Why does rocd feel so real like today I was chilling with my bf and all of a sudden the thought of “your not gonna be with your bf next year” or “you don’t love him anymore break up with him” came into my head and it actually felt like I didn’t love him all of a sudden which scared me and gave me the urge to break up with him which makes me feel like shit and guilty because five minutes before these thoughts came in I was saying how much I love him…this really sucks and it feels So real.

Hi there! Thank you so much for having a bravery and vulnerability to share on here. I’m so sorry that your experience such distress. I’ve been there, and it definitely sucks. Are you going through ERP right now? My suggestion is, even though it sucks, sit with the distress for a couple of minutes until your body calms itself down naturally. Also you can do exposure statements such as “I may or may not be with my boyfriend in a year.” I would suggest doing these with your therapist at first since they will probably be quite distressing. Then you can work on doing them there yourself in the future. Keep it up, you’re strong!

Thank you I hate it because it feels So real and it’s horrible

I really suggest you look into that. You can even join a support group! Those are so helpful as well!