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- "Pure" OCD
- Pedophilic Obsessions OCD
Had a POCD dream last night... it’s making me feel like I’m not anxious about it... 😭😭😭
Had a POCD dream last night... it’s making me feel like I’m not anxious about it... 😭😭😭
I’ve come a long way with my recovery, but when I reflect or reminisce where I used to be I get uncomfortable. I don’t want to back to that place. Anyone that is in recovery, what helps or helped ya’ll when your OCD made you feel the need to look back? Do you think reflection is necessary or do you think moving on means you don’t need to reflect?
Does anyone else have compulsions where they are constantly looking for signs or their mind says like “if this happens then everything is okay” like I find myself saying “if I see a green car then everything is okay” and then if I don’t see one I get very anxious and think it’s a sign everything is not okay. I also find myself looking for signs it’s just OCD
So I’ve been struggling a lot for the past 7 months with what I think to be a form of pure ocd. I have only tried counseling and that was maybe like once every 3 weeks. I was wanting to take the next step and get some real specialized help so I wanted to try online therapy. Does anyone know what my next step will be on this app?
Any ideas for a mental reset/sick day??? Having one today...
Hi everyone! I could use some advice... I've been struggling with my mental health for many years, and about a year ago I started to realize that I might have some form of pure O. My main theme right now is ROCD and it's been extremely trying. I went back to a clinic I've been to before and asked to start therapy again to help with this. I've been going once a week for a little while now and I don't really feel like I'm being understood. With my pother themes, they are will to all that OCD, but this one for some reason they don't want to label it the same. Today I was talking to my therapist about some of my thoughts and she kept asking me if there could be some truth to the thoughts and if they could be legit doubts. Suffice it to say that it was quite triggering. I've been trying to be clear about what I think it is from the start, but no one at the clinic seems to be familiar with ROCD. I went home with extreme anxiety and feeling kind of depressed. So my question is: what should I do? Should I stop seeing my therapist? She's been quite helpful with aspects of my mental health such as high stress and GAD. But I always feel very anxious about going there because I don't feel like I'm being understood and I'm worried she'll trigger me. If I stop seeing her, I'm not sure I can find another therapist since the queues here are very long and doubt I'll find someone who understands this better without paying a lot of money. Also, if I stop going, how do I explain that to my boyfriend? I don't tell him about the ROCD since I think it will just cause us both a lot of hurt. I'm sorry for my long post and I'm grateful for any advice!
I cant even look at an attractive person anymore without the word “r*pe” popping into my head or thinking im gonna do something violent to them now, its so disgusting and terrifying. Idk why this is happening to me. I just want to think regular again.
I'm so tired of intrusive urges😖 It's the worst part for me, because my urge is something that other people (not everyone, some people think it's gross too) like to do, that's why I doubt every time😭
how do you know if you want the thoughts??? i’m so confused and anxious:((
When I was with a friend I did something, not to them, but im hyperfixated on it. It was by accident but it’s still ruminating in my mind. First thing I thought of waking up and I feel queasy. I’m trying to convince myself they didn’t notice at the time
I have ocd and have known this for half my life. But recently my husband told me that whenever he sees a bump like in grown hair type of bump, or gets a certain pain, that it will lead him to think it may be cancer or something serious , which then leads to him thinking what if he leaves me and his kids behind because of dying young. It sounds too me like it could be some ocd but idk. And it only happens when he thinks he has an illness. Could this be ocd for him too?
Does anyone have to say things a certain way? I will literally hold my breath so it’ll sync to the words I say IN MY HEAD, and repeat it until it’s “right”
I Have never seen a therapist for my undiagnosed ocd but i do know i have it.Not only does ocd run in my family i also have intrusive thoughts and compulsions i dont want to tell my parents that i would like to see a therapist. Any advice?
Does anyone get sexually thoughts and then feel like you like the thought? Almost like an intrusive desire? It is hard to describe. These symptoms are a bit scarier for me although I’m trying to manage them with ERP. Just wondering if this is common with OCD (I’ll only ask once, I promise!)
Meet with my medication prescriber tomorrow . Currently taking buspar and propranolol . Thinking I might need something to add to this … what are you guys taking for ocd? What works ?
I’m literally afraid to take this medication. It’s sitting right beside me on my nightstand 😔
Anyone have ideas for ERP towards Death ? I’m gonna write a story about what scares me when it comes to death , so I write about dying old or being killed I’m not sure
Anyone get scared over grouinal responses?? I’ll just be watching an normal video and then all of a sudden it will just happen and I will spend the next hour trying to figure out if it was real
I’m scared about how these thoughts have become so real. I am starting to think I’m in denial and it’s a matter of time til I have to break up with my boyfriend. This is so hard but I’m trying to keep compassion toward myself. He keeps being the sweet, kind soul he always is and it makes me feel so terrible and guilty. I just want to know I like boys even a little bit so that I can stay with him. Whenever I want to enjoy the moment with him I get the reminder that I like girls so I can never really enjoy the moment. I have no feeling of excitement or anything and I just know I want to let myself be happy with him but there’s always something. Can anyone give me advice on what to do when the thoughts are present during a good moment or when I don’t feel anything/ feel disconnected. Or any advice at all. I don’t want to like girls it’ll change everything for me, my whole life will be completely turned around and I don’t want that.
I haven’t had problems with my Harm OCD for a long long time now, but suddenly its become awful. I haven’t been so scared in years, I feel like I can’t leave my room or else I’ll lose control or something
I have another session tommorow, I dont know what to tell the therapist, and most times during sessions I forget what i want to tell him, ill be planning the whole week about what to talk and when the time comes I blank out or the thoughts seem like they arent important enough. Can someone see my last post plz
I am feeling alone as I have severe Rocd and feel so locked in my mind and constant ruminations. I believe that having this can sometimes feel so lonely... In addition I live in a city with my husband and baby but it's my husband's hometown and I don't have any friends here or social life and have started feeling really weird. I can't find any solutions considering the COVID-19 pandemic that has isolated us all in some ways...I have considered exercising but I like outdoor activities and now it's Winter so I am not that fun of running in the cold etc... Yeap these days feel.really lonely having Ocd and not having productive things to do.
hi, this might be weird to hear for some of you, but I will say it anyways. In the real world I would be too ashamed to tell this to anyone but here I am anonymous so I can say whatever and won't get embarassed for it. I never ever went to a therapist but I think these symptoms may be of OCD. I have a thing in my head where as it tells me that I have 2 identities. One of them is better (the one from the past when I was a kid and everything seemed good and I wqs happy I had a girlfriend etc.) and the other is like something really evil like a demon of some sort. And I can switch between those identities by switching my google accounts on my phone (gmail, youtube, also discord). Now this may or may not be the weirdest thing you ever heard but it is what I have and I did not choose to have it and if anyone knows of a way how to get rid of it please tell me. Ty either way<3
I think I am having an existential crisis and religious crisis too. I dont know what to do and what to believe anymore. My brain is hurting a lot. I need help. I just want to forget that I exist. I dont want to keep going on.
Do you ever feel confused or disconnected? What do you to cope?
I just want to live my life without obsessing over Death like I used to and only think about Death when I wanted to not all the time
Ever since I’ve gotten my first prescription for luvox my intrusive thoughts have been almost non existent. Wtf!
i always can’t help like i’ve said the wrong thing. i always feel like a villain and a bad person. i over analyse everything anyone’s said to me and fear that i’ve upset them all the time. it makes me reluctant to even try and talk to people because no matter if i’m nice or helpful it’s so tiring just feeling like i’m awful but i don’t want to ask if i’ve upset them because i’d feel like i’m being annoying. i’m just becoming so unwilling to chat with my friends because i can’t take it anymore, i can’t take feeling like i’m evil
I was fine for a whole week but it suddenly relapsed, not as strong as before but still painful. The back of my throat gets so tight whenever i react negatively to these ego dystonic thoughts. It really sucks, so much that i get really jealous of mentally healthy people despite trying my best to be positive.
Today I am having tbis numbness and tiredness feeling even if I don't get intrusive thoughts so much. I just feel negative and down in a state where I don't care about anything and have little energy. Can Ocd make you feel so tired and not caring for things??I just want to lay in bed and stay there doing nothing...
I have developed an alcohol problem over this pandemic (probably always was a problem since I started partying in college years ago). I’m on naltrexone to curb my cravings but I’m also on Wellbutrin, lexapro, and Ativan as needed. The doc said not drinking will let us know if the meds are really working. Naltrexone has worked so far I’m not drinking much, but I still find myself reaching for wine a few times a week and I can’t help it. My OCD depression thoughts are too much. I’m so sad. Deeply deeply sad.
If you are trying to cure ocd, you must learn mindfullness and for that i recommend you read full catastrophe living or read book by sally Winston
I was at the hang out with my boyfriend and some of our friends. I met this girl there and I kept trying to see if I was attracted to her because I wanted to know. Later on my other friend, the girl I just met and I went to watch the stars for like 5 minutes and I had to lay next to the girl I just met. I was saying something about a star and she looked at me and I am worried I was attracted to that and that I like girls. I keep trying to see if I felt anything but I just know in the moment I was freaking out and hoping I wasn’t feeling any attraction. My thoughts are going crazy and are so overwhelming rn. I don’t want to feel attracted to that girl. I honestly didn’t even care for her personality I’m just scared I liked that she looked at me when we were watching the stars. I’m trying so hard to just agree with my thoughts and let them be there. It’s just driving me insane. Any advice??? I haven’t been able to enjoy my time with my bf because I keep getting these thoughts and they make me feel guilty and awful.
I had a few bad weeks and didn't think I could pull out of it but I have been able to manage it and function. It's funny when you're able to just dismiss the thoughts and not let it cause your distress. I also have been doing my erp everyday!
I've been kinda struggling recently and I feel like I need to tell my mom cuz I want her to know but now my ocd is telling me if I don't tell her, my thoughts will be real and things will get worse, so now I'm not sure if it's a compulsion and that's no fun and I don't know why to do really haha
It’s so weird before Death OCD /Existential OCD I had so many different themes, the difference was with , HOCD , POCD Harm Ocd is that those themes I got a hand on and have a few weeks of peace before it return but this one I just can’t get a grip on maybe because it’s inevitable or. Because afterlife is uncertain but I really dunno what to do to shake this? I feel like I’m not gonna live a happy life anyway if I’m constantly thinking about Death
Hey guys. Long time since I’ve been here. I was doing ok but my psych suddenly retired. Does this app treat people in Australia? I’m in NSW and severely struggling. Lost my job last month which adds to the stress Thanks
I feel like shit today , I feel like what’s the point of life , if we are here and then we are gone later on , Time flys way to fast , I feel like I’m just wasting days
I’ve been having this weird obsession about losing my identity for so long. I just feel lost now and scared of being delusional but I just can get out of my head.
Any one ever get a strong intrusive thought that causes tremendous anxiety?
Anyone else project onto people they deem worse than themself and then take on the guilt when that person gets called out
Anyone here who struggles with magical thinking/ emotional contamination? do you feel like EVERY TIME youre about to buy something you want or that is important to you, inteusive thoughts/feelings/images come ?
Disclaimer: This is part venting and part reassurance seeking, I don’t care anymore. OCD, if I even have it, is going to end up ruining my future. I have a job that I start on Tuesday but now I’m doubting everything and afraid that I’ll screw up. I keep getting horrible images that I don’t like, and thoughts and the what if’s and I can’t help but do compulsions. I can’t even sit here and do my homework because my mind is obsessing and worrying about my future, about these thoughts, and with this constant exhaustion. These thoughts, these images, all of it make me feel sick to my stomach or whatever that weird, horrible feeling is in my stomach that I only experience when I have one of my themes creep up on me. Then I associate, even if it sounds stupid and irrational, that if I don’t take my medication: Zoloft and ibuprofen then what if I go crazy or something, which is dumb because its medication for my anxiety and intrusive thoughts. Then I talk to myself (yes, I know it sounds crazy), like I try to reason with myself that I’m not what I fear or if like I’m having a conversation with myself. I also spend a lot of time day dreaming. Im just tired and scared. Rant over.
Your prayer requests. Would love to pray for anyone who requests tonight until I go to bed. Let me know what I am praying for.
The anxiety is so impairing, how can i get rid of it?
Is it just me who has literal panic attacks if they feel like they have done something rude.💀my friend put a red flags thing on her Instagram and I said that one of hers is that she secretly judges everyone l. And I had a panic attack straight after because i feel like that’s really horrible. When I was typing it I thought I was funny but now I feel like it was a bitchy thing to say and I feel like she I gonna talk s**t about me to everyone and hate me🤷🏻♀️
Fear of Changing Identity Hi everyone! I’ve dealt w sexual orientation ocd as a bi woman on n off for about 2 years. Even though I have been trying to drop labels, etc. I saw a post about someone w this theme saying they realized their obsessions were true and real. This, in combo w the backdoor spike I have AND feeding into a compulsion after reading the “Am I A Lesbian” Masterdoc I feel as though this time is different than all the other bouts w OCD and that I really have changed? (Thoughts like: it’s real, you know it’s dif, etc) Anybody experience this as well, any advice would be fantastic if anybody has! :)
I hate ocd so much. Why me. All I want to do is be happy but I can't be happy. I want to live and I hate that when it gets hard I get more of the suicidal intrusive thoughts and I don't like it cuz I wanna live. Everything feels okay but not okay and just different and ik
Religious OCD. How do you deal with when you feel/know you mean the intrusive/compulsive thoughts? I feel like I have some normal doubt but unless I actively suppress the thoughts, they can sometimes/often come out through *partially* compulsive thoughts
Is there a way to stop Obsessing over Death and just live your life without these thoughts like im only 35 I shouldn’t be obsessing over this
Can anyone provide advice on how to prevent mental compulsions..? I have done erp before and I try so hard to allow the obsession (false memories) to be in my mind without engaging in mental compulsions, but the compulsions come so automatically now. I feel it is keeping me from moving forward. Anyone else experiencing this?
Anyone else have Dermatophagia? I wish I could find someone who has my problems
I just had a dream that felt so real, I dreamt that when you die you get Reborn and get to live another life all over Again and do things differently and see what path it takes you , do you go the same way sometimes to keepthe same friends or choose differently wether this is really what happens we will never know but it did make me feel better
Im so scared of being disliked.
Hi everybody! EPR didn't work for me in the past and I figured out by myself how to "survive" everyday. Now and because of the pandemic I must work at home and I live alone, which means I am totally isolated and my symptoms are now bigger and bigger... I have been feeding the monster without knowing it. Because I don't have many triggers in my everyday routine, thoughts from the past come to my mind and bother me. I feel them so real and threatening. What can I do to recognise that they are not real, that they cannot hurt me now?Any advise? Thank u and sorry for my English, I write from Spain.
Guilt and shame eat me alive. I wish I could just live in the present and stop feeling hopeless. I’m so harsh on myself like “since I’ve done _____, I can’t have a good life or don’t deserve one”. Yet if someone came to me with the same thing for some advice I would tell them to stop being so hard on themselves. Why are we always the hardest on ourselves?
I have to go to school on this Monday and I'm scared that I can't do it. There a lot of triggers in this place (people's talk, some people, etc...) I'm so exhausted😩 This holidays were a nightmare. Previous were too. Because of intrusive thoughts, of course. I wish I could live a happy live :(
just started 2mg abilify in addition to the 40mg of celexa i've been on for a while. anyone else on a similar combination? has it been helpful? also was in CBT for a year and starting ERP soon
how do i stop feeling so completely evil. no matter what i do my mind just screams at me for being manipulative and a bad person even when like deep down i know it’s not true. i try so hard to be kind and i feel horrible that i only see myself as evil.
This is how I feel 😣 I can't really express it with words so I've just drew it.
I hate that when I’m in a low mood my brain can be so easily convinced. I have been struggling with pocd and in turn I don’t trust anyone around me. I feel like everyone could be a ped. I have two kids and I have been doing really good with dealing but now it’s turning into not trusting my husband. We have two young daughters (4&5) and my husband fell asleep with them on the couch last night and for some reason I keep getting scared that he could’ve done something to them. I should also mention this happened to me as a toddler so I have no trust in anyone it’s making me so sad I can’t enjoy/trust anything anymore
Anyone else have rOCD specifically around their partner cheating on them, or thinking they’re not really who you think they are? I always think little things could be a big sign I’m missing that he’s a liar and I’m just brushing it off :(
I keep getting random thoughts when I wake up in the morning. I try to go back to sleep but the random thoughts persists and I’m not sure if I’m daydreaming or half asleep. I’m worried I’m losing it. I also had experiences last year that I just want to forget. I’m going through depression and anxiety. However, in the afternoon and evening, my mind is not having all these worries. I’m on Zoloft 100mg.
How do y'all cope with short-term memory without being compulsive, especially when OCD makes you not want to do anything you should be doing.
i haven't really been feeling well lately, (caught a cold) and i was just feeling really tired this morning, so i decided to call out from work today. but now i feel bad and ive been trying not to think or ruminate about it. it's really hard 😔
How do you deal with contradicting instructions from the same authority figure? They probably don't mean everything literally, but how I interpret their probable meaning changes a lot
This is not ocd related but does anyones’s emotional state change very quickly like one minute I won’t feel anything and the next I’ll have waves of anxiety and start crying, basically experiencing emotions very intensely and then just numbness. I can’t diagnose myself but any ideas of what this might be?
yesterday i decided to try Paxil for OCD and anxiety.. the reason i have taken so long to try this is because of the insomnia. on night one i didn't sleep. I am wanting to know of people have managed to push through the insomnia side effects or if continuing natural is better for someone struggling with sleep.
i can’t figure out if i like or dislike my thoughts. does anyone else feel like this ? it’s making me so anxious :(
Ok this might sound weird but, Does anybody else’s OCD ruin funny jokes or is it just me? Example: Seeing or hearing a joke for the first time and laughing at it but then something happens when you see it/hear it again and you don’t get the same feeling from it so you keep going back to it to try to remember how it felt the first time but it just ends up looking/sounding different to a point where it might not even be funny anymore. Idk, i know it sounds crazy. It might be just me
Is it part of OCD to think everyone hates you? I just started this new job and I’m making new friends, but I am constantly thinking/nervous I am saying or doing the wrong thing. I feel like everyone hates me even though they probably don’t I’m so incredibly paranoid. If people ignore me or something it makes me want to literally cry I’m so sensitive. I want people to like me so badly…
So much hard proof everywhere I look. Just feels like Im forcing myself to be someone Im not. When ocd first began I used to make scenarios iny head where I was fully recovered and giving advice and hope to people lol how the tables have turned im ending up like one of those crazy hocd stories and cant do shit about it.
Why do I always fear that I’ve said something out loud that I know I didn’t? Idk why this is… I’m so over the anxiety! Just overwhelming at this point! The anxiety of someone knowing your intrusive thoughts is just scary especially when they’re taboo. I can’t deal anymore ☹️☹️☹️
Anyone on here have BDD? Is this considered to be part of OCD?
Hello everyone! I recently came off my ocd meds (sertraline) due to a drug interaction with echinacea, and I have been on meds for over 20 years and my family doesn’t want me to get back in my meds because they say God will heal me but I’m struggling so hard!!! My psych doctor said I could try n- acetyl cysteine and I was wondering if anyone has tried this and did it help with their OCD? I’d really appreciate any input! 😊 Thank you in advance!
Why is this episode lasting so long this time? I am doing erp but am struggling. I can't understand why I am obsessed with things that no one has actually said......I think that because I have thought it, it is real and I have to keep reminding myself how kind people were to me but the OCD is telling me they are all lying. It's like I can't just trust what people have said to me in the past and let it go. I trusted people with my intrusive thoughts years ago and they even said they worried like that but STILL my brain wont let it go. I am sick of this and am sooooo tired. I just want to be well again x
I just wanted to share something that really helps me with intrusive thoughts. During my session today what I did was instead of fighting the thought or reassuring myself that I would never think or do that I simply told myself sarcastically, thanks brain sure. Thanking my brain helps me SO MUCH because I’m not feeding into the thought and my brain let’s it go. It may not work for everyone and you may feel the urge to resist the thought or reassure yourself. But if you just say thanks brain sure okay, it really helps. 💖
I have OCD diagnosed, I guess the type is pure O. How do I identify my obsessions and compulsions?? To me it's all a mess in my head 😟 I would like to try ERP but I cannot before identifying my obs and comps.
I hate how OCD mixes up my words. I was looking at a picture of my guy from when he was young and I can’t stop smiling you fucking idiot but then I keep saying not do when in fact I actually do want him it’s not not sorry I know that makes very little sense but I don’t understand why I would say a negative when I definitely want him you know even in that state and I can’t stop making a facing not but it is that I do want him even in his skinny dorky face I would want him I still do. So why add a negative? Why add a not when I do it I don’t understand my reactions don’t match the words in my head I’m smiling like yeah I want that to work I don’t care and now I keep saying not to but I do actually want him
If your therapist gave you some behavior activation (BA) homework, what are some of your favorite things to do?
I’ve realised that the most important thing to people with intrusive thoughts/pure ocd is to be good people. Isn’t that rather beautiful if you think about it?
I’m having regret, Shame, and anxiety about my past mistakes. I understand a lot of people do “bad” things and make mistakes and I am trying to change and make my self a better person just having trouble living in the present not the past
How to stop ruminating without distracting yourself?
I wish my brain would stop telling me I'm wrong about everything I believe in
Anyone here with Hit & Run OCD??? I’d love to read you, it’s my first time going thru this
how do u guys feel on ur periods!
Does anyone have a fear that when u work on self love and get healed and love yourself you’ll realize you don’t “need “ or “want “ to be with your partner it’s holding me back from working on myself and I’m terrified because I don’t want that to happen to me I want to be with him after I’m healed so he can get the best of me why does my brain think this it makes my chest so tight and heavy
Can you guys hear your thoughts, like with your voice? Sometimes I hear random thing in my head, like random phrases or word but "speaked" by other voices, like my friends' ones! That happens especially when I'm really tired; and alone! I am fully aware that thoose voices are not real, they are like my thoughts! I don't know If this is a problem or not... and my ocd is making me feeling super worried!! :(
the “i want to act of this thought” intrusive thought and the groinal plus butterflies from the anxiety sucks omg
Just was prescribed Zoloft. Who uses and how does/ did it affect you?
My dad has to pick up my little sister from boarding school bc my mother has tested positive for Covid. Except I think he as it as well and would be in the car with her for an hour. He won’t let me drive instead. Should I tell her I think he has Covid?
social media can be so toxic
Do you also feel guilty even if you know deep down that you are right and you feel nervous or angry for a logical reason and not because of Ocd? My Rocd has made me doubt my feelings and many time i am afraid that my reactions to situations are because of Ocd and not logical and appropriate. It's like I believe that I am the overreacting one that starts arguing for no important reason... I don't believe in my feelings anymore and don't if it's Ocd handling my perspective or my real self reacting normally to something annoying. Ocd has really messed up my self esteem and belief in my own feelings.
I keep making faces over like DONT said can’t make myself but I’ve always liked pecs I know I do And now I’m scared do I don’t like the shape at all I don’t like triangles! And I’m scared I imagine friend naked And she has really small i’m scared pointy I don’t want any shape or size I’m scared that I reacted I hope I didn’t react down there I don’t know I’m scared I didn’t I don’t want that to mean anything I don’t want her or any woman I’m scared I’m not reacting to pecs I keep making faces but I want them to come back I don’t want boobs and then I imagined the statue and my friend naked with pointy boobs I said not don’t imagine in wanting but I don’t want them I don’t like it I hope nothing happened down there I can’t tell
Hey does anyone else identify as Christian, asexual spectrum, and having Ocd (Rocd, “pure” ocd, scrupulosity), and then get super confused about religious purity culture and their own morality / beliefs / desires / mental health??? Or is it just me and my ocd thoughts 😅😅
I feel like I will never get over this
has anybody recovered from somatic ocd especially obsessing about your breathing/ manual breathing? i’m feeling the worst i’ve ever felt with ocd and would love to hear uplifting stories