girlanon
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
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- Date posted
- 3y
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girlanongirlanon
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
I hate my body. My old style. My old interests. My hair (my old favourite thing about my sppearance). My name. The words woman, girl, female. All of it. Just seeing photos of myself is triggering. None of my memories feel like they belong to me but to this fake me I was pretending to be all those years.
girlanongirlanon
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
@Dialup I don't want my current me to be me. I'm scared of this me. I hate being this me
BetterDaysBetterDays
- Date posted
- 3y
I feel the same way almost like I’m a stranger to myself. I miss the old me and I don’t know why but I can’t come to terms that this is me now with OCD.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
I’m sorry . It does get better . You will come back stronger. I promise!
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- Date posted
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- Date posted
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Myself
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