Real Events OCD - Community

I just got in the truck with my little siblings . Im in the back seat with them and I opened up my phone and I’m paranoid bc what if I opened up something that has something inappropriate on it bc I do have pics of myslef if you know what I mean and other stuff but I don’t think I open my camera roll. I just opened the phone . And I was holding my phone kind of low so what if they seen something and I just don’t know. I think my brother was kinda looking at my phone . I’m so paranoid . I’m ready to die !!

Please help… Every time I imagane something sexually and wrong I can get this felling of a little bit exitment. Like I get curious. I dont want to do anything to a child and I dont get attracted to children, but the «illegal» or taboo gives me a feeling. I dont think this is false feelings, so what Else could this mean?

Anyone have experience getting steroid injections/pills and having worsened OCD symptoms? I’m having one of the worst episodes in a while and the thoughts are on a constant loop.

What do you do when you can’t stop feeling scared about your thoughts? Like you just wake up feeling scared and anxious you’ll do something even if your not having a thought in that moment, the past thoughts have scared you so bad your always on edge and in fear you’ll act on your thoughts.

I dont want other people to find me attractive i dont care for that but my brain always thinks IT it without me willingly bringing it up? I feel like i have to tell my boyfriend that i get these thoughts - i would never act on it but it feels wrong to think that i want people to like Me and find me attractive What do i do am i a disgusting person

Is it really just living a life without uncertainty? Why…why is it so hard than? Just having all the feelings. Also parenting is SO hard.

I’m wondering if anyone has any ERP suggestions for real event OCD? That’s such a weird subtype and I’m not sure what the best approach is. Thanks !

I don’t know if this was a compulsion but I was having daily panic attacks and worrying about my past due to real events (TOCD I hope?) and I debunked and justified all my fears, and now I feel calm and not anxious, my intrusive thoughts are weirdly minimised, and I still have a shadow of doubt which I can’t figure out. Did I give myself a temporary relief, even if it’s been two days? This shadow of doubt still feels really real, and I feel like I have to change something but I don’t know what. I don’t even know if I feel fearful about it.

Why do i feel like i have to confess a thought i THINK i had I was with a male colleague and i didnt mention my boyfriend until he mentioned his partner, ofc if he asked i would’ve said it straight away but my brain is like i was holding off because he may have only been nice because he thinks im single? AND IK IT SOUNDS STUPID but i feel like i have to tell my boyfriend this and my relationship is over Whats wrong with me

Kind of real event: Why do I react with some exitment when imaginating something sexyally wrong? Like doing something to a child or rape? I dont want to do it at all and I don’t like the imagination, but it still gives that feeling?

I made a mistake and I don’t know how bad it was, but I can’t stop feeling bad about it. I feel like idk what to do, or if I should even do anything. Normally I’d say that I’m just feeling guilty, but this feels like an OCD thing. I feel bad. I did something I’m not sure was okay. My stomach hurts :/

My brain keeps saying I’m crushing on people and it’s real I’m gay however it says I’m crushing on woman and everything it’s so weird .

I feel guilty for not mentioning my boyfriend to my colleague who is male until he mentioned his partner and only then i spoke about him MY THOUGHTS ARE “Why didn’t i bring it up, why do i always feel hesitant to discuss, is it because i want to cheat” I would never cheat BUT why do i not want to talk about it then?😭😭

This is hard. Triggers are hard. I hate this. I’m mad. I hate it. I’m scared. I wanna cry. Scream. Run away.

I’ll be doing something normal and I won’t even have an intrusive thought and my brain will be like “SEE? This proves you’re not _____” etc.. like it just AUTOMATICALLY reassures me. Maybe this a symptom of denial 👎👎or maybe it’s OCD

Does anyone have an OCD therapist in NC they’d recommend?

Can someone please help? If I imagane doing something wrong with a child, or read about rape or anything sexual thats illegal to do and that I dobt want to do, I react with some exitment even if I dont want to act on it Why? Does that mean I have sexual fantasies about children?

I think I said the intrusive thought it's over my life is over

I am afraid if I told the intrusive thought I can't tolerate this one it's my biggest fear and I was avoiding it for years I think everything will go worse because of this please help me I am devastated

i dont know what i am going to do next year, u dont know where to live, and now i need to get a job as soon as possible its everything what if it isnt ocd, i dont know ive been looking at some weird porn in my time, and now the stress of everything in life is A LOT i wish i could just sort everything at once and just feel good abd relaxed, but i have no idea what i am doing

Has anyone else ever worried someone you know may know you on here personally or in another ocd private group and then share or screenshot your intrusive obessions and share them with people like your partner or spouse? I get so worried about it because I choose to not disclose my specific thoughts to my spouse. I guess it’s just the ocd trying to scare me

Can you challenge thoughts that make you guilty? Not anxious. I get alot of thoughts about my past where guilt is actually the first emotion not the conventional OCD anxiety. I feel, I need some positive self talk because I've been letting these guilt inducing thoughts just be and all they're doing is making me depressed.

i'm going through a rubbish time i asked my sister about a past event to do with her and because she doesn't remember everything i feel trapped i don't know how to move on without trying to find a relief from the thoughts that are keeping me here i'm scared and have fear 😣

Identifying distortions in thinking can help us in cutting down compulsions abs rumination. Here are some: All or none thinking Catastophizing / jumping to conclusions Magnifying Discounting the positives Emotional reasoning Tunnel vision “Should “ statements Comparing Mind reading Hyper responsibility Magical thinking Have a good day

My mother let my 2 year old sister ride in the back of the car with my 9 year old sister with no seatbelt or baby seat. Her defence was that it was only a 2 minute drive through our town. The guilt and shame I’m feeling is that I didn’t force her to put my sister in the seat. I was in the front seat and I did say that she should be in her seat in which my mother replied “she’s fine it’s only up the road”. In my ignorance I accepted her excuse and didn’t say anything else about it. Everything was fine, we got home safe and it was only a 2 minute drive but I’m only now realizing how dangerous it was and how I should of made her put my sister into her baby seat. I feel so awful and I’m not even sure if I should post this here. I’m 26 years old so I should know better and should have made her put her in her baby seat. I know I’m not the parent and it’s not my responsibility but when it comes to safety of a child it’s very important.

Pretty sure I have real event + TOCD + ROCD

It sucks being in a spiral over bad choices I made growing up. Especially ones I fully remember and know for a fact it happened. The guilt and shame eat me alive. I’m constantly worried about people from my past confronting me or threatening/blackmailing me. I wish I experienced this mental torture earlier in life as it may have prevented me from doing some of the stupid things I’ve done.

Does anyone else have a hard time making decisions? I have a few things I want to focus on now, but it is so hard to make a decision and whether we make a decision or not we are still making a decision since doing nothing is also a decision. Right now I need to focus on job hunting and working on getting a better social life, but trying to narrow down what I want to do is so hard.

i feel soo sick of my what ifs i'm full of worry and fear about past events i really am struggling i donor know what to do i feel nothings working or going to work

( it’s 2:18pm for me where I live ) I have a few questions and I want to know if it’s normal or if it’s OCD 1) how can I tell the difference between anxiety and my OCD? 2) is it normal that my OCD tells me to break up with my partner even tho he does nothing wrong and I still love him. Explanation for number 2 : I have ROCD and it’s making me break up when my boyfriend almost every week because of stress and overthinking something thats not true. And I thank god my boyfriend knows it’s my OCD because he tries he best to calm me down when that happens. But it always happens and I don’t know how avoid giving into my compulsion. 3) do you guys have any recommendations on what exposure therapy I should do to myself. Thank you all and have a great afternoon,night or even day.

can't keep living this way my minds full of what if thoughts about the past i can't live 😣

What are some ways OCD has stolen joy from your life? my OCD has ravaged the comfort i have with my family. i can’t enjoy their company, or even accept their love and support, without excruciating guilt and shame. i used to be happy. OCD can go fuck itself.

Is it normal for my bf to make me anxious, like i get my rocd thoughts as soon as i see him or think of him, im sad i want to be happy again and not doubt

Ok 3 things here ; 1) I have recently started Prozac a few days ago. But my mind is still ruminating I know it takes time but has this helped anyone? I feel tired. Should I take it at night? I been taking it in the morning I’m on 20mgs my ocd keeps saying to me “well what if this is just hiding the truth from what your feeling and all your worries are true and the medicine will just make you feel and not care it’s all true?” Another thing.. has Prozac caused weight gain? I’m terrified it will as lexapro made me gain 25 lbs. 2)I feel bad that I voice my thoughts on here to people I don’t know rather then my husband. He briefly knows about ocd but not the details. And I don’t want to share every single thought with him.. i don’t want this to ruin my marriage. But it makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong or betraying his trust getting advice from strangers. The thing is though my ocd revolves around my husband.. my crazy thoughts I have are things I just don’t think he will get. He once told me that he would get mad if other men were private messaging me with comfort and advice and I never thought about or questioned this until the one night I briefly opened up about my ocd. I only have ever really spoken to women in private over my ocd. My ocd has me questioning everything like if I deleted messages and don’t remember or just didn’t tell my husband. He said he understands I need the sense of community, but if I can’t afford a therapist at the moment idk where else to reach out for help. It’s not like I’m intentionally out here trying to form relationships. I just want advice. Why do I feel so guilty about it? Why do I feel guilty I don’t tell my husband I’m active on the support pages and tell him every single detail or interaction. And If I don’t tell him I’m lying or being sneaky. I know these are all innocent intentions on my end but my ocd and husbands comment makes me doubt myself. And 3) I’ve also doubted myself from things dating back 15 years ago. My “intentions thoughts and feelings” during a small break up period my husband and I had because I thought other people were attractive and wanted to be around them during that time. I remember my sisters friend specially jokingly pretended to kiss my hand at the bar saying hello and I feel like I would have disclosed this info to my husband back then when we got back together and even if he forgot if I brought it up to him again which he probably did forget, that I never told him about it, which I am sure I probably did? It sounds so silly. I’ve known my older sisters friends since we were young, and it just him trying to be funny. How do I remember this but can’t remember if I deleted messages that would go against my husbands concerns. Just doubting it constantly. I just hate that lately I’ve haven’t been able to trust myself and my memories and I feel like the simple act of seeking advice from like minded individuals is “wrong” since my husband made the comment it would upset him if other men are “comforting me” and not him. But that’s not even it. It’s just general advice. I’m not someone who would ever go out of my way to message a guy I don’t even know for “advice” .. other women? Yes I would and I have. But the ocd just makes me question everything. I don’t know how to get past this. It’s hard.

I think my subtype that’s been creeping it’s way up slowly but surely now is Relationship OCD & I must say it’s so stealthy how my subtypes present themselves, it’ll initially pop us as a feeling towards a situation and then worry because of how I feel and then drum roll, doubt! There are some things I want certainty in & I know that’s not possible so the compulsions start to present themselves a little differently than what I used to do from the other subtypes. The situation I’m in makes me feel like I want to leave a relationship that has finally been mended but makes me feel like I can’t handle the growth in the dynamic, does that make sense?

I feel so scared i dont want to lose my partner. But its confusing because of these thoughts and the guilt i feel. Anytime i hug him or kiss him, i get an instant thought of “you dont see a future with him” and it literally convinces me to the point i’ve thought im not a good girl for him, and that we are not a match or something. I’ve made bad decisions in our relationship, so i also experience non stop thoughts of past events and its hard to find forgiveness when your own head is reminding you how you are a horrible person, i just feel lost most of the time, depressed, sad, and find no where out of this. I just wish i was able to enjoy time with him without having these thoughts or feeling like i am lying to myself and him. I’m a new person, and i wish my head knew that. I want to get married, have kids etc but i find it so hard to think of these normal things when my mind is always into negative thinking and rocd. Any support 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

does any ever catch the esges of conversation and then theink its about them say like at a party

what ifs about a real event todo with my sister not me 😣 my ocd is just attacking me and keeping me in this anxiety loop of thoughts

i’ve had real event for about 4 months now, and whilst i’m getting better with it, it has completely ruined my view on some of my favourite songs and certain places. i get anxious when i go to listen to music in case i forever associate them with the real event, or just horrible intrusive thoughts in general. on top of this, certain objects and places will trigger real event intrusive thoughts due to me being around those things when i was at my absolute worst - it sucks cause one of these places is my commute to work so i’m scared i’ll just always be reminded of my real event and all the horrible feelings associated with it :-( i don’t hear obsessions about associations talked about much - anyone else struggle w this?

Dies anyone get anxious or scared that someone will just doxx you on the internet, cuz its become a new obsession now😭

Yesterday, when telling him my situation, my best friend said, it’s way harder to search for something that may not be there than something that is definitely there. Because if something is there you’ll be searching for it specifically while if you don’t know, that search will never end. It’s way harder to disprove something than prove it, which is why court systems are innocent until proven guilty. I hope this helps someone because I had never thought about it that way. ❤️

I've been wanting to ask this for a bit, so usually I like to go on social media to distract myself sometimes, but if a trigger comes up I usually just blank out and feel numb, then I go onto what feels like an autopilot where I'm swiping and swiping but in a thought spiral. Sometimes I'm fully aware of what I'm doing and sometimes I've done something where once I realize I'm like "hey why did I even do that, I didn't WANT to do it but it happened" (like liking a video I'm not interested in, going to view someone's profile when I don't mean to or care about who they are, reading through comments when i want to move on, etc.) Then if I zone out too much and move on i forget what I was doing in the moment and fear I've done something horrible. Does anyone have similar experiences?

It’s been weeks since my last post! Does anyone struggle with ROCD and thoughts about your ex? Like it’s really persistent and annoying because i have my boyfriend and i constantly have these thoughts and compare things or think of my ex when i dont want to

I struggle with this very subtly, but I do struggle with it at times, and it makes me feel very guilty and scared to be around people because I have these thoughts and I just feel bad because they don’t know that I am having these thoughts I just want them to feel safe around me because I never do any of my thoughts that I do have. and it makes me sit here and think “am I making these” “am I crazy “ “normal people don’t have these “

When that thought you got reassurance for comes back…

Hi all, I have been experiencing a lot of relationship OCD and real event ocd lately. I feel the need to confess certain things about prior relationships/involvements with people to my current partner. I don't know why this keeps coming up for me, I have been with this current person for a long time. I suppose I have a fear that I am unloveable, and I feel I have to "give them all of the information" about my past behaviors so they don't "make a mistake" by being with me. Any advice on this would be appreciated.

my friend got cheated on today, her bf choked another girl and was being touchy with another girl as well. im now scared what if i cheated on my bf and forgot in the past bc i didn’t see it as “touchy” and only recognize it when it’s happening to my friend, idk that sounds weird. everything i even thought i did wrong my bf knew about so idk why im going insane. i never cheated. i know that. so why is this happening. my ocd gets better then this happens. false memory feels so real

Sorry. I know I have been posting a lot. I am new here. Just exhausted. Like as soon as I wake up, is “it” still there. Anyone else relate? I’m so tired of telling myself this thought is irrational, it’s just meta ocd, it’s just a thought, yea duh I know that but my mind will not accept that fact. I will say, to know I am not the only person in this world who feels like that, does help make me feel a little bit better. I pray for a better day today for us

Hey! Without going into detail, because I don't want to reassurance seek. Does anyone else experience an instrusive thought while doing an action, and then begin to think "What if I did this thing BECAUSE I think this?" Trying to make up an example so I don't confess my own: Say you have the intrusive thought of "I hate my mother" while making dinner, and as you're serving plates, you become aware of the amount of pepper that you're putting on her dish, and she doesn't like too much spice. And then you start to think "What if I purposely over-peppered her dinner because I hate her?" Something like that.

i’ve been sober for TWO months!! today marks two months since i decided to cut out alcohol on march 24. it’s been VERY tough (especially in high distress situations) but i’ve come this far and i’m not gonna stop now. if you’re sober too, we’re in this together!

How do you manage thoughts about your ex

im dogsitting for my auntie and she has a pit. shes a sweet heart but ive gotten attacked before by a pit mix and im scared that shes going to attack me, i keep getting thoughts that she’ll miss her family and then get mad at me and attack me or something and im getting very graphic images of her biting my hand or when im trying to sleep intrusive thoughts about her attacking me in my sleep! i have 2 more days left but omg!! the thoughts wont stop and i know she most likely wont do anything but i have this strong fear that she might. its always the what if thoughts :( she growled at me earlier and i called my aunt and she said thats her way of saying she needs to be let out but its so scary. im not really use to dogs either i have a small dog and am more of a cat person tbh so im not sure the chances of her attacking me anyways. im trying not to show fear because they say dogs can sense it but i truly am terrified. 2 more days left lol.

All day every day I reassure myself that I want to be an androgynous girl, I look up androgynous girls and I make myself look at them and want to be them, I look into my past to times I was jealous of being an androgynous girl, I try to prove to myself that I don’t wanna be a man every day, etc. I do this even when I don’t have an intrusive thought that provoked it…

I have tinnitus & don’t know how to find a doctor (?) to treat it - in the mean time it drives me nuts! Anyone out there experiencing this?

I don’t have anyone to talk to about my OCD. I’m an only child, my parents barely understand, I just broke up with someone who gave me emotional support, and now I feel lonely. I’m going through a big OCD flare up with my breakup happening and me entering into a emotionally distressing work environment (also where me and my ex met) and it’s just been so hard. Some days are okay, others are super triggering. I’ve been talking to therapists but it just gets so tiring some days feeling like I am alone in this (which also brings up large amount of doubting my breakup).

Hello! I’ve recently been struggling with False memory OCD and it’s been wreaking some havoc in the past couple weeks/month. I also, have been struggling with relationship OCD on top of that…. I’ve been in a pretty serious relationship with my long distance partner. I recently moved to a new state to get better job opportunities and we’ve both been incredibly supportive of each other and our career goals. Being in a long distance relationship isn’t easy, but it certainly got a lot harder when I started my new job and met another co-worker whom I developed a small work crush on. This was already super distressing because it sort of just popped up and it’s not something I could have ever wanted for myself. I figured maybe it cropped up due to the long distance and feeling lonely? I digress. The event in question in which I’m having the false memory pop up is this: My new co workers and I went out dancing at a country bar in which said work crush attended. I had no intention of dancing with this person but low and behold-we pretty much danced all night. This caused some distress but after awhile it became fun and I told myself not to worry and that nothing I was doing was wrong (To preface my partner knew I was going dancing and I didn’t hide the fact that I would be dancing with other people) The part where I’m struggling with False memory is specifically when the song Neon Moon came on. Now, I’ve always had this thing that I love to dance to that song…and some part of me thinks it would be cute to dance to the song with someone you like. I made a vague comment or two about wanting to dance to it and almost hoped that we could dance to it as well. I know deep down that in reality that me wanting to dance with a work crush to neon moon wouldn’t have led to anything romantic. I wouldn’t have tried anything or crossed any lines or boundaries. This isn’t about finding a new partner or having a secret fling, but it’s the fact that I sort of asked? That maybe the fact that I even wanted to do that in the first place feels like I’ve crossed a line. Just having the thought or feeling. To be clear we never danced to it, BUT the fact that I ASKED. Did I want something more, did I want it to happen? Is even having the feeling there taboo. I’ve hung out with this person with other people and have hardly hung out with them alone. I’m some cases I feel like I’ve already done some forms of exposure therapy due to the fact that I had no choice but to do so. For now I consider him a good friend and haven’t had any incidents like that happened since. However, ever time I rethink that ONE moment out of the many. It breaks my heart to think that I could have flirted with another guy when I’d rather be with my boyfriend. I don’t want my relationship to end and I don’t want to break their trust. Every time my partner says such amazing and lovely things to me I think back on that night and feel like I’m a terrible person and that I don’t deserve them at all. So sorry for such a long post and normally I don’t post these things but this place seems like a great community. What do you guys think? Thanks for reading…

and my brain is fighting tooth and nail to convince me that i “wanted” the thought and wanted to act on it. don’t you love OCD?

hi, new to this app. but going to see if anyone can help within my situation. i started dating a boy who my friend introduced me to in january 2023. there were already multiple red flags to begin with. he commented about my facial features in a negative way and claimed it was a joke and this was only on the second date. we got intimate very quickly which i think is an issue to this whole dilemma. anyways, cut long story short. none of my friends or family like this boy. AT ALL. and this is due to what i’ve said about what he’s said to me. he thrown multiple insults at me one after the other, controlling who’s on my private story and not happy if it’s a friend who’s a boy. and the main thing is he won’t let me post anything on my social media because this is me asking for ‘validation’ and ‘attention’. anyway. i went clubbing for the first time for my 18th birthday this year. he wasn’t happy about how i didn’t invite him, even though it was just me and my girl friends and claimed he was second best. he then happened to go out on the saturday and said i’d be ‘lucky to see him’ after what i did which wasn’t inviting him out with me and my friends. anyway on the friday night, i sent a video to him and all he had to say was how i look ill. i didn’t think this was bad until my friends said that’s poor from him. he hardly spoke to me for the rest of the night. which made me resentful as well as for the full week everyone i knew was telling me that that weekend would be the one where they’d make me break up with him. so this is all i had in my head plus everyone saying how awful he is. anyways a boy came up to me and my friends at the club and asked if i had a boyfriend. i said ‘he’s a cu*t’. which is the starting point of this dilemma. he then made jokes saying he’d never spoken to an 18 year old before as he was 21 i think and i laughed saying don’t worry i’ve spoke to a 22 year old before. which again i feel awful for as well as the above comment. the main point of this story is he asked for my instagram. now, this boy wasn’t attractive and i felt no attraction towards him. however i gave it because it’s instagram at the end of the day. i then blocked him days later, never following him back and never texted him. i now feel HORRENDOUSLY guilty for what i’ve done as my boyfriend thinks minor things are wrong etc so i can’t imagine what he would think about this. i’m terrified for him to know and it just constantly triggers my ocd because i feel so so so bad. i’ve cried and stressed over this so much it makes my stomach turn. all my friends but one say i did nothing wrong and that’s he’s just an awful person anyway but this doesn’t excuse my behaviour for me. and i’m constantly trying to find an escape to this dilemma. someone please give me some advice thank you x

Why why why won’t it quit. Why when I think I’m over one thing….another pops in, I’m sick of it. Themes. It’s just alot all at once. And I had been doing so good and bam one thought, one stupid thing I asked my four year old sent me into a spiral! And it’s been a week and I can’t shake it….is it I’m guessing my parenting, is it my ocd. Anyone….anyone.

How do you recover from an OCD relapse?

“what if i don’t really have OCD? what if i really am a bad person?”

It’s so messy in this head and these thoughts just don’t stop. Everyday I think of either the same thing or I add something new! Like for example I was talking to my best mates about the guy I’m seeing and I briefly talked about my issues with overthinking my past mistakes and I think they all knew which one I was one about but I didn’t wanna say it afraid to bring it up again. Anyway, I talked about how I wanna move past them and not bring them up to this gugbim seeing and my one friend said if he judges you for mistakes you’ve made and aren’t proud of them you know the kind of person he is, you don’t have to tell him anything you aren’t proud of. Anyway after having this chat with them I’m not so terrible anxious they are talking bad about me and slagging me off behind my back, judging me even though I have zero reason to believe so. It’s like I have this picture in my head kf them laughing and it’s hurting me. Makes me feel like I have to make sure they aren’t and look for reassurance! I’m so annoyed I’m thinking like this, just want piece in my head and I can’t get it

Ever feel like your brain is just scanning for the next obsession….oh one just tapered down, let’s bring the old one back for shits & giggles. This is exhausting. Any advice. Why can’t I just accept life is…..okay….quiet for now. Fu OCD It’s Iike we forget how to just be….anyone relate?

how do you move past a thought that you believe 😣 been over a week and it's all my minds consumed of from the moment i wake up till i go too sleep

Today I'm feeling even worse. I had new intrusive thoughts for a few days but now one of my old intrusive thoughts has returned and it is making me feel terrified and awful. I just wish I could feel better.

It's the past. It's the past that betrays me it's the past that holds on to me.

i showed some friends an educational OCD video and they were very receptive and empathetic. OCD is hard to talk about because it often involves uncomfortable things. i’m happy they were supportive and was thankful that they were willing to listen and learn. that’s a win for today!

the kids i babysit have accidents where they fall and get hurt, as kids do. i just end up blaming myself so hard and get so scared for them, even if the accident wasn't bad and they're completely okay. i primarily have anxiety around if they get up and are fine after an accident but what if in a few years it turns out that because of the accident they're stunted in some form of development or some other harmful thing happens. for example, today one of the kids i was watching fell off the playground into some sand below. she was fine, just pretty shaken up. i haven't been able to relax since then even though her parents reassured me that it was alright. i don't know if anyone else can relate or has any advice…i'm nannying this entire summer and this is going to be a big fear and anxiety-inducing worry for me:(

Last Monday I was having a mental breakdown due to “meta” ocd but over the weekend and past couple days I haven’t had any bad feelings. Whenever I have gotten an intrusive thought I just let the thought run through. It was definitely uncomfortable at first but I learned the more you just accept the uncertainty and let the thought go it feels so much more better! Some days I haven’t even gotten many intrusive thoughts! Remember while healing and recovery isn’t linear and we’ll have bad days we’ll also have good days as well! It’s all apart of growing and healing and I hope we’ll all make it through this journey.

wish this thought would just go away had it a week now constant on my mind 😣

i’m a grown woman. i elected to move out of my mother’s house. that’s all i was saying i- 😭

months ago, I had a really bad falling out with someone I was in a very toxic relationship with. this person ended up stalking me, harassing me, and doing things that genuinely made me feel upset—I promise I am getting to the point, this is just necessary background info. I would end up having nightmares about this person and about them ruining the new life I've made for myself, and I would find myself very paranoid. lately, things have been a bit settled and toned down, but I guess something triggered me and set me off into a huge fit of anxiety and paranoia. I ended up convincing myself that all of my current friends are spies who are keeping the toxic person updated on my life, and that I'm unsafe everywhere I go, that I'll never escape the past. is this an obsession? or just a delusion? would it be bad/a compulsion to ask for reassurance that these thoughts are untrue? please help me figure this out!

does anyone else feel like they can’t allow themselves to enjoy what they love? my ocd has been targeting all the things that mean most to me in the past months. it puts all my least favorite things abt me in the spotlight 24/7, and my obsessions always manage to convince me i’m some of the most horrible things in the world. now things that would normally bring me comfort and relax me make me anxious, like watching a show i love, playing my favorite video game, hanging out with ppl i love… i almost feel like i don’t deserve to do these things and feel good. i don’t genuinely believe this, but my intrusive thoughts keep telling me i don’t deserve happiness and relaxation. does anyone else experience this? any tips on how to deal with it?

My ocd is trying so hard to make me dislike my partner by trying to replay a specific bad moment😒 it’s honestly really annoying and I’m doing my best not engaging with the thought.

have this thought on my mind for a week now and it won't go because i feel i need a clarification about it as in does my thought from a past event mean a certain meaning 😣

How can you tell if you feel the urge to confess because it's a compulsion or because the person you want to confess to genuinely needs to know that information? I deal with real event OCD based on an event that no one will be affected by unless I confess it to them, but I've been having a flare up that's telling me that I don't have OCD and that I am just feeling normal guilt because I haven't disclosed the event when I should have. How do I know if I feel like not confessing is morally wrong because it actually is morally wrong and I need to seek forgiveness, or because my OCD is trying to convince me to give into a compulsion? Would it be better to just confess regardless so that I can stop worrying about whether or not I'm doing something wrong by keeping it to myself?

So five years ago I made the biggest mistake of my life and done some regretful things on webcam and I felt so disgusting and told my partner everything and we moved past it but now five years later I am plagued with the thought of it all resurfacing and losing my partner over it even though she said she forgives me,it’s literally all I think about and I just feel like the worst person it’s crushing me 😢

I only got 2 hours of sleep. I think it's because of anxiety. I have a final exam in a few hours. Loud noises outside were bugging me and I had to block it out. Then intrusive thoughts came in about POCD and how I'm such an awful person because of my addiction. I feel like this everyday and I can't get past it. I don't know how, but some days I'm okay and other days I'm not. This sucks. I don't want to harm children and I don't want to watch anything sickening that involves children. I just want to get my life back, even if it feels like I'm not supposed to

I dont know if its rumination or what.... I am trying to figure it out - I dont know what is going on but does anyone else just get angry with this stuff?

This morning I am mildly anxious concerning the mortgage and move. I don’t want bad news. I don’t want delays. I don’t want to be embarrassed.

I got real event OCD (I think) over a past event that I beat myself up over. I get "I don't deserve thoughts about virtually everything. Anyway, I get these brief moments of clarity where I think that what I'm beating myself up over is stupid and I shouldn't be. Is this reassuring myself?

Have you ever shared your OCD theme with someone, and then weeks or months later you start to panic about it? I struggle with false memory OCD and my theme has been a bit taboo. I’m now convinced that because I haven’t heard from this person in a couple of weeks, they are uncomfortable with me and think I’m a horrible person. I assume this is my OCD but I’m like petrified she’s going to share these OCD thoughts with people.

just some of the things my OCD tells me.

Does anyone go through this: with each new intrusive thought the anxiety gets heavier and I feel like after taking steps forward I fall back even more ....and does OCD cause paranoia? ....my fear of developing psychosis or schizophrenia is so much more now. I feel like each new anxiety or intrusive thought is putting so much pressure on my brain and I'm terrified that I will get really sick. I'm so scared and sad. Working on staying strong. I have this new fear that each time I look at a screen (computer, iPad, phone etc..) I will develop psychosis or schizophrenia. ...I definitely know that too much screen time is not healthy but now I'm scared to even open my computer when I need to. I'm trying my best to keep balance regardless of the chaos in my mind. I just feel so scared that I develop psychosis or schizophrenia.

and now i feel infinitely worse. can’t wait to take my knockout pills and sleep.

Make me think I don't love or feel connected to my son. They make me think 'what if he's not yours' and I know he is, duh. He's my absolute world, my number one and I love him so much. Its horrible how real these can feel. Please help

Anyone have any resources for working through codependency caused by OCD? The two most important people in my life are saying we’re codependent, and I’m losing them because of it. I want to get better, but it’s so hard. They don’t want to deal with my feeling anymore. It’s too much.

This would be the second visit I’ve had with him and I have so much anxiety about it. I was nervous the first time and I’m nervous this time. I’m so stuck in my head and I’m worried I won’t know what to talk about or I’ll have too much anxiety to enjoy the visit. I’m just so nervous. What do I do? What can help?

I’m feeling a bit better now than I was half an hour ago. I’m so scared that I did damage to somebody’s cars when I was driving them a year ago. I did so many compulsions at the time. I’m trying to remember if I could have damaged them. I can’t confess because I don’t know for sure if I did or not. Help

anyone relate? help please

Often times I’ll verbalise my TOCD thoughts to myself or in my head I’ll say them as if they are structured like a Reddit/NOCD post. Or I’ll verbalise my thought process when I’m justifying my thoughts. Anyone else??

have been doing better, but it’s acting up again. me and my bf dated back in 2021 and for my bday i went out without him, just with my family, to an amusement park and water park. i literally don’t remember talked to anyone else besides family except for 2 little girls at the water park because i was with my little cousin. but i remember this life guard staring at me. im scared what if i did smthng wrong and forgot? i want to text my aunt and ask her if i did do something but i know that is a compulsion.

feel like my life's over all i want to do is sleep the days away i feel like if that one thing didn't happen in my past my life would be so much better i wouldn't have this constant reminder on my mind that stops me doing things i want to do i've really had enough 😣

i believe that i have real event ocd coupled with relationship ocd. the real event ocd, which includes several events throughout my life, is making me feel as though i am not worthy of the relationship i am in, which i understand is an irrational thought. how do you forgive yourself? how do you try to forget? and most importantly, how can i accept love from others if i’m not always happy with myself?

I’m actually so proud of myself because I was having a big OCD crisis after a long break, who was like my first one but also the worst one I had in my entire life. I almost had a panic attack, thought it was the start of the end again. Even if this started by a compulsion.. it’s the first time I’m facing the fear, accepting anxiety and giving me unconditional love. Even if it’s my very first win since years this show that all I learned was worth. Thanks NOCD for existing. And for anyone reading this: your patience and work will pay, before today I thought there will be no cure for me, no hope just struggle forever and I know it’s will NOT cure or make my obsessions go away forever. But I want to learn how to face my fears, and to let people who struggles like me to know that no matter what I love you and you deserve to love yourself too.

what ifs is a major trigger..... like my ruminating about yesterday stole today

It seems to me that when I have a break up or a budding relationship deteriorate. That my OCD kicks in on a tremendous level.

Sometimes I get to the end of the line with a rumination spiral when I’ve looked at an event from every angle and I finally get some lasting relief. I’ve been stuck on one theme for a week and I think I’ve found myself again at the end of it. Feeling at peace today! 🤍☮️ I’m hoping this theme doesn’t come back (at least for a while) but in the event that it does, I’m thinking about writing down all of the thought loops that I got stuck in as sort of a way to do expedite the process and lessen the amount of time I spend ruminating. Has anyone tried this?