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- 6y
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Yes. Sometimes I feel that I have to keep myself safe by not working in an environment with other men or even being around them without my husband. I’m scared of what would do or feel. I know this is avoidance but it feels so real. Then I feel guilty for thinking that I could think I could do that ?. So hard but hold on for better days!! There is light at the end of this tunnel!
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Mines been really bad lately too :( I feel guilty over everything. I’m always worried, what if I cheat. Just thinking about the possibility of me cheating makes me feel like I’m cheating. Then at work yesterday my whole department in the office took a group picture together and when I saw the picture I felt like I was standing to close to this other guy and I was so worried that meant I was going to cheat on my boyfriend with this guy at work. So I threw my copy of the picture away even though it was a nice photo and I know there was nothing wrong with it.
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I'm sorry to hear that
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I've had women flirt with me and try to give me their cell numbers back when I was working at a gas station. I would always tell them that I was happily married even though I wasn't. I mean I love my wife but she always puts her family first and me last. I've always put her before everyone else including myself along with my dreams and ambitions. But what really hurts me is that she doesn't understand what I've given up so she would be happy. I've sacrificed a lot for her. It feels like I'm in a emotionally and mentally abusive relationship.
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I had had this theme since October! Mine only ever happens when alcohol is involved
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That's what OCD feels like. Especially the constant questioning and doubt and the more you do it, the more you doubt yourself and it ends up leaving you open for other 'attacks'. I left the house today with my mom to run errands and things were fine, like my intrusive thoughts weren't bothering me that much in the beginning though they're constant in the background. Then when we stopped to get a drink from this store before leaving, I got more anxious because there were lots of kids around (it's afternoon here and i guess school was coming out). Kids were walking around in school uniform and I just told myself to keep looking away because i knew that my intrusive thoughts were going to flare up. Obviously that just made it worse and I just wanted to run away and crawl into a hole or something. Then a few minutes passed and then my brain said what if you were leering at the kids or looking at them inappropriately. And then my brain kept telling me that I wanted to or must have filmed one of them even though it's not something I want to do and know deep down that I didn't do it and don't want to. Ever. I just felt so disgusted with myself, I had to stop myself from crying on the way home. I hate this disease and I hate that its made its home in my head.
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I woke up very late today because my son kept me up all night because he is teething so I didn’t fully wake up until 6am. These past months have been crippling because of my ocd, depression and anxiety. So crippling to the point I have been terrified to leave my bed. Because I haven’t been leaving the room often I am starting to come off as lazy to my mother in law and I have been slacking on helping around the house. My mother in law has surgery on Tuesday and needs us to help out more. I got up to do the dishes the other day and had to stop because I was having a flare up and felt like I was going to over heat from anxiety. I laid down and never finished the dishes. Today she came home really mad at my husband and I because we haven’t been helping and the guilt is eating me alive. I want to apologize but I don’t want to bring up how I have been feeling because I don’t want it to come off as an excuse. I don’t want this to lead to a point where I’m suffering because of it and I don’t want it to ruin her perception of me. I just feel awful that I’m letting this take over my life. Moments like this make me feel useless and I lose hope of ever getting better. what if I never get better. She does so much for me and I’m letting her down💔
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I have false memory real event ocd, I’ve been married 13 years and I used to constantly bring up past mistakes from when we were dating and it RUINED our marriage, but I got medication and therapy and things got better untill a few weeks ago where everything crumbled. I have a memory that is 13 years ago of me being intimate with my husband (than boyfriend) while being intimate I have a memory of sending a text to a male who obviously liked me but I didi not while my husband was under the covers . And I keep thinking over and over how disgusting and inappropriate it was to do that especially doing it in the middle of being intimate 😞. I have confessed this to my husband last year and he didint believe me saying it’s probably a made up memory and would are not a slut and wouldn’t do that. Now i have guilt all over again for weeks and it’s taking such a toll on me it’s all I think about and try to remember every detail I’ve thought about it so much I don’t even know if it’s 100 percent true. But I can vividly see it when I close my eyes. How do I get over this guilt without confessing? Confessing would absolutely destroy my husband.
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