My ocd is telling me I physically may not be able to do my exposures. And now I don't know what to do because I can't push myself to do it because I'm uncertain that i can do it. Any advice?
Has anyone found any positives at all with their ocd? I have: Stopped drinking alcohol Lost weight Earlier nights and sleeping better
Does anyone else feel like the reason they ruminate, Have OCD or overthink about intrusive thoughts is because when it is a thought that is violent, perverse, a possibility about one’s health declining or even questioning you’re sexuality is due to the fact that you just want to hold what you think in your mind accountable for what is presented?
i haven’t been on this app since august because i feel like it feeds into my compulsions but anyway, i’ve went from a change from harm to pocd which is crap but i was wondering if anyone thinks a child is pretty then is scared if they are creepy?
Not OCD related but wondering who has started to watch Christmas Movies
Why everyone’s OCD started really bothering them in college.. i think it’s interesting because a month before I was set to go to college mine started and I had it bad off and on in college.. but I did have like a year free of the crazy thoughts!! which was a blessing! Cus now i’m dealing with ROCD 😭
like you can leave me alone sometimes
Hello everyone..... I'm honesty so over this. I Haye the fact that my OCD theme is back and the anxiety hits super strong back to back to back and keeps going. I have been trying to stay off the internet and to not feed my ocd any more ideas, but it seems like evey where I trun, OCD uses evey chance it gets to make my anxiety spike more and more on after the other in a row. It was so bad I was crying my eyes out because these thoughts feel real and I hate them and I cried and cried until I couldn't anymore. I hate waking up now because I know what I'm getting myself into. I hate having to deal with my brain when I'm active. The only escape I have is sleep (95.5% of the time). I feel like im losing myself and I feel like im fighting to keep my identity safe from OCD. I'm tired, tearful, anxious, and stressed. Is so stressed to the point where I have physical pains in my back and develop headache. I want my life back and my sense of sanity back. I don't go on forums that much (reddit, quora, and google) Sometimes when I get numb from it all, I feel safer because u can't feel, and if I can't feel; I don't need to worry. Sleep is the only thing I look forward to because I can't even express my creativity( visual artists) without 4 or 5 intrusive thoughts following up.on each other along with intrusive feelings. I try and keep myself sane by playing bile games to re-directing my focus, but it works 50% of the time, which isn't bad, but from wverything I've stated above, it's not enough. I really Hate doing this because I know problems aren't as important, and people don't have time to stop and hear my thoughts and feelings, so I prefer to keep them to myself,; just so thay I don't burden or bother people with my issues when others have more issues than me. But I really feel broken and I feel.like my entire being is suffering because of it. TL;DR: my life is a living he'll I sleep Throught to cope, and I want to get rid of forums and ither things that feed my OCD to make it wores and throw things back in my face. Thank you to whoever had the patients to read this💙 Thank you so much... 💧🌧😞🌧💧
The past couple of days I’ve had a bad suicidal ocd flare up and during this flare up I notice myself thinking about my family of I did something to myself and my friends and it makes me so sick and every time I think about it I want to cry because I have such a beautiful life but my head is so loud with the same thing over and over how do any of you deal with these types of flare ups or if any of you deal with feelings of almost grieving something that hasn’t even happened
I don't know what to do anymore. All the distractions I used to use barely work anymore and the things I used to reassure myself don't work anymore either. Also, I had a thought today that felt so real that I can't help but wonder if it was. I can't enjoy the things I used to love anymore because they have somehow all become triggers. I don't know what to do anymore. This has only started about a month ago and it already feels like an eternity. I can't remember what it was like to feel normal anymore. It feels like these thoughts and feelings will never go away. I don't even know how they started in the first place.
I get that checking, researching and giving reassurance/doing compulsions makes it worse but why can't I find an answer? Before all this I've had multiple girlfriends, wanted a wife and kids in the near future and was happy with life but now it feels like I'm a completely different person (not for the best either) I miss my old self I miss how I use to feel about my girlfriend. If I accept the thoughts that necasserially doesn't mean the thoughts are true since if I have a thought I'm a billionaire it doesn't mean I am one but why is OCD making it feel like if I accept these thoughts that means I am gay or bi? It's so confusing I just want to be myself again.
I’m soooo terrified my ocd is already really bad while I’m pregnant I just can’t imagine how bad it will be after I have my baby I’m so scared I’m gonna be too mentally I’ll to take care of my 4 year old and my new born this is just so unfair this pregnancy is the worst 😭😭😭
So I’ve been feeling so weird these past couple days because I’ve kinda been out of my routine and I feel like I’m just not myself. And I feel like once I start feeling like this I’ll never get back to who I was a few days ago. And then I start getting all these random thoughts and I know I don’t actually agree with and it’s been hard.
UK and NHS are awful there just not enough people to deliver the service you get a short course of CBT, EDMR, Emotional Intensity and or your just told to go on drugs that makes you feel even worse. I have so much doubt in the mental health system in the U.K I'm seriously considering go private which will probably cost a fortune. I want to get couselling specialised in OCD does anyone know of anyone in the UK that is specialised?
Has anyone struggled with having fake fights in your head with people from your past? This happens to me often and doesn’t go away until I argue back and it feels “just right”.
I have this friend, we used to be best friends, hung out atleast three times a week and did everything together. However, we haven’t seen eachother in months now. We arranged that I’d stay the night tonight and I agreed in desperate hopes to grasp onto what little friendship we used to have. She’s different, we took the train with her friends and she acted like I literally didn’t exist while they were there. I just feel sad, but it’s be rude to just leave. What do I do? I feel sick to my stomach. I wish I never agreed to this. I wish I never forgot how she treated me like a ghost in front of her stupid boring friends.
My OCD is now more urges, anxiety and constantly making up fake scenarios to check more than thoughts.
To who ever who comes across this I want you to know that you are okay!! No matter what!!❤️❤️
i’m dealing with a really bad episode right now. my intrusive thoughts are distressing me to the point where i think i’m going say something terrible.
I’ve struggled with many different themes of OCD (it all started a year ago). I used techniques to help me get out of other OCD themes but today for the first time, I experienced my first real event ocd episode and felt like none of the techniques worked since this thing actually happened. I feel like I’m starting back again from square one and everything I’ve accomplished is gone. I haven’t felt this anxious and stuck in a very long time (I was not having any OCD episodes/triggers for weeks). This makes me feel like I will never recover and I will lose my mind. Has this happened to anyone else?
So i believe I’ve had OCD for a while now i just never did anything with it and thought it was overthinking/anxiety and my first session is in December. I’ve had many different themes of OCD and i don’t want it to have complete control of my life/feelings and thoughts anymore. Having one specific intrusive thought constantly is that normal? One that just doesn’t feel like you at all but you can’t stop thinking about it because it shouldn’t bother you that much. Sometimes i wake up in a complete panic and sweat and always feel the need to say it, say it and it will go away. I’ve read stuff on here where it says these are just compulsions but i try and see before my first session so i know what to say and what bothers me.
Hi has anyone been treated for ocd ptsd or anxiety with ketamine if so has it worked
Hi everyone I have a question does ocd make you do weird things like keep counting to six and if I don't make it across the street at six with the. Red light what ever I told myself bad will happen I'm even at the point where I stopped cleaning my apartment because I have to do it over and over until i feel like it's right and clean even tho it is it's making me sick what can I do
Does anyone notice if their OCD and anxiety/depression symptoms get worse after having caffeine or something sweet. I love coffee and I have a sweet tooth. I consume coffee almost regularly and I like to have a treat occasionally. But I feel like when I do, I feel more anxious and depressed. I know they can trigger the stuff… but I really don’t want to cut coffee and sweets out completely. Any suggestions?? ** Also, when I am having an OCD episode I completely avoid the stuff. But that’s also because I literally have no appetite.
has any felt that weed has helped lower their ocd and anxiety?
I woke up 3am from sleep paralysis. I'm used to having sleep paralysis for years, and I'm not afraid of it anymore. Suddenly, loads of intrusive thoughts came to my mind. It's so random. I've tried to think and do other things to forget it but the more I try, the more it came worse. I cannot sleep and I can't stop crying thinking how to stop these useless thoughts. I'm really afraid of what I may do trying to convince myself. I end up convincing myself to stay awake until a certain time I believe it's safe or my thoughts will not really happen. Now, it's beyond that time and I still cannot sleep and can't stop crying how to end this misery. I'm really sleepy but I can't help it, I can only cry and try to do things to distract myself from thinking. My thoughts are killing me ...
Hello, has anyone been admitted to the psych ward? How was your experience ?
im really bothered by how messy my flatmate is in our kitchen, it genuinely makes me so anxious and makes me cry when i see that they have left the kitchen in a mess (even putting a plate in the wrong place bothers me) any tips on how to cope?
Was at the brink of giving up on something really hard I was working hard. because I felt like I took two steps back on progress. But don’t let a condition define who you are and don’t let time be wasted on stupid unwanted thoughts/ruminations. Get out there and smash it what ever is your demon your facing right now! I believe in you and giving up is not an answer. Just another stupid unwanted thought in the way, betterthings coming behind it:)
feeling the need to seek reassurance from a friend but posting on here instead because I know if I do it will only feed my ocd
Hi! Does anyone here have a combination of these going on? I'm curious about your experience. As I learn about myself and my OCD, I'm also discovering that I've struggled with executive function for a long time. And I want to look at this now. Curious about your experience. Have a good Monday!
I feel like I have like a hundred intrusive thoughts a day. Mostly regarding my relationship but some not. Anyone else?
I'm so excausted. I sleep really fast. But when I sleep I wake up very early and I can't sleep further then. It's so hard to life with this disorder.
I wanted to share this guy that seems to be very underated and helped me a lot during my relapse. He has videos about most of the subtypes of ocd. I specifically like his positive attitude. https://youtube.com/@ocdandanxiety
Just wondering how people deal with being gaslit. It drives me nuts sometimes that i cant confront the person gaslighting me because the its like i am reacting as a compulsion or appear to control the narrative. I am getting better at radical acceptance, but when it affects certain social dynamics with other parties it almost feels like being scapegoated and helplessness. Sigh.
So I almost had an intrusive thought when I was slowly waking up so I hurry up and did a compulsion and woke myself up faster to avoid the thought anyways I laid here and try to figure it out and like test myself but I realize that by me doing that I made it worst and the intrusive thoughts happened now and more than once I always just have to figure it out but I just realized today that uncertainty is actually okay and an escape from more damage and pain so I’m kinda proud of myself because even though I did a Compulsion and try to figure it out I came to the conclusion finally that I don’t have to do that all that is going to do is make it worst 😮💨
Hello everyone!! I'm hear today to tell you about how bad my intrusive thoughts are and how my compulsions are difficult to let go of. As a female with OCD, I have intrusive thoughts about the common things, SO, Contamination, and many other things. I also have intrusive thoughts about having/wanting kids. I don't want them, and I have my reasons for not wanting to have them as well. I have intrusive thoughts and feelings that make it feel so real and it sucks because a lot of us who have OCD (the ones who might relate to what I'm about to say), will have these intrusive thoughts and feelings, and ee have these doubts about ourselves and of values because of this ego-dystonic disorder. It's hard to keep fighting your mind with eeasosn when you know it wont listen, but most people do it to give them a sense of control and feelings of reassurance. The worst part about OCD for me, are the intrusive feelings. The thoughts are things I kinda got a handle on depending on the theme, but the feelings?? Oh my goodness they are so real it feels like you want to do the thing you don't want to do, ong with the URGE to do it; makes it 10x worse. I just wanted to share what I'm going throught today because I was getting better with my other theme (SO-OCD) and I have been feeling a little better, untill last night and this morning made me have intrusive thoughts again Also, tell.me if you can't relate!! I would love to hear others' experiences 💖✨️💫
Has anyone taken this with ocd. I took it last night to help me sleep and today I feel numb to the thoughts. Well I’m not even having thoughts to be honest at the moment. But I’m feeling so unscared by the thought of being gay. I’m hoping it’s this tablet.
I don’t know what I’m doing. Usually I spent most of the time making more creative stories and my screenplays but because my OCD and anxiety worsened over the past two years, I had to take a mental break from it. Now I’m back doing therapy, I’m trying to get back into the habit. But I still feel like I don’t know how to properly write and brainstorm good ideas.
I’ve been doing really well but had a significant time off work and saw family which can be hard sometimes but overall good with compulsions I noticed the past two days tho my intrusive thoughts have been trying to get me hooked by saying “you might have made your nieces uncomfortable” and it would give me anxiety and I started following the thought trying to find certainty in it then I recognized it was OCD trying to come back. So I’m trying to tell on it by making this post. Also I wrote down my response prevention things. I think doing well and not giving it attention is making it pop up in other ways like wack a mole. My anxiety has decreased about it but it’s still just uncomfortable.
Doctor is tweaking medications. She took me completely off my abilify and left me at 100MG LUVOX. I was supposed to replace the abilify with Topomax but I haven’t had to start on it because the pharmacy has been out for a week. I use Ativan to help sleep and intrusive thoughts, but I’m out of that as well. Just feels like the pharmacy let me down and I’m about to check myself into a hospital. I don’t want to be a burden to my loved ones though. I don’t know what to do, I have the abilify here I could try that I was just yanked off of, I have Valium, which does not work for me, and it’s not like I can just call a therapist up and discuss how I’m feeling. My main themes are harm, and contamination. This medication is not right at all.
i have been on citalopram 20mg for a couple of years but i feel i need something stronger my friend prescribed me 30mg i explained i need something for my ocd, does citalopram help for ocd?
Overeating because of ocd?
Does anyone else feel like their OCD gets worse after using porn/masturbating. Before my porn started becoming addictive and doing it daily my OCD was never this servere. I feel like it has created more sexual thoughts, lowered my self esteem and started my hocd in the first place and whenever I take a break from it my OCD is nowhere near as servere.
Hello everyone! So I just want to know something that has been on my mind and was making me feel a little scared lately. As you can see, I have OCD. I remember before finding this out, I was worried about having other disorders or mental illness. I have heard stories about people having OCD alongside another disorder. Now I can't stop thinking about it. How do you know if you only have OCD or have something else with it??? An answer would be appreciated!!! 💫✨️💙✨️💫
This summer I decided to go off of Lexapro, my obsessions were very manageable while on it. I am now in a period where my obsessions are taking over my life and are constantly happening, like I’ll get over one and then a new one will pop up within hours. What sucks is I’m supposed to be in a happy place, I just got engaged, I’m graduating college and about to start grad school. I’m super excited about all of that but I feel myself becoming depressed again from my ocd. Could all of these life changes be fueling my ocd? I don’t want my ocd to overshadow all of the good things going on in my life. This freaking sucks
Does anyone else feel like the don't react appropriately to certain stuff, which then cause you to force yourself to have the "appropriate reaction" and then you realise that since you had to force that appropriate reaction, that means your actually the person you feel like you are? The smallest things trigger my thoughts now, I've just started completely avoiding them.
I had such a good day today, and I don’t even know why. For days everyday was super hard for me. My ocd was kicking my butt. The other day I final broke down and cried. But the day after that (yesterday) I still felt like trash, but I went out anyway. I went out today also and all of a sudden I feel okay. I mean I am not perfect of course but I feel sort on top of things and my thoughts were not dragging me down.I could actually enjoy it. It’s not like I did anything different, I literally went out yesterday so it could not have been that. Honestly I don’t know. The unpredictability is kind of scary to me. I don’t want to go back to feeling like crap again and sometimes I feel like I have no control. I am not sure what hat I did different.
Anyone know where I can find a support group? NOCD support groups are only offered to those in therapy with them but I’m already in therapy somewhere else. I would love to not feel so alone but I can’t find any ocd groups around me
I feel so distant to my girlfriend, I use to think she was the most beautiful girl in the world now I don't feel anything its horrible. The same gender suddenly looks good as well which confuses me so much because before all this I found only the opposite sex attractive. I'm so confused I just want to be certain of who I am again, I wanna be able to smile again.
does anyone have this,when you experiencing an intrusive though and u feel a parts of ur body without any control ?
I am in uni. I can't stop obsessing over my course work. I have to some maths equations and I keep thinking I done them wrong so I gone over them 5 times today because I keep thinking I did it wrong. It happens with all my assignments. Just can't stop thinking about it.
I have been off for thanksgiving and that is particularly difficult for me because I have a lot of time that is not preoccupied. Yesterday I laid in the bath for 9+ hours and cycled/ruminated/checked. I have my first therapy apt. tomorrow and I’m very anxious. Oddly though, today I feel “blank” or “empty”. My mind is usually chattering, but my mind is zombified or something today. I don’t feel motivated for anything, my intrusive thoughts are even bothering me as much, but I feel like I’m not here. Idk how to explain it, is this a common feeling?
i dont even know how to explain my thoughts. I cant cry anymore, i feel like god has punished me for my past because when i was little i did some bad stuff (not like that ifyk) but like now im afraid if these thoughts are true. im not afraid of them anymore. Im believing that it isnt ocd anymore. This theme has come back for the 3rd time now and im less anxious about the thoughts themselves. The feelign of not being able to tell anyone about these thoughts is making me sad. I cant even enjoy my favorite cartoon show anymore. Please help me i feel like its not ocd and that im actually a p* Symptoms of p* can start at age 13 and because of my past im afraid i have a higher risk, im afraid im one
How many times can you do ERP a day I’ve been diagnosed OCD so I know it’s OCD I know what compulsions to avoid so is it safe to do ERP by myself
Is it normal to obsess over being scared that people are trying to attack you or follow you but I know it’s not true but at the same time I keep telling myself what if!? Is this my OCD or am I really just going mentally insane can someone please help me it’s starting to interfere with my daily life I don’t even wanna leave my house now 😭😭
I’ve had intrusive thoughts about molesting my children lately,but today I had a real memory pop up from when I was a little kid which I’m not sure was just a normal kid thing,anyways then it jumped from there to “proof I must have done something to my kids,this is reassurance seeking but I feel like I’m gonna go crazy
Y’all, i’ve been triggered.. sometimes I don’t feel like being bothered with my bf and it sucks, i’ve had one great month where my ocd didn’t bother me.. and then me and my sister ex bf was arguing and he made this comment like “you don’t even like your bf” and i’ve been sad ever sense cus he really threw what i’ve been dealing with in my face
I dont wanna be like this forever i wanna go back to normal how do i make this go away??
Hi everyone! Happy Holidays! I was wondering if anybody else has similar feelings during holidays… So I’ve been having a hard time with Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years Etc since my mother has passed away. Since she has been gone, I now think about all of the family members who I don’t speak with, have fallen apart with, who were never there in the first place, and then also those who have cut me off due to me being close with a family member they did not like (mom). None of these scenarios had ever bothered me when my mom was around because she filled the voids of all of those absent people. I find myself analyzing my last encounters with those family members and am putting constant blame on myself for them not getting very far or for the fact that a relationship was never formed until much more later on in my life followed by us falling apart. Then I have resentment regarding those who only attempted having a relationship with me once she had passed away, but never before. I also have resentment towards some things they have said to me that I took personal & had every right to. It replays in my head. Also, even the very few that I can speak with, I find myself blocking them via phone or disappearing because I am afraid of rejection or them saying something that indicates how non important I am to them. I understand that me running away isn’t going to give me the answers I need or the potential bonds I can have. So overall I was just wondering if anybody else struggles with these feelings, have family issues, and do these negative feelings of abandonment occur especially during holidays for you? I feel terribly alone during holidays and something as simple as overhearing a co-worker talk about holiday plans can really ruin my day. I wish I could be happy around these times like I used to be. If anyone can relate to me or has feelings of loneliness sometimes, feel free to chat with me and maybe we can help each other out! Thank you!
hello sweet souls! I hope you have had some good moments in your day. I was wondering if anyone on here is into poetry as well? I’d love sharing poems or talking about writing. I’ve also got lots of poems about my experience with ocd 💫
my ocd randomly came back today and making me doubt about a past event and now i have anxiety what can i do
Im scared i wont get back to normal. i think im going through false attraction right now?? what do i do is this real? am i going to be stuck like this forever? its not what i want its like all of a sudden i have lost my regular attraction?! I cant relax at all i am literally isolating myself from everyone and as i type this i fear that its what i want?? please help me what is this?
it's making me question a past event even though i know but my ocd is making me think i don't and constantly checking back from the memory 😣
Every time I see pictures or videos I get incredibly sad and now I feel stuck in bed. I feel like my brain has been changed forever :( sorry sad post I know
nothing im doing for reducing anxiety and stuff is working. What can i do? are my fears real and thats why i cant feel anxiety
I have been professionally diagnosed by a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with GAD, OCD and PTSD. But I’m always second guessing my diagnoses. I’m always feeling like something more complex and deep is going on with me. I know what the doctor said but in my mind, I’m losing touch with reality. I don’t know what’s real anymore.
Idk how I feel anymore it’s like I just feel numb when thoughts come to me now. I’m very hyper aware of the sensations in my body and making sure I don’t like my thoughts. But now it feels like I want them to come true. Like I like them? I keep telling myself I don’t but idk?? I just stay away from everyone now and I can’t stay away from my phone at all. It’s like I just stopped caring about myself and my thoughts like I’m just like “whatever”
I'm a person who experiences Deja Vu frequently as I just did and still kind of am...but with OCD and anxiety issues, deja vu sometimes gives me the anxiety and the creeps haha. Anyone else ever get a little uncomfortable when experiencing Deja Vu?
At some point, when my thoughts were really bad I started to feel like I was "tainted" or a contamination. I didn't want to touch anything because I felt so disgusting. While that isn't as bad as it was before, I still cannot bring myself to look in the mirror. I feel too disgusted at myself. Had anyone else felt that way?
Every night when I’m in bed every single type of intrusive thought that I usually have during the day comes at once and switches to another distressing thought, one after another. My main fear right now is about the afterlife and if it exists or doesn’t and just death in general. These thoughts keep me up all night, how do I find sleep. What should I think of to help me feel more relaxed?
I’m scared I’m turning into a pe*o. It said that symptoms of p*do disorder can start at ages 13. Now I feel weird every time I’m near a child. I would never hurt someone like that. It’s like my brain is convincing me and I’m starting to believe it. Should I kill myself? Or ask my parents to drive me to a police station?? It feels like I want to be one or I’m accepting I’m one. Please help
How can I feel extremely guilty about something I’m not even sure I did….. I think I might have had the thought and tired to justify it and maybe I fantasized about how it would be if I actually gave into it…..but now I can’t even tell what’s real from what isn’t…..I hate false memories.
Does OCD ever get so intense for you that it just feels like everything else is out of reach? Sometimes, when I've ruminated for days on end, it becomes very difficult for me to work through it with ERP. My thinking becomes very extreme, and I begin to feel trapped or stuck where I am. Like I have to either confess or do some crazy thing for OCD to go away. I know that ERP is the answer, but it can be so hard sometimes. And it can feel so discouraging when I'm doing well with it one week and struggling the next.
The thought of having an intrusive thought becomes a fear inducing intrusive thought. I fear the potential fear I may have in the future and that becomes a fear in that moment. Make sense? Because when I read it sounds like the ramblings of an insane man.
Can ocd make you feel like you want your thoughts? I’m literally going crazy I’ve been taking quizzes all night making sure it’s ocd and not a p*do disorder. I was researching on quora and it said early symptoms of this p* disorder can start at age 13 I’m so scared why if I’m actually a p* ? The thoughts I’m having don’t scare me anymore??? I’ve been looking on the dsm and reading about it also fearing I’m doing something bad while I’m asleep so I can’t sleep now. Sorry this is all over the place pls help
Hi everyone :( I’ve been worrying about whether or not a certain conversation took place or if I had said something bad or something I shouldn’t have. I had this worry about saying something bad that could leave someone else to think of me in a negative way. I then was looking back at any conversation/ interactions that I could remember and I started to feel like I said this certain thing that I’m worried about. I can picture myself saying it and it’s kinda fuzzy. I’m so worried because this would be a very terrible thing. :( how does any one else experience this? I’m having a hard time seeing if this didn’t happen why would my brain pull this out of nowhere? :( thank you to anyone who took the time to read
It's ruining my relationship and I'm losing attraction to the opposite sex and keep getting false attraction and urges to check all the time it's horrible. Just want to return to my life before all this without worrying without having my identity lost.
My question is for those that have dealt with OCD for quite some time. I am in my mid 20s and some days are better whilst others are so debilitating that all I can do is curl up in a corner to escape everything. Does it ever actually get better? How do therapists with OCD deal with and cope with it if it doesn’t actually get better?
If you talk to someone about your ocd fears and anxiety and they say “everything will be okay” is that reassurance? Or is reassurance more like “that will never happen” or “you’re a good person”
