The thing that keeps me stuck is that my mind ist telling me i‘ll never be 100% happy and the thing that needs to be fixed is me transitioning. Yesterday i saw a tik tok with the sound „just know that if you hide, it doesnt go away“ and it showed a girly girl who became a man and just kept beeing a girl the whole time because of society. I‘m scared that this is me and that i‘am in big denial. I never in my life felt like this. But when i look at guys i sometimes had the thought: „if i was a guy i would dress like that too!“. I also liked dressing as a guy sometimes because i felt „cooler“ and more „safe“ and comfortable. But i‘ve never thought i will question my gender because i seemed perfectly fine beeing a girl in the past. I liked Dressing feminine also to appeal to the other gender but i liked it that way in the past:( Now i overthink everything..

i know what you mean, i’m a gay male and would love to cross dress with fake boobs and everything and trans ocd attacked that. I know how you feel! we gotta accept uncertainty!

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Maybe you both could help me with my feelings… Today I bought a totaly girly dress and a coat, like my old self would‘ve done that. I did feel comfortable and sexy in front of the guy I was showing these clothes to, but a part of me was thinking I just fake this or „overplay“ my „real feelings“. I cannot even realy say what my real feelings are I just decide what my old self would have bought and that’s it. I‘m scared I’m now suddenly trans and I just discovered it? Is that even possible when I was always perfectly fine as a woman and also liked buying lingerine and that stuff? Maybe I did it for guys but I still liked doing that? How do I decide what I want and what I don’t want :/