like I used to with my mother without the harm thoughts.
@CHz I understand. Mine were more towards my little brother. Sometimes I fear watching him alone. When I had my first anxiety attack I didn’t want to be around him and I didn’t play with him for about month until I felt myself again. & now three months later their coming back.. it’s like a non stop cycle.
I feel the same way. I honestly can’t remember a time when I never had any intrusive thoughts but I did have period of around 4 years where it was quieter because I was on medication. Have been medication free since November 2020. 2021 was tough emotionally for me and then around mid September of this year I got new themes for my intrusive thoughts and I miss the days where I didn’t have these new themes ☹️
@CatLove9 To be honest I’m not anti medication it helped a lot when I needed it but in the bigger picture looking back I wasn’t dealing with the problem. The medication numbed the anxiety and quited the intrusive thoughts but after a while it wasn’t as effective. I know it’s different for each person. But from my experience I would consider medication if needed but I also need to learn how to manage my intrusive thoughts rather than avoid or numb them away.