I’ve been doing AMAZING but the last three days have been a little sticky with anxiety and some intrusive thoughts slipping in and me engaging them. I was like thinking why is it more difficult right now, Checked my flo~app and apparently my monthly friend starts in four days, LOL. Idk if that has anything to do with it but it makes sense!
Since I came to the conclusion that I’m bisexual, I’ve been wanting to be in a relationship but when thinking about it, certain intrusive thoughts come flooding my mind. Filling my head with irrational scenarios that might cost me my life. Like being buried alive in my sleep or something.
The phrase “youth is wasted on the young” has been stuck in my head on the daily for like 4 months and keeps giving me anxiety since I’m younger and am now wondering if I’m wasting my best years. Doesn’t make any rational sense but that’s how these things go. Wanted to share to see what other weird, obscure themes people are dealing with. Mine tend to get really specific like this sometimes lol.
A few sticky thoughts regarding if I know what love is or not and if I truly love my partner, and suddenly I’m anxious. Trying not to engage with the thoughts and just acknowledge the anxiety and how it makes me feel but it still sucks. How can I be perfectly content with our life together and the relationship we have, and then have these intrusive thoughts.
Hey guys...i just started the Antidepressant: Fluoxetine. I'm on my fourth day today. I've been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and mild depression. I've had anxiety for two years now. Started off with severe panic attacks and ongoing intrusive thoughts. Was afraid to sleep, afraid to be alone, afraid of my thoughts and mind. I started having compulsions. I was on the internet everyday, searching....trying to figure out what's wrong with me?. Started wondering about my existence, started wondering about death and afterlife. I was searching near death experiences day after day. I started having existential crisis. An ongoing cycle of anxiety, overthinking everything or overanalyzing. But after june this year, i started having out of body experiences. Feeling detached, feeling disconnected, feeling unreal. For about 3 months of this vicious cycle. And all those symptoms have calmed down now except one. Overthinkng.....overthinking still haunts me but the things my makes up, ain't scary anymore. It's slowly losing a grip on me. I'm slowly returning to normal. I've told that Fluoxetine helps calm the mind, intrusive thoughts and restores balance in hormones. All i can say is.....be strong.....anxiety doesn't kill. It doesn't have power over you. It's gonna get better. Just seek professional help, not from the internet....Real help and you'll break the cycle.
So I keep having the fear of playing my new ps4 g and it triggering a derealization episode. I got enough courage to play it a few times since I bought it two days ago and nothing happened. But everytime I think about playing it I get anxious . Any tips?
Like if it’s not the obsessions, it’s erp, it’s recovery, it’s podcasts.. I’m just sick of always thinking about this. All the time. And obviously I don’t want to pink elephant it by saying ‘just don’t think about ocd’ It’s so irritating!!! I want to think about other things!!!
does anyone else feel like they’re living a lie everyday to their partner friends etc even though my boyfriend knows everything and all my intrusive thoughts, i still feel like i’m this disgusting person living a complete lie to everyone and it makes me nervous
Sometimes… sometimes life isn’t simple as that. Life gets messy all the time. It really depends on how you cope with it. That what I feel all the time. So much shit has happened in the world so far, especially after COVID-19. Not know what tomorrow or next year will bring is very anxiety provoking. Talking about it sure helps me a little bit.
So I recently bought a ps4 and I am nervous to play it because I suffer from derealization off and on . Any tips?
I feel like my OCD gives me this need to dig around and find answers and it can cause me to just live inside my head for hours, even days on end. I found this article and it’s helped me a lot so I thought I would share it here: https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/
What have you found most effective to treat OCD? Also any medication better than other? I’m worried about side effects?
I have been suffering with religious ocd for 2 years now sometimes i thought god was evil, other I thought i’ll turn athiest and now the theme is getting harder it’s as if i want to stay christian but my thoughts keep telling me to turn to another religion and as if everything is a sign and god is calling me and whenever i think this way complete fear comes towards me and I stay for hours torying to come back to reality i can’t focus on my life studying or any other aspect and I fear that’s god calling me but I am not convinced with the other religion and evern when i read about it and i fear reading more because of devil missleading techniques
Mine is a 5/10 total it's okay to have a bad day please be honest
I’m looking for ocd community in NWA, Does anyone else live here?
Fuck the world grrrr fuck my mind. My spinning mind tries to make sense of the spinning world. Every second my mind tumbles. Here I am, feeling ridiculously alone in a very overpopulated world lol. Im glad y’all at least get my mind hahaha Xoxo Penny
this shit is DEBILITATING. so fucking exhausting. i want it to go away but the more i push the stronger it gets. a panic attack has got to be the most horrible experience in the world. sometimes i feel like im totally losing it
I’ve just been feeling so off lately and idk why. Like I’m numb
I’ve been trying for months and not seeing any results. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong :( does anyone have pointers? I’m so confused
I convinced myself that my ocd was fake and that I was just a bad person and to test this theory I stopped taking my meds… I’m not doing so good anymore. So yeah unless a doctor or something starts lowering your dosage for whatever reason please don’t stop. I haven’t slept well in a week. Anyone wanna play games and talk?
Did anyone had this feeling like you is not you? Or like there is something missing in your like Like it’s not like it was before. I get this feeling quite often I feel better everyday but sometimes this feeling kicks in and it makes me feel so awful And then you are worry that you might not like things you liked before and that you see world differently now because of ocd
Is anyone else having significant financial troubles due to their OCD? I have been on Short Term Disability since early August and am only making a portion of what I used to make. I struggled to pay for all my treatments even when I made my full salary. This year will be the second year in a row where I meet my maximum out-of-pocket for insurance (I've also done several treatments not covered by insurance). I have to go out of state for a Partial Hospitalization Program and if that doesn't work, I'll have to go to a different state and pay for a residential program. I recently had an evaluation done at the Mayo Clinic and this is just the beginning of my treatment plan. I was also diagnosed with MDD, BPD, and PTSD. The doctor at the Mayo Clinic just said that trying to treat my other disorders without first addressing the OCD was pointless, NOCD was finally something affordable I could find, but even my therapist on here said I needed a much more intensive treatment,
Avoiding the compulsion to ruminate, is it supposed to be draining? I know it’s important to sit in uncertainty, but the pain can be overwhelming sometimes. There are some beliefs that I want to embrace, but I face a lot of opposition in my community. And when it comes to opinions and beliefs, different sides can present logical arguments all day long and still accomplish nothing. So, I try to tell myself “maybe these beliefs I want to have are true, or maybe they’re not”. But sitting in that space is so painful. These beliefs affect what I decide to do with my life so not acting on them but also not denying them leaves me in this horrible limbo. Oftentimes when I do ruminate about it and I come to the conclusion “yes, this is what I believe, and I feel happy about it” I fare a lot better for a while. Until inevitably I question it all again. So I’ve tried to not reach any sort of conclusion at all, and I just feel empty. And I lose the will or energy to do much of anything. How am I supposed to go on like this?
i think i’ve been in a rut lately and my suicidal ocd has kind of sprung up again. is it still ocd even if i’m in a rut? they still disturb i just.. am not sure.
I'm afraid I'll have more stronger flashbacks since I'm going shopping again tomorrow
How do I delay my OCD compulsions so I can truly starve the “monster” in my head?
Saw/read this on instagram today when I was feeling anxious about my ocd, and it helped me so much. 🧠🫶🏼
Next tike OCD bothers you just laugh at it
Does anyone have any good resources for ERP exercises?
I'm not in a miserable place with the thoughts but from time to time I accidentally engage the thoughts most of the time I don't though idk any ideas how to avoid it always?
I can't believe in anything I doubt everything I had a very bad family They made me suspicious of everything How to get my trust back
Noticing moments of thoughts having no power and way less times of intrusive thoughts then usual today although not the best still better
i’ve been having this reoccurring thought where i tell myself I just want to rest I’m so tired even when I am not and have lots of responsibilities to get done. It’s very disempowering and i’m not sure if i am burnt out or if this is just a lot of self doubt. I feel like sometimes i’m still stuck in the mindset that everything is going to collapse under me and i’m going to be left to pick up the pieces again. Not sure if I should do an ERP about worst scade scenario if I did rest or worst case scenario if I didn’t? I’m just still trying to decipher between the really scary voice and the one that just pops up and says things. Idk if this is making sense but it’s been happening a lot and i’m not sure how to go about it.
I just need encouragement I hate life everything is overwhelming My mind is attacking me for no good reason i just want to hear this is all for my higher good but really?!
Even though iv had rough patches today was a major step up from yesterday although the thoughts still have some power it's a little weaker wish me a big improvement tomorrow friends
My hornyness kicking in and I have a homeless person my location and idk what to do now I'm not scared or anything just very weird why am I so gullible
so i have been in a space where i no longer do compulsions, sometimes i feel the need to but i simply don’t and wow does it feel so powerful. it have got to the point where not doing the compulsion eases the anxiety more than doing the compulsion because i know that i am making progress and am not relying on patterns, repetition etc to get rid of my thoughts or reduce the anxiety they give me in any way and it is so so freeing. i finally feel like my own person again. when i have a thought and i can feel my brain getting “sticky” (my brain latching onto a thought) i simply say “let it go over your head” and let it pass over like a cloud and this is how i now deal with not interacting with my thoughts. i see no meaning in them now and that doesn’t mean it doesn’t catch me off guard sometimes, harm is the subtype that i struggle with most now along with existentialism but not nearly to the extent that i used to. both sexuality and gender are near gone, a memory of a point in time and i can easily let those thoughts go over my head. i have days where the thoughts have no volume whatsoever but i still feel their presence sometimes through out my day and that is only normal! and a bad day does not tarnish you’re progress, this was another thing that i struggled with, a classic perfectionist with ocd :’) if you’re working through recovery or haven’t quite gotten there yet, you will! it is hard but so worth it. if i can do it, you can too! you’re not alone!🤍 (people often ask me whether i take medication for ocd and the answer is no, i never have) i hope you’re having a great day wherever you are in the world! :)
I have ocd and bipolar. I have been told to take medication for them. I read about side effects and I don't want to take them. I keep thinking what if the ocd medication makes the bipolar disorder worse. What if the bipolar medication makes the ocd worse. What if I have to depend on medication my whole life. What if I have horrible side effects.
Unfortunately I'm having a set back this week because I kept falling for thought traps and basic stresses I need to learn to not engage anything related to the thoughts now here I am on 5 hours of sleep I wish this stupid disorder would become a physical being sometimes
I’ve had the hardest time trying to find coverage in VA. Anyone located in VA what insurance plan do you have that is in network with NOCD ?
Hey so I suffer from derealization/existential themed ocd off and on . I was recently thinking about purchasing a gaming console so I’m not constantly ruminating on my other themes. But I also don’t want being immersed in a video game to worsen my derealization; as I read of that happening to people. Should I still push through the ocd and get one? Would that be a exposure? Or should I not because it could be a trigger.
Unfortunately I accidentally when tired engaged the thoughts traps which Unfortunately made them seem possible or realistic again but thankfully not a 10/10 strength
I've been sick for a few days and I think it's making my ocd worse. Mostly my ocd revolves around losing my mind/going crazy. Lately my obsession feels more like a feeling than a thought... this feeling that something is "off" or something is seriously wrong. It's sooo convincing too. I feel like "not right" in my body or like all the sudden I'll lose my mind. I hate how ocd constantly morphs and changes. I'm trying not to pay attention too much to the thoughts but they can feel so convincing. Just a rant I guess. Let me know what you think or how you're feeling. I hate ocd but I know it's mine to deal
I have been having severe fear of leaving my faith and suddenly everything i see is a sign today i heard at the radio that if your hearts says smth and all the ppl say something else this means follow your heart and i start doubting that what if it is a sign from god what if i have to leave my faith and convert what if what if and poff i just cant
Hi fam. As I deal with this OCD journey and am having some progress (thank god) I notice that I am struggling to trust myself. While I can identify a fully intrusive thought, there are times I still can’t separate what’s me and what’s not. What’s OCD and what isn’t. I’m certainly not as distressed about this as I would’ve been a few months back but I can’t exactly “trust my gut” when I don’t even know what my gut is telling me. I suppose this is just another day in dealing w OCD but wanted to know if anyone has some tips. Thanks
Immediately disengage the thinking of your brain and the impact should stop or reduce the fears power greatly but whatever you do it's best to never engage the thoughts no matter if it's easy to prove wrong because OCD cam convince you 300 purple lions who are invisible are hunting you that is ridiculous right? Exactly the point.
I found that Achievement hunting on games helps the thoughts reduce in power and frequency
Today has been a bit tough with a minor relapse recently thankfully its not near as strong as before
Hello everyone- I'm feeling a bit frustrated this morning. I've been in treatment for almost three months and most of my OCD themes have improved. However my fear of "going crazy" or spontaneously losing my mind still haunts me. I try not to reassure myself as often as possible and I've been doing exposures (probably not as often as I should) but this theme still persists. I guess im just feeling really impatient. Any advice?
Is anyone here on any medication (SSRI’s or Benzo’s) for your OCD and anxiety? Any good experience? Any bad experience? I’ve been trying really hard to stay away from SSRI’s but I also want to be myself again.
I’m thinking of making some kind of recording on my phone and when I go on my morning walk try listening to it. Do you just listen over and over? And how do you make sure you don’t ruminate? I guess I’m just looking for guidance cause not really sure how to do it or how it works.
Okay idk if this is ocd or not but I just keep replaying past events with this boy over and over again and he rejected me and i keep thinking of things as to why he possibly rejected me, and i was arrested 3 years ago for speeding and i convinced myself that somehow he found out which doesn’t make any sense because no one knows but i just keep coming up with scenarios. I am driving myself crazy
As the title says I think I'm very very close to the end of my timeline suffering these miserable thoughts although sure I could be wrong (hopefully not) I just keep thinking about how it will end whether it will be a massive rush of serotonin ot just a mundane "that's done moving on" everytime I feel better I usually get the serotonin rush but anyway just wanted to share this and hope that everyone who reads this has a good day and a successful recovery 😀
Anyone have any way to cope with OCD before college finals? I need help managing it so I can end the semester with good grades.
First day of my job today, Nervous about my OCD interfering. What should I do about it?
Thoughts are unbelievably weak this morning:)
I’m worried I am hopeless case. Has anyone ever had powerful delusions they believed in almost fully and gotten better? Like very bizarre ones that can’t even really be disproven. Like I’ve died and gone to hell. Any positive experiences with hospitals and meds are also appreciated especially as they relate to psychosis and delusions. Thanks
i experience panic disorder as well as OCD and agoraphobia. when im doing good, im doing really good, and work is honestly a safe and fun place for me to be. when im in an OCD funk, once i get to work i feel like i need to leave or something bad will happen, im thinking about the nearest exit, how i could make an excuse to leave, what i need to do to stay calm (which never actually makes me feel calm), etc. until im out of this funk, i need tips for being at work. i experience a lot of disassociation during this. usually i avoid places that ive gotten a panic attack (movie theatres, planes, hospitals), but now that ive had some at work its so hard to avoid quitting and never working again 😭 which is not what i want
Idk if this is because of OCD but I’ve currently started feeling very numb towards other people and I feel like I don’t know myself or who I am anymore. I feel like I have lost myself. I just want to go back in time a year before I got OCD when I was healthy or what to say. I’m only 13 years old and I feel like my life is over.
I wanted to ask if anyone else gets very intense nightmares associated with their fears? I have very graphic nightmares where I have to kill the ones I love to progress to the next level, or me and my family have to kill "fake" versions of my friends and extended family to survive. I also often dream that I'm cheating on my boyfriend, or about people pointing out that I love him less than he loves me. My dreams have always been very intense and vivid. I used to lucid dream a lot too. Still my dreams also used to be more frequently good, with amazing landscapes and fantasy stuff. But for a while now they are at best anxious and more often than not about death, loneliness or me being a bad girlfriend. I hope I can stop having these dreams, it ruins my mornings as I try to stop thinking about them.
i was ok now i am afraid
Despite today being up and down I feel my senses that OCD suppressed are slowly returning
After some time of not engaging with the thoughts I realize that yes it helps but It's slow although it's fine as long as they go away
It’s literally so annoying -_- like I wake up and I was ruminating in my dream or talking to someone about my obsessions.
For some reason during and after a shower my intrusive thoughts lose alot of power it's quite interesting and nice
I just want to feel real again. And everything around me
Today my level of OCD went from a 8/10 to a 4.5 right now (lower number means better) I hope and pray it will continue to decrease:)
I just feel like something is wrong and like I’m about to lose it
Recently I’ve been getting these intrusive thoughts that if I don’t get my ocd under control that In the future I’m going to become insane or psychotic I’m not really the type of person to do crazy things but the thought of it really scares me
I'm slightly better this morning still struggling but thankfully not as much
I am actually going through the realization process right now because I was dealing with really debilitating issues and my bf pointed out that it might be OCD. I have considered that I might have OCD for years but only vaguely and I never really believed it because I never associated the symptoms. I started going through a really debilitating period with existential anxiety, and basically one thought + reaction spiraled into weeks of slowly worsening symptoms. It was really tough to come forward about to my partner but he has really given me a safe space to express that and now with all the research I’ve been doing I do believe I know what’s wrong. It’s been tough to come to terms with because of how much time I spent pushing away this possibility but I understand now, and I’m hoping this community and this app can be a place for me to start improving.
I see a lot of people talking about it- what is it in terms of OCD?
Sometimes all you need is to just take a deep breath and calm down
I feel like I’ve been experiencing derealization way too often. It feels like I don’t even believe anything is real or like I’m dreaming.
Literally Because thoughts appeared in my dreams :(
So sorry for posting again but I’m curious If you miss 1 Dose or 2 of your anti depressants can that cause relapse of your OCD anxiety?
I still struggle with this. But I find questioning why, me having potentially hurt someone is so detrimental to how I live with myself. If I can hurt someone then I may. That's it really. Is it a fact of life that you have to never hurt someone. No. Otherwise it wouldn't be possible. Is it a fact of life that hurting someone makes you a lesser person. Makes you worthless. Makes you immoral. No. You do not need to earn your life. Youre already alive. There are no conditions to being alive. You need to accept. Acceptance doesn't mean you can't feel regretful. But that doesn't mean you have to emotionally abuse yourself. Stop having the belief that you must act perfectly and goodly all the time and that you musnt ever hurt someone. And stop having the belief that if you hurt someone, you must have a bad life. Those two things are not connected. You prefer to not hurt someone but as a human being you may not always achieve this goal. I don't care what the thing is. I don't care how taboo it is. You still have a right. Actually not even a right. But the ability to life a good life. It's hard accepting this. But you don't have to be perfect. And your life doesn't have to be perfect. And others don't have to be perfect. Stop having demands from these three things and things will feel easier.
Hey guys i know I’ve posted a bit now. But Can your body go into fight or flight without the thoughts coming first? Is that normal? Or is this an indication of another health problem like thyroid issues?
So I’ve been dealing with derealization recently and I’m torn between admitting myself in the hospital or trying to push through it and continue with normal life . I can engage in normal life activities but can’t escape the feeling of being disconnected from the outside world as if I’m living in a dream . The hospital has always been a safety blanket for me and I don’t want to continue to rely on it , it is usually my go to whenever I feel uncomfortable. Any advice? It is very hard to make a decision .
I think once I finally get a stable income- I’ll seek out therapy through NOCD because I want my life back and to reconnect with people again without feeling like i’ll hurt someone 🥹. Does anyone in the UK have a rough estimate on the costs at all?
I have harm ocd and existential OCD. Sometimes it feels like reality is just a perception which scares me, I’m terrified being trapped inside these feelings, these intrusive thoughts feel like a horrible movie I can’t escape from. Makes me question if I even know who I am. And that scares me anymore. Just when things started feeling better, then things started spiraling because of stress 😢😢
Title probably makes no sense but I feel that my dumb worries are soon to be over although I do hope for the best I think the thoughts may stick around a few more days or even weeks there stronh sure but that's okay I know I'll be well before too much longer
I’m just feeling really alone and stressed out right now. There’s a lot going on and I’m just trying to hold it together. I’ve stress eaten really bad today and now I’m very nauseated. I’m stressed and very overwhelmed emotionally. I just want to shut my brain off but I can’t. All of the things I normally to ignore in my head are just circling. I’m trying to talk myself down but I feel like that’s making it worse. I can’t even sit still and listen to musical normally. I can’t focus on tv. I wanna go to sleep, but I also wanna like go for a walk. Idk what to do with myself right now aside from crying in sudden bursts.
Anyone else feel like they will lose control if they don’t do a compulsion?😭 i don’t know why because I know I won’t, but it’s always the what ifs….i have my first therapy session on Tuesday. Really hoping ERP works. If anyone can please give me some tips to ease my anxiety right now.. ❤️🥺❤️
Throughout the last few weeks iv been up and down but mostly better seeing some improvement but I still have moments of misery that seem unstoppable like Michael Myers almost
So I feel like we’re most often told to obviously not engage with the rumination’s, but then we’re also told to accept our thoughts!! So I’m getting pretty confused, the two seem opposite.. any words welcomed. I’m hoping this isn’t my ocd trying to ‘figure something out’ haha <3
I am a female and I’m 26 going on 27 and I’m so afraid to age and get wrinkles. Even saying these things on this platform freaks me out. I know that aging is inevitable but I blame society, as always! I feel that if I age and get wrinkles I will become undesirable and no longer be attractive and my clock is ticking and I’m still single. Everyone around me is getting engaged, starting a family, and overall getting their lives together. Do I want these things? No, but the idea of having my life in order is something that I really crave. And I have no idea how to get there, or if there’s even a “there”. I’m not asking for reassurance because I obviously know we age, get old, and get wrinkles, but what I want to know is, am I the only one who thinks this way? And do you have your life together? In my mind having my life together is being financially independent and having a stable job and just knowing that I’ll be okay.
X as in times, I just didn’t have enough room lol.
Is there such a thing as fer of being bigoted towards a person or group of people
