Keepgoing1995
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- 3y
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 3y
I definitely believe similar things in the moment, but I usually realize later that is my anxiety and fear trying to rule me, and that it has little to do with what I am actually capable of or what is actually going to happen to me. I don't need to sugar coat this because it's just describing how things play out.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
That’s an excellent point and has also been true in my experience!
teethteeth
- Date posted
- 3y
hey friend, I hear you. this is something I am struggling with right now, too.
GoneHikingGoneHiking
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- 3y
I can relate to that a bit. There have been times where I've felt like I'll never do anything right (lie). Or that what I've felt will last forever (lie). Or that I'll always be useless (lie). Lies, lies, lies. Your brain will lie to you all the time with a disorder like this, and it can make it difficult to know what you really want or where you're going in life. Which is uncomfortable, but I'll let you in on a secret - those people you see around you who seem so well adjusted? Most of them have either struggled with their own demons or they're struggling with them right now, because the only thing that people who are terrible and people who feel terrible have in common with one another is that many of them are great actors. A lot of us are barely keeping it together on a level that others will never know. Give yourself some credit - right now you're in survival mode, and that's okay. In time, you'll find a way forward. Nothing lasts forever, and that includes depression, even if it seems like it will in the moment.
Keepgoing1995Keepgoing1995
- Date posted
- 3y
Thanks for the kind words I hope I can pull through and I wish the same for you
AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
I’m really sorry you feel this way. I don’t believe that anyone is hopeless, I believe that anything is possible with God. You are loved, regardless of whether you are able to keep a job. You have value because of who you are; you are made in the image of God. And your difficult experiences may be a blessing to others. People who are struggling often can’t relate to people who seem to have it all together. Your weakness may be a strength. I don’t know you but I value you and am praying for you. I went through a different mental illness for over 10 years and there seemed to be no hope. But praise God, I am now free from it. This was unfathomable just a few years ago. Now I struggle with OCD and there are days it feels dark and hopeless. But feeling is not truth. Even reason might not be truth. OCD is debilitating, but that does not mean it always will be. Do you have an OCD-knowledgeable therapist? If not, have you tried using the other resources on this app?
Keepgoing1995Keepgoing1995
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you for the response but at this point I just feel like I don’t even have OCD I’ve seen therapist before and taken medication but nothing is going right, right now and I know I’m still valuable if I can’t hold a job but I mean without money you can’t survive in this world you know
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