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- 6y
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- 6y
Yes. Sometimes I feel that I have to keep myself safe by not working in an environment with other men or even being around them without my husband. I’m scared of what would do or feel. I know this is avoidance but it feels so real. Then I feel guilty for thinking that I could think I could do that ?. So hard but hold on for better days!! There is light at the end of this tunnel!
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- 6y
Mines been really bad lately too :( I feel guilty over everything. I’m always worried, what if I cheat. Just thinking about the possibility of me cheating makes me feel like I’m cheating. Then at work yesterday my whole department in the office took a group picture together and when I saw the picture I felt like I was standing to close to this other guy and I was so worried that meant I was going to cheat on my boyfriend with this guy at work. So I threw my copy of the picture away even though it was a nice photo and I know there was nothing wrong with it.
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- 6y
I'm sorry to hear that
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- 6y
I've had women flirt with me and try to give me their cell numbers back when I was working at a gas station. I would always tell them that I was happily married even though I wasn't. I mean I love my wife but she always puts her family first and me last. I've always put her before everyone else including myself along with my dreams and ambitions. But what really hurts me is that she doesn't understand what I've given up so she would be happy. I've sacrificed a lot for her. It feels like I'm in a emotionally and mentally abusive relationship.
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- 6y
I had had this theme since October! Mine only ever happens when alcohol is involved
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- 20w
some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame
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- 20w
I feel like the worst kind of person and I am ruining my husband. I don’t know how I’m going to be able to change.
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- 17w
I’m currently struggling with guilt from checking OCD. By this I mean, I feel guilty and shameful by my OCD checking because I feel as that was immoral and wrong and I really don’t know what to do. How can I fight this?
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