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- Contamination OCD
Does anyone else have trouble cleaning their room because everything feels like it’s dirty?
Does anyone else have trouble cleaning their room because everything feels like it’s dirty?
I want to give my family some baked good as I love baking for others. But I have a new intrusive thought that I might poison someone. Is this an irrational fear or should I be worried? I feel like ocd is telling me “why so you can poison them” I know for a fact that I have not and do not want to poison anyone! Also I clean my hands and surfaces so many times when baking to avoid germs but ocd is still making me doubt myself. Is it okay to still give them the baked goods despite my intrusive thoughts. It’s very upsetting 😔I don’t understand why I get intrusive thoughts how can I stop them?
How can you get over the fear of intrusive thoughts? I don’t wanna be around people incase in being on intrusive thoughts. I want to see my family bc I know they can tell I’ve been distant since ocd getting bad again but I don’t want to get intrusive thoughts about them and also feel bad that I have and idk ocd makes it incredibly difficult for me to make decisions. I want to give them so if my bakes good and ocd is like why do you can poison them. So then of course I don’t want to but I have never poisoned anyway I am very hygienic in the kitchen why does ocd make your don’t yourself 😔. I was scared to go out yesterday incase I got an intrusive thought about my friend but luckily I didn’t but I did get intrusive thoughts about other people/ things but didn’t do any compulsions. It’s like I view my worth on weather or not I get intrusive thoughts like I try my hardest to control them I hate them so much I feel bed if I let them in bc I don’t want them idk how to move on
Can anyone give me helpful tips to over come this??
My wife OCD is driving me crazy from the last 4 years. The problem is not about OCD, I understand it's in your control. The problem is her not willingness to take therapy. I have spoken politely and during huge fights but nothing works. Her rituals are keep building up. Not sure what to do here...
Basically a few days ago my dog got spayed and wet herself in the house after the surgery. We can't clean her because we don't wanna open the incision or anything, so I've been stressing a lot ab germs on the floor especially (spraying disinfectant, washing feet, etc). I'm mostly worried ab how I'm gonna get in my bed without contaminating the sheets cause I can't use anymore cleaning supplies. I won't be able to do any kind of therapy for a while so until then I have to do some sort of self help or erp but that shit gives me anxiety just thinking about it, idk if this fear is irrational or not
How do I get a full diagnosis of OCD
Does anyone else feel like ocd messes with your depth perception? I'm not officially diagnosed with ocd but suffer heavily with compulsions. I feel like passing near something, ex) garbage, it feels like I touched it. But i walk by multiple times "checking" to see if it was possible. I feel like my eyes are telling me an object is literally next to my hands or face, but if i turn and look for a mirrors perspective or ask someone to confirm the object is a foot or more away. I have contamination fears.
Recently I had gone to a mental hospital and gotten evaluated and they said I have severe ocd on top of other things. I’ve known I’ve had it for 7 years I just didn’t realize how severe. Only until this year has it become debilitating, I go through about 100 alcohol wipes a day, I use a paper towel to touch everything, nothing can touch my bed, if I touch anything out of the shower before bed I have to rewash and sanitize. I’ve been rewashing clothes already washed because I don’t find them clean esp if they have been touched with dirty hands or areas. Just now I had washing a load of laundry so I could sleep but I dropped my underwear and had to use one from my drawer but once I put it on I had a panic attack and freaked out because I thought about how much germs are on it and others feces from mixed clothing. So now I’m sitting here rewashing my sheets and my clothes and I showered once again. It’s 6 am I haven’t slept. I can’t do anything anymore I’m walking on eggshells. And yes I’ve tried CBT, ERP and meds and nothing works.
As of late I find myself obsessing more over being clean. I hold in my pee because I absolutely despise peeing because I feel like I need to shower or change clothes and I use way to much tp or wipes. Anyone else?
How have you coped with self doubt? And how have you been able to build trust in yourself again?
does any one else get the physical hallucination that bugs are crawling on your skin? but it doesn’t come and go, its a constant feeling 24/7. sometimes it feels like a pinch or like im being bitten. i have been to multiple doctors about it and the only thing i haven’t explored is if its related to mental health. has anyone else experienced this?
My OCD is very focused on objects and contamination. Lately, I’ve been having one recurring instance that I’ve been having trouble putting to rest. Most of my OCD episodes last at the maximum about a month. This one went away, then resurfaced, then went away again, and then resurfaced again. I’ve tried ERT but it seems to only make it worse? I’m terrified that it’ll never go away and I’ll be stuck like this forever. I’m going through a really stressful time in life which is probably linked to it. What happens if I can’t ever put these feelings to rest for good, either by ERT or a compulsion?
I used to be able to separate myself from my ocd but now my ocd is making me question everything and making me question weather I am a genuine nice and caring person or not making me feel like a liar. I don’t understand how to deal with this I can’t do anything without checking to make sure I’m been good etc.
Hello everyone! I hope you’re all having a happy Thursday. I am here to ask for any tips and advice on how to keep my hands from being so dry from my excessive hand washing. Currently my hands are extremely dry, have cuts on them from the dryness, the cuts are beginning to bleed, and my hands look very purple/ red in appearance due to the damage and the cold water and weather at work. It’s very embarrassing to be around others with my hands looking the way they do and even embarrassing to ask for advice somewhere else. Thank you in advance!❤️
Does anyone ever have phantom sensations? My current one is that it feels like someone has spit on me but when I check there’s nothing there. Is this just my brain trying to sabotage me? It’s so odd I can’t figure out why else it would be happening
How do you focus when ocd is trying to take over? I feel like I can’t do anything until I get my intrusive thoughts in control bc I don’t want them to contaminate things or associate intrusive thoughts with things I hate myself rn. I need help
Does anyone else grind their teeth constantly or have a tight jaw due to anxiety? I’m worried it’s going to damage my teeth or my jaw will get stuck. Also my anxiety can cause me to have an upset stomachs even though I take propanalol but I’m been advised to come off of it for therapy so don’t know how id cope without it
Does anyone else feel like an awful person if they don’t act on compulsions? I’ve been getting better but it sucks to ignore/not pay any attention to my thoughts. I feel like if I don’t prove myself then I’m bad
I managed to carry 1 (one) disgusting cup from my room to my kitchen without vomiting. Please, hold your applause.
Is it normal to put hand sanitiser on, antibac your phone and spray your clothes with disinfectant when you get home? if I didn’t do this I would worry about germs. Bc my other themes are worse this one seems normal to me I don’t think it’s ocd. If I’m making food for other people I often feel the need to out hand sanitiser on multiple times as well even after hand washing.
Wanna pretend not to have ocd so you can just live life and not ruminate or do compulsions????!!! I’m over it!!
currently: my manager at work mentioned she went to chuckie cheese for her niece birthday. i don’t know why but i associate chuckie cheese with sickness. we touched the phones and tablets at my work and i touched them after she did and i am just currently freaking out that i’m going to get a stomach bug. i feel sick but i feel like it’s just anxiety. just wanted to rant lol. 😄 i know it’s my ocd and anxiety so trying to sit with the thoughts!
I get anxiety every single time I have a stomach ache and you know how often I have a stomach ache every single day I get anxiety every single day about the same things and even more things but it’s not just that so much things trigger it and I feel so misunderstood like people think oh you have a fear of throwing up well no one like throwing up or get over it but it’s not that simple I’m traumatized like I’d rather do something I absolutely hate than throw up. I literally avoid everything I can’t eat this can do that can’t share. i have to take vitamin c everyday to improve my immune system I don’t like travel because I’m scared of motion sickness I get scared on rides thinking someone will Throw up on me I cant drink even though I’m underage and alcohol is disgusting but still I can’t be around little kids because they have too many germs. I always think I have a fever and I’m constantly checking my temp. I’m constantly feeling my head and my cheeks to make sure they’re not hot. I get scared to go to my cousins house because they are always sick I can’t eat at certain restaurant i have to check dates on food. I can’t wear certain clothes. i have dreams of myself throwing up. When I get intrusive thoughts/ images about me getting sick or someone else. I Literally can not function on certain days from the past I got sick there is so much more how will this ever stop how will I ever be able to function I avoid so much and I literally miss out on so much things because of this like I literally want to shut down in my room and never come out that’s how bad it is. I have this extreme fear of getting sick/ vomiting and OCD has latched onto that fear ever since I was little and I have to do all these compulsions and this is just a list of some of the things I have to do. Anyone else relate?
I was driving around all day making deliveries and I was proud of myself for working through my anxiety, however I noticed I was performing compulsions and I kept feeling worse and worse. I finally decided to start talking to myself and using some “maybe, maybe not” messages with myself. I felt so much better for the rest of the night after I did that for a few minutes. It was so simple, I’m shocked it worked so well.
I put the wrong tag on the other post))) anyways I haven’t been able to wash dishes for YEARS due to my ocd and today I FACED IT!!! I washed every dish until it was sparkly clean!!! I’m so happy even though it’s a small and normal thing people do everyday it was really hard for me but I DID IT!!! I’m kinda proud of myself :3
hi everyone i’m new to this app. i’ve had ocd for as long as i can remember. it started during my infant / toddler developmental years when i would projectile vomit and food that touched my palate (palate wasn’t fully formed) and ever since then my food category has just gotten smaller and smaller. i also have pretty bad sensory problems. i had strep constantly as a child through adolescence and believe the cause of my ocd is pandas. i’m unable to eat or even look at all fruits and don’t eat vegetables. i eat the same things everyday for every meal. i also have extreme problems with contamination of my food. i scream when people reach over my food or anything my food is going to go on. it’s such a struggle to live with this and i’m genuinely concerned for my future with children. i went to exposure therapy for two years and barely made much progress. it’s so degrading to live through this and it’s such an extreme fear of mine that i will never get better. i have effected what my friends and family can eat around me with me being extremely triggered. sometimes i get so frustrated with my ocd and feelings with it that i begin to sob. i just want to get better.
My mom surprised my family by bringing home a Golden Retriever puppy, and while everyone else is super excited… this is kind of my nightmare? Don’t get me wrong, I love animals! This puppy is super chill and sweet, but he’s triggering a lot of my contamination fears. I keep having to clean him up after he has accidents in the house meaning I’m touching unsanitary stuff daily, he goes outside and gets super muddy and tries to eat random plants or bugs, but my family just gives him a quick wipe down with a towel and lets him run around on furniture or lets him give them kisses and it’s all so… 😵💫 I don’t know!! I hope I don’t sound bitter or too silly, it’s just been hard for me to have an animal in our once pet-free home and it’s bringing up a lot of scary feelings.
Well, I totally fucked up and got blackout drunk again. I’m so worried that I said my awful intrusive thoughts while I was blackout, and that they were so upsetting that nobody will tell me if I did. Please help me, I’m in a lot of trouble and I don’t know what else to do. My intrusive thoughts are extremely offensive and terrible, that’s why they’re intrusive, and what if I said them all in public? How do I move forward? I’m so tired I don’t even know how to feel.
I tend to get anxious about the cleanliness of my utensils if there’s a mark on it or sink splash back? Does anyone else get this?
Can I ask what would be excessive things to do for or about chicken and salmonella? What’s a normal interaction?
NOCD has said I need virtual IOP or higher level care. I’ve looked at the places they recommended and am not seeing any virtual options. I will be calling each place but I’m wondering if any of you are aware of any places that do virtual OCD IOP. Thanks.
There’s two perfectly good insulated cups just sitting on my bedside table. I feel like I can’t use them because they sat for too long, and now my brain is convinced they are Contaminated™️. Could I put them through the dishwasher? Yes, of course. Can I bring myself to touch them to even attempt to take them to the sink? Of course not! 🙄
I’m afraid of getting poked by a syringe. I hate the moment I touch things like a door handle or putting my hands in a fridge or anything deep. I feel like I’m going to get poked in my false memory likes to tell me that one was hiding if it makes sense. It happened to me at the restaurant while I open the door, thinking the craziest make up stories in my head like a syringe was taped to the door knob, and now I’m poked and I am infected which is crazy even typing this and it’s embarrassing but to my brain and false memory likes to do I would know if I would’ve gotten poked because the needle will be stuck in my skin but then I think of the slightest little poke that can possibly infect me. I hate it so much and I take pictures of things that I touch sometimes and it’s taking over my life at this point .
Is it normal to washing things again because if sink splash back it is that ocd?
I have again been told I need a higher level of care because the severity of my OCD. I last place gave me a list of options which is how I found NOCD. I’m just hoping that the list NOCD gave me actually has someone who can help me virtually or nearby. Residential options are all too far away given that my mom has cancer and Parkinson’s and is not doing well. Just sad about this and needed to share. OCD has sucked up so much of my life for the past 15ish years. Treatment helped so much but the pandemic and some challenging life stressors really set me back.
My OCD has gotten worse and worse. I used to clean my apartment, but now I can’t touch most of the surfaces in my own place because they’re “”””contaminated”””” according to my brain. It’s gotten to the point where even wearing gloves doesn’t help. I am living in filth and I hate it so much but I don’t feel like I can touch the mess even to clean it.
Hi guys, please give me tips on how to manage anxiety during exposures. Thanks in advance.
Does anyone else feel like their acting weird? I’ve developed this complex that makes me feel like I’m acting strange or off now which is making me believe I’m turning into this awful person that I’m so afraid of. 😞
im searching for ar/vr apps for android/vr glasses that can help with ocd, i found ar app with spiders (phobys) any suggestions?
I’m in my first year of college which of course means communal living and the reasonable (and unreasonable OCD) disgust that comes with it which already has be far closer to the edge than when I’m at home and just in casual conversation I learned that one of my friends had horrible hygiene habits (never washes coats/showers infrequently/wears 6 pairs of pants over and over for a month/etc.) and now I just see her as utterly contaminated, she doesn’t even have a regular sense of how dirty the outside world is. Anyone have advice on how to cope? Talking to her in any capacity about it is out of the question and I’m pretty sure she knows I have contamination OCD so it’s gotta be all me if I want to cope
Every time i see one in my bedrooms i literally feel the need to change my bed sheets because i start stressing out about the areas the mosquito may have landed on and it grosses me out. Idk what to do😭
I’m scared to do exposure therapy and not ready at all for it even though I’ve had OCD for so long. I’m scared I’ll be forced to touch things I don’t want to due to OCD or be forced to express my disgusting thoughts out loud. Is it okay that I feel scared? Should I be? Advice?
I just changed my nephews diaper and afterwards I washed my hands 3x and then used hand sanitizer and cleaned my rings 😅😅 excessive?😅😅😅
i miss feeling excited and having things to look forward to in life. now I’m just worrying all the time
hey guys, my mom and brothers were sick but they feel better now, and my dad doesn’t feel good today. my head is hurting me and i have a kind of scratchy throat, my biggest OCD thing is contamination and i just wanna cry right now. i hate that i am getting sick and it’s so hard for me to just admit it, i feel horrible and i just want to cry lol. i am just hoping i don’t get a sore throat or something because that’ll really be my breaking point, i hate that i feel like this.
Found myself beating myself up about my thought, trying to figure it out. Had to stop and realize and remind myself I have a disorder called ocd and that's why I keep having these thoughts. Also adding abandonment issues and trauma aren't the best mix lol c'est la vie
I have a lot of deadlines right now, just took my driving theory test a few days ago, I have been working on my resume and applying for jobs everyday and plus a few other things. I can feel the spike coming in, it's like I am getting sensitive to all my triggers again and it's getting harder to not ruminate on them. Any advice on how to prevent OCD from spiking when stressed?
Having hiv ocd is debilitating at times. I feel like I cant function. I ended up hooking up with someone new last night and now my brain thinks I’m infected. Every encounter is like that for me and I just feel like I just can’t date in peace. I’m always safe but the uncertainty of something going wrong replays in my head. I had slept most of the day today to avoid the anxiety and it’s almost paralyzing where I can’t or don’t want to do a single thing and stay In ruminating mode. I’m tired of this. I decided to go and be intimate because it’s a big exposure and I want my life back. That’s my motto for this year. It’s so difficult.
I let my contam OCD get so bad. It got bad during the pandemic and i didn't do a good job of getting back on track. I've come to a point that things bother me and I don't even know why and the amount of things I think about contam wise is exhausting. It's made me insufferable and has taken a toll on my relationship. I'm sick of feeling this way and letting these things get to me, I've tried erp in the past but I tend to fall back into bad habits. Any advice? I've contemplated meds, but they make me nervous.
How can you stop compulsions? I feel my intrusive thoughts are real. I have contamination OCD and I'm afraid that I might contaminate things or other people. I always wash my hands and wipe the things with alcohol.
I sometimes feel guilty over things and I know I shouldn’t feel guilty but I just do.
I think I’ve gotten myself into the worst panic I’ve been in so far. I don’t know if I’m dissociating or what but I’m feeling so hopeless & scared. I feel like I’ve convinced myself I have an illness or I’m crazy. I’m constantly crying and looking for reassurance
Does anyone else get unreasonably anxious or mad whenever someone leaves a mess somewhere, pees on the toilet seat, doesn’t wash their hands, etc.? My family member did not wash their hands before eating from a bag of my snacks and it made me super annoyed and anxious. Whenever I buy new snacks I hide them in the pantry or in my room so nobody else sticks their hands in it, and if they do I feel like I have to watch them eat it. Another family member got pee on my toilet seat and it made me extremely mad and anxious and makes me want to avoid using the bathroom. I hold my pee and get uti’s a lot because of this, I hate using the bathroom. When I do go to use the bathroom, I scrub the toilet seat every single time before I sit down. I scrub the seat until I feel like it’s clean enough. Even when no one has used my bathroom, I still scrub the seat before I use the toilet. Is this contamination OCD? I just realized how much these things bother me. My room is currently messy, but sterile. I’m fine with things being untidy but not with things being dirty, if that makes sense. Thank you for listening to me vent lol
I have my own bathroom in my flat that I share with others. One of my friends sometimes invites people over that I don’t get along with. My fear is that when I go out they might do something to my bathroom or my products in there so I have to remove them and keep them in my room when I go out every time I come back after being out somewhere I’m filled with such anxiety and I find myself checking things and then winding myself up if something doesn’t appear like I thought I left it. It’s so debilitating and exhausting and it’s making me utterly miserable and I just simply don’t know what to do.
For the past couple of days, I’ve been feeling like an insomniac, even after taking medication for my sleep. Why can’t I just be able to sleep peacefully without any intrusive thoughts and nightmares I keep on having?
my psychiatrist wants me to go up to 300 mg but i’m nervous and have been obsessing over it so right now i’ve only gone up to 250. idk how to figure out whether it’s working for me or not and im obsessing over getting serotonin syndrome. i have been having a bit of a headache each day and my stomach is more sensitive. i think i’ll call my psychiatrist today but i wanted to see if anyone else has gone through a similar situation
I hate how I obsess over making sure I abide medication precautions like “avoid contact with eyes” cause then I obsessively wash my hands to rid contamination. I also fear that my clothes are contaminated with my medication and it’ll still come in contact with my eyes.
I’ve always wanted relationships & intimacy but I have an extremely crippling fear of smelling bad/being dirty myself or the person I’m with smelling bad/being dirty. The thought of someone breathing on me is so disgusting to me and I wish that wasn’t how I felt. Bodily functions in general are so gross to me and I struggle to believe anyone will ever truly want to be with me because I just feel gross all the time. Does this sound like some type of contamination OCD? It genuinely keeps me from moving forward with anything ever and I feel like it’s ruining my life. Types out it sounds so silly and not serious but it’s debilitating
Hello:) I am very perfectionist (OCD) and over all it really stresses me out. Also when an important/special event, something that I like, occures, I get nervous and try to do everything perfect, if not, I may regret it after and think it was a waste. I know it‘s nonsense, but I can‘t help the thoughts in my head. The contamination OCD also plays a role here. When I see „bad“ trigger words (like „6“ or religious words like devil or something like that) I try to wipe them away on clothes or any, or shake my hands to kind of get them away. I know it might sound weird but do y‘all have some helpful ideas or tips that helped you? Maybe something to think about or believe in that moment? Like „it‘s okay not to“ or something like this? Thank you!
I hate that my OCD prevents me from doing everyday things. I said no to going out with my family today because I don’t want to shower again when I come home. I already showered today because I cleaned the toilet. I feel like I have to shower every time after being out and about. My husband and toddlers too. It’s pretty ridiculous but I can’t shake the feeling of being dirty after being out of my home. Does anyone else struggle with this?
Hey, do you have any tips for obssesively body checking (health ocd). Showers are the worst because I have the obssesive thoughts to check my body for anything.
18+ My condom accedentally broke cause i stretched it too much and cum flew everywhere and now I’m worried that everything in my room have cum on it. My jacket, clothes etc everything. I can’t really find anything cause it wasn’t that much cum but it flew everywhere I guess. I feel like I wanna clean everything in my room but nothing looks dirty. How do I handel this? Kinda funny I know but I’m stressed out about this
I know everyone on this app has dealt with something that stopped their life at some point. I know you may think it will never go away and you may think something is wrong with you but the truth is you’re perfect no matter what you’re dealing with. It doesn’t matter what you’ve dealt with and what has happened in your life but I promise you it will get better no matter what. Life can be stressful yes but what happened in this past is just in the past it’s over, I know telling you to move on from the past isn’t as easy as it sounds but just take a day at a time. Imagine you wake up with 86,400 dollars in your bank account and everyday at the end of the night that money disappears and then the next day you get another 86,400 dollars. Of course you’ll do everything in your power to spend it. You get 86,400 seconds , why let your battles ruin your life and make you feel like nothing when you’re the most perfect human being. I know it may be reassurance to some of you but the truth is , you’re just perfect.. regardless of your battles.
My nephew with contamination OCD is visiting and staying with me. How do I address with him that I am supportive and empathetic?
so i'm moving in with my boyfriend and his parents and he has a younger brother. he always leaves the door open. i'm bringing my cat with me (no choice) but i don't want her going in his room. how can i work with this? because my ocd fixates on people touching things that are mine, especially when they are younger.
My contamination OCD just won't give me any piece. All I think about all day everyday is being contaminated with covid. I'm scared to be around people. I'm scared to touch anything even in my own home, because I share it with my parents and I think they may have touched something when they're out and then bought covid back into the house. I'm hardly sleeping because I can't switch my mind off. I'm spending ages in the shower because I can't seem to feel clean and my hands are sore and red from constantly washing them. It's driving me crazy I feel anxious constantly my heart pounds I feel sick, shaky and have hardly any appetite. Please give me any advice that can help.
hey everyone, i’m currently struggling a lot with irritability due to my ocd, it causes the need to for me to be very precise about everything. when anything is in the way of that, i get angry. i lash out at my friends and family and i dont know how to be comfortable with things not being perfect. even if someone says a word my ocd doesnt like, i get mad at them. and i also have contamination ocd so when ever someone contaminates something of mine i get very mad. however none of this is their fault, its entirely something i need to work on. if anyone has any tips itd be much appreciated!
Feeling really triggered and loney right now, is there anyone I can chat with please. Call, text, instagram.
My grandma has a stomach bug and I am freaking out. I don't want to get sick and it's really stressing me out. I just felt like expressing this out into a community that will understand.
I keep washing my hands if I touch something and it feels dirty only items that I wash feel clean. This is really hard because after a day out I have to take a shower and wash my phone then have to avoid all door knobs until I reach the safety of my room. How can I control this?!
Hello! First time asking a question here. I’m wondering - do you ever struggle with following through on an exposure? I just resisted the compulsion to wash my hands after they may have accidentally touched something I worry about being contaminated. I tried to treat it as an exposure, and went on with my day, but now I’m concerned I’m just tracking the contamination all over my house and I’m feeling my anxiety increase as I think of all the possible consequences. Any advice?
During the pandemic, I was living an average one bedroom apartment in the downtown of a major city. At this time, I broke a bottle of honey whiskey in my kitchen. Along with the honey drink all over my floor, there was a lot of broken glass - shards, splitters, and dust - making it look like a sandbox. Given society being shutdown, it took a couple of weeks to get a maid service in to clean it. This maid service just spread the sticky residue everywhere around my apartment, whether it was the walls, cabinets, and/or bathroom. Little did we know that honey doesn't breakdown with cleaning solutions. Given its rare antibacterial qualities, it needs extremely hot water alone. A friend and I scrubbed everything with extremely hot water, and I called a carpet cleaning service for the floors. However, we would have tracked the sticky residue through the high-rise building, local stores, restaurants, and his house. With my contamination OCD, it drives me insane that anything I could touch possibly would have an impervious residue like honey mixed with glass particle anywhere. Thus, I decided to sell off and/or get rid of everything to move in with him. Despite tracking a little on his floors, it's hard to think that it hasn't spread somewhere in this environment as well. Between this house, frequented areas of my city, a popular maid service spreading it around town with their tools (vacuums, brooms, dusters, etc.), and my parent's house, I've taken to a fairly reclusive lifestyle. Let's not even mention my body feeling permanently contaminated with glass particles through acts of sex, eating, physical exertion, etc. Without considering losing money on my physical possessions, I've still wasted 1 1/2 years of my life and $30,000. This sucks, but I don't know what to make of my body and this city - the only one I have a few connections in. I'm in hell.
i actually put on a piece of clothing that i thought was contaminated but calmed myself down and actually got myself to wear it, does anyone feel like these small things are huge milestones for recovery?
I’m to the point where I don’t even know how to explain what I’m feeling. Every second of every day is a constant battle of trying to convince myself I’m not going crazy or this evil person. I’m so so tired. I’m constantly crying and wanting to freak out because I feel so out of control with my emotions 😞 I look at my little boy and feel so scared to think about a life without him in it because he has an unwell mom. We have the best life and I’m so scared of the thought of losing that because of me. My thoughts keep getting the best of me, I’m so scared I’m going crazy. I don’t know what to do anymore 😭
ive been having a very hard time. im trying to get into a program but it takes time. im in school and i have panic attacks daily and i see my therapist all the time. i have somatic and contamination/health ocd and it feels so real. i get memories and images in my head of my fear. im scared of how im going to react to anything. i feel like idk what going to happen. i cant sleep well. eating is difficult. i cant focus i have no motivation. im depressed and feel helpless. im just terrified and tired. ive been in so many programs amd therapies since i was 8 yrs old and ive never not struggled. im very frustrated and so tired of it all. please tell someone else has been here too. i feel very alone
Is there any natural remedy that you guys found to work to relieve anxiety/stress and also helps to fight the urge of compulsions? I don't have access to medicine, although I tried before and it helped me. I just want something to help me resist compulsions. Thanks.
I have to wash my hands after I touch anything and I have to shower if I leave my house, even if it’s just to take the trash out I feel dirty and shower. Does anyone have any tips on how to stop this?
this is how you know it’s been a bad day. my hands look like this due to washing them so much. i moved back into my dorm today so i have been in out of places:/
I’m in need of serious advice or support. I just took my dog for a walk and I think I he stepped on a cigarette butt. I say I think cause I think my mind is playing tricks on me. Im usually really good about watching where he steps but I’m trying to not obsess over it all the time. Now I’m going in a loop. I had him walk in a bunch of snow after to make me feel better but my mind is going crazy! I think I’m doing better than I normally would be because I’m able to tell myself it’s been months since I saw those same cig butts and it’s been snowing and raining like crazy since then and that seems to be helping. Ugh. Just so tired of living like this. Thankful for this app and even though I wish we didn’t have to be here I’m comforted to know I’m not alone which is how I feel all the time!
is it just me or has soap been running out so fast in my house
does anyone forget why they thought something wasn’t clean but still obsess over cleaning it?
Anyone else? Having wild thoughts that you absolutely know are complete nonsense and not logical at all, however your OCD tries to convince you otherwise and you get caught up in a cycle. I know OCD is not logical and that's what it does, it's just so damn frustrating even when you try to get back to your logical thinking, OCD puts up a road block, just give me a freaking break already. 😢
To avoid feeling your ocd? Like you know how you can like push feelings away but like for ocd? Cause I’m sure I do this for my triggers kind of like pushing the issue away from myself emotionally
Hi guys, since the pandemic I have always had a great fear of covid because of the possibility to infect my loved ones. I stopped going to the gym, but this new year I decided to try again and this evening I'll go to talk to the gym. Who knows if I will make it actually! Anyone in my same situation? How did you deal with this fear? Thank you!
This article about ERP and ocd just really clarified things for me, posting in case it helps you! https://www.psychotherapynetworker.org/article/upside-down-psychotherapy