This might not be OCD related but i'm so paranoid that someone is watching me, its 2am and im so scared, help

That's the thing, I dont feel comfortable going around my house right now because I feel like someone is going to follow me and attack from behind. Also, I havent found anyone watching me before and have experienced this paranoia before, but very briefly. It has been almost 30 minutes now and the paranoia hasnt gone away

I have this certain place in the kitchen in the corner where I feel safe and I dont want to leave it

No, my dads are gone on vacation right now and my sister is sleeping. Id feel much better if a family member was here right now

And my sister wont have time when she gets up, she has school today

It's almost like I can hear this very light breathing sound

I sleep in the living room, but the main door is in the living room and before I got too paranoid, I went ahead and locked both the back door and the front door. I suppose it does help knowing that my sister is safe. I even moved some things to the kitchen like my phone charger and then ran to the kitchen so I wouldnt have to go back there.

@Fabcat17 Im not sure if messaging would comfort me enough to go back into the living room

I guess I could try and see if messaging helps. I think the paranoia might be easing up now. Im going to try to go to the living room. Well, on second thought maybe it's not easing up, maybe i could wait until daytime, that would help

I mean, I know I locked the doors but I still have the sense of paranoia

It does comfort me and make me feel safer, however, if I was to go back to the living room, I just wouldnt feel safe there

It's mostly the location of where I am that affect my paranoia

That is true, and I just checked my phone and my location is turned off, so that also helps

The location thing really helps because location-related things are really what my paranoia goes off of

Yeah, I could always call the police, but I feel like I would be making a fake emergency call. And it's not exactly that I think "someone" is watching me, it's mostly just this paranoia of an entity, like paranormal, but I dont really believe paranormal things, but I nonetheless feel like an entity will appear and attack me

Thats one reason why locking my doors didnt really seal the deal for me

No, im not religious, but one thing that does make sense if that I watch a lot of horror games on YouTube and that could be contributing to building up the paranoia

If -> is** sorry for typo

I did watch horror games earlier today

Definetly while im experiencing paranoia, thats for sure, but im pretty sure I wouldnt want to at times like this anyhow.

Im going to see if I can walk to the living room, be right back

Yeah, it's good that im exposing myself to the uneasy feeling, even if it's little by little

The paranoia gets really bad when im up moving around and not too bad when im stationary and sitting down

I guess thinking about the impossibility of a game programmed on a computer being in real life helps

And I guess it's where im near a corner right now in the kitchen so nothing can really be behind me if im in a corner

But like I said, as soon as I get up and move around, the paranoia gets worse

Im not as paranoid when I walk over to the fridge, that's a start

You know, when I was around people at my grandma's house, I never really felt like something was going to appear behind me. However, I did have these moments when I would look at the hallway and think I saw something there, but my peripheral vision just thought something was there

But then id just brush it off because I felt safe with my family there

Well that was easy!!! I legit just went another way to the living room that I was more comfortable with, turned on some lights and boom! Dont feel paranoid at all! 😂😂

@Fabcat17 I turned the lights on on the way to the living room through our old kitchen (the dining room way was the direction to the living room that paranoid me more)

Haha, thank you so much, I guess it was because I was scared something was going to appear out of the dark!! And the best part is that I can sleep with lights on too!!

I just mentioned the sleep thing because I can sleep in these conditions, as well as feel safe while im awake.

Thank you! I'm just happy it's over, I better go and edit my Facebook post that I posted for my family to see about me being paranoid before they worry about me.

I edited the post and said that I literally just went and turned on some lights and now im perfecrly fine *facepalm* 😂

Haha, thank you so much for everything, you have a great night! ☺😌