Religion & Spirituality OCD - Community

Kind of a vent, or a dairy entry idk, sorry Tldr; I worked hard to start loving myself. I'm a troubled christian but also crave a relationship. I don't know if I should completly devote myself to be a good christian. I don't want to ever give up my faith Lately I can't help but think about life. My main theme is SOOCD and after months of fighting it I'm much better. But I'm in that weird phase where I'm mostly concerned about how my future relationship will look like. I've never been in a relationship due to my social anxiety and horrible self esteem. I started to fantasize about being with that dream guy, but whenever I think about anything sexual with him it's high anxiety. I had a phase before where I was crying because SOOCD and being scared of being asexual. Now I think it's just my social anxiety, but I also observed that it calms me down when I imagine him and me with wedding rings. I'm a christian, but a horrible one. I sin a lot in my thoughts and start daydreaming whenever I pray. I'm trying to fight it, but it's hard. And I was always looking down on myself because I'm not perfect and that I could do so much better. Lately I was working on myself and I finally started thinking more about myself than others. I wanna do what I wanna do and be myself, no matter what they think. And I think that I don't want to wait until marriage. I'm not sure tho, but I have a strong urge. I feel like if I found the right guy and I would feel super safe and comfortable with him, I would want to have sex. And this drives me crazy lately. If I want to sin, how can I be a christian? How do I give up something that I want, when I was working so hard to learn to do what I want? Why do I have to belittle myself and be humble, when I felt like actual human trash all my life and just started to feel good now? Should I give up all my wants and my human value? I don't want to, but I love God so much I want to be His child. I will never ever give up my faith, but I feel like I'm blasphemous for calling myself a christian. If needed, I can completly devote myself and be a piece of sh** again. But I worked so hard and finally feel good with myself. I feel like if I don't belittle myself and give up everything I'm being blasphemous for even praying or thinking about God. I feel like this may be ocd, but I'm not sure. My ocd likes to jump around and be different types, I literally had half of the existing themes already. I'd appreciate if somebody commented and shared something, I feel awful sitting with this by myself Thank you

I have been dealing with OCD that often relates back to being a good person and doing what is right. When I think of these things I may not have any physical compulsions but just be in constant turmoil with myself over it and just go through a constant mental cycle of feeling bad and trying to justify things in my brain. Even though i didn’t do anything necessarily terrible, my brain won’t let me stop thinking. about it. How can i stop this mental cycle

Is it normal to have really bad thoughts about your mind and to really hate yourself and also feel like your thoughts are taking over i mean I keep having just bad thoughts and I need to calm down but they are very disturbing and I need reassurance

Any advice for, or comments, on intp-t personalities

Hi guys. Question so in my ERP when we do exposures I don’t get so easily triggered. I get more triggered just having those thoughts on an day to day basis. Also does anyone else ever feel numb or blank or is that just me.

Jesus loves you all ❤️ I pray you are all blessed with peace and that you’re OCD is nothing against Jesus. Remember he is much more powerful than any mental illness 🥰

Hi I know OCD distorts God and faith but we need to start dealing with unhealthy dimensions of religion too. High demand religion that constantly implies punishment and performance based worth can create overwhelming stress. This is unhealthy and leaders need to start getting real about mental health problems! I’m a former Mormon who resigned bc I couldn’t deal with the culture of perfectionism and never doing enough. Grace was not a central teaching. What are your thoughts?

Today it felt like I am losing my faith in Jesus and it feels terrible. It just feels like I don’t know him anymore or how to have a relationship with him - the certainty of knowing that he’s there just vanished. I am currently at a bible college so its no surprise that ocd has attacked my faith but I feel so helpless and lost. I am on lexapro for about a week with a dosage of 10 mg but right now I just feel worse than before :( when am I gonna get better?

Hey, I came on here to see if I am alone or not. I just got diagnosed with OCD a few weeks ago. But I’ve had it for a long time. Recently, I’ve been more depressed, having constant thoughts of offing myself, harming myself, and I constantly think about all the people (I think) that I’ve disappointed, may have offended, who has left me throughout my life time, and I constantly think how much I think I’ve ruined in my life. I’m scared to disappoint or ruin something just by existing.. I constantly think I’ll be better off not here anymore. Every time someone raises their voice at me, I break down. I’ve also been getting annoyed really fast, and I can’t stand people talking negative anymore. I just cover my ears or walk away and lock myself in a room. This all just started. I just really feel alone during all this. As if I have a weight on my back, and constant pain (mentally). Of course, I won’t act upon any of this, but I’m scared I will. Has anyone had this when they go through a relapse?

Do hormones have anything to do with OCD? cuz I feel like my OCD gets worse when it comes near my time for menstruation and during it too. And if so, how can you deal with it in a way that mitigates the effect of hormones as much as possible, like for example, taking certain supplements for hormonal balance, etc??

I’ve been wrestling with this and would like to hear others who know the answer to this sort of question for themselves. How do I know I like the idea of him or genuinely like him? Like what are the telltale signs?

Hi, hope you all are doing well! if you’ve seen my posts for a little bit now, you might know that I’m struggling with religious OCD for a while. I was wondering if anyone knows about a therapist that’s Catholic on this site. I know that if you go to the advocates, they personally can’t tell you the person’s religion which is why I’ve come to ask you guys. If you don’t know of any that’s perfectly fine and I hope you have a lovely day.

Doing better w spiraling and less reassurance seeking. If I could just kick the depression.

Does it ever get better?

Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
    do not depend on your own understanding. (Proverbs 3:5) My plans aren’t your plans,
nor are your ways my ways, says the Lord. Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways,and my plans than your plans. (Isaiah 55:8-9) Be strong and courageous and do the work. Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD God, my God is with you. He will not fail you or forsake you until all the work for the service of the temple of the LORD is finished. (1 Chr 28:20)

i'm constantly worried i might be offending a higher power and as a consequence will be punished after my death. sometimes i have to decide between two or more higher powers, e.g. "move this object to the right for christianity", "move this object to the left for buddhism". as a result i decide for one religion and then punish myself to prove to the other religion how sorry i am. the punishment: i have to do something embarrassing in public. sometimes i randomly scream "whohooo" on a train or tell strangers embarrassing things i usually would never tell anyone. the more embarrassing, the more i prove how sorry i am. kind of like a "sacrificial offering". i feel like i'm the only person w OCD who does these kind of compulsions. anyone else doing something similiar??

I’ve been feeling much better. But I’m still getting the intrusive thoughts. Do they ever stop?

This is a question that was asked many times before, its basically a form of "if there's God why there's evil", and im angry that people doesnt try to find an answer for this,they just go with the basic asnwer that doesnt have any logic. There is a guy on youtube who talks about this, i will not say any name, many believes what he says its the truth, God doesnt intervene cause we have free will, He knows everything that will happen, He knew you before you were born and He already knows if you will be in heaven or hell. He knows everything that will happen and lets it happen cause He can make good out of it,but if He knows where you will go after this life, why He tries to help you to go to Him,follow His path? Lets take the "He lets bad things happen cause He sees the good that can come after" what about people who choose suicide after an abuse? Is that the great good He saw? I could write many things that contradicts what others say, the only way we will go in that argument will be "we dont know actually why God do some things". Maybe im wrong, but this is a big lie that people believed years ago and now it gets bigger. Many says that in the Old Testament people just blindly believed in God, but thats a lie, God showed them that they can trust in Him, by the things He done to them. And we have to lean to that and the things He does in our life too cause God is still working, He didnt dissapeared after the Old Testament... There is alot of stupid things on the internet that makes God look stupid, and many times i said, but since im with God, im more angry at these people who mislead others than those who doesnt believe in God or hate God. Those are victims to these false image of God that these preachers made. I believe the answer is there somewhere, and I believe and will stuck on it that God is love and He didnt just put us here to watch us suffer and then say its because of free will, you did that... Anyway back to my question, yesterday i watched a video, i will not share the name cause it can be disturbing for some, basically someone makes interviews with people who didnt get the good side of life, and the video was about people who died after the interview, and it was many, i just want to talk about one. There was a guy who told that he was sexually abused by his dad since he was 4, and because of that he became drug addict. Sadly he passed away because of overdose, his story made me so angry and i just got this on my mind that im here who has an easier life, its easy for me to believe, but there are people who grew up getting abused by their parents, the people you should trust no matter what, off course its so hard for them to believe. And it felt this feeling that "God, this is not fair. Im here having a great life and there are some who got the worst life, they doesnt have a chance to experirnce your love. It's not fair". And since then im struggling with this. Im watching videos about why would God let these things happen and all i get are these stupid answers... if God let it happen cause He saw that it could be better, why it didnt? Cause the guy is not with us anymore... if you would say "God could do good from that but the guy choose not to follow God, dont forget, i meantioned that people say God knows the future, then this means that He knew the good will not happen cause if He lets it happen, the guy will die because of it. This shows how little we know about God and we believe what others say. Lets clear that im not against God, im against these false preachers. So if i made you question God, im sorry, stick with Him, even after this i will stick with Him because the good He gave to me, but i will search for answers cause i dont believe that God put us in a world where evil has a greater power, He just watches, the only hope we have is that after death everything will he good, but before that God throw us into this circus where we suffer, and if you dont follow Him, you will go to hell... Of course some see God as an evil god, its because of these things some teach about God. If you have an answer to my question, please share it, alwayd question and pray about the things you hear from others about God, dont just believe it, even this, i will pray to God to help me go through this

ocd trying to make me believe god would want me to do these things/ is telling me to do these things. this is literally the opposite of what he’d want; i know it’s all lies.

Ocd feels like Groundhog Day. 6 more weeks of winter.

Everyone I know with mental OCD, like intrusive thoughts; anxiety and panic disorders; repetitive thoughts and fears; scrupulous, religious, spiritual, moralistic obsessions; and real events OCD tend to be the best people! Haha. It reminds me of that scene from Alice in Wonderland when the Mad Hatter asks her if he's gone mad (i.e. crazy)... "Yes, you're mad, bonkers, off the top of your head...but... I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are." There are OCD behaviors that are deeply rooted in shame, mortification, fear and terror, embarrassment, timidity, self-blame, and childhood trauma behaviors, etc. Not all kinds of OCD will automatically mean you can depend entirely on your true self and be true to your values because some values are not all virtuous, but those of us constantly scrutinizing ourselves, I can see us as the Mad Hatters

it’s been a while but my religious ocd has kicked in again for some reason and it’s kinda worse than the last time

Anyone ever had the worry “what if something is sending me thoughts”? Or no?

How long do you do them? It just doesn’t feel like I’m doing them right. My level of distress doesn’t seem to change when I do them. It feels like I’m waiting for something to happen, but nothing does. Anyone want to share how you do exposures?

I’m really struggling. I’m scared God told me he’s going to protect me from something bad by offering me this job. I don’t want to leave my current job but it came up on my LinkedIn and everything has fallen easily in to place but I don’t want to leave my job for this other job but I’m scared it’s actually God and not my OCD. They made me an offer and I have to make a decision. It felt like God was talking to me and then I’ve had all sorts of signs making me think it’s true. Please help

My fiancé and I went through a conflict this weekend that we need to work together to resolve. I feel very disrespected by what happened, and recognize that for the health of our relationship I need to bring this up with him. The issue is that I have been ruminating uncontrollably about what happened for 3 days, so bringing up a conversation about this feels like a compulsion. I am painfully aware of my obsessive response to this conflict, but feel really stuck, and quite frankly, out of my mind.

Anyone do the support groups ?I just got on but no one showed up .

I am a Christian btw Does anyone get any unwanted feelings? This is probably rare but, when I was talking to my brother i asked what books he read and he said like magic or satanic stuff I don’t know but cause during Religious OCD I have this weird thing weird it felt my heart was getting hardened and I was trying to find passion for God then I started feeling like I was being drawn to the magic/satanic stuff even though I never read a book in my life about magic or satanic things in my life. Does anyone else experience this? I am so worried I have to stop talking to him because I am worried if I don’t I will go to hell.

it worries me i can’t confidently say anymore i don’t want these thoughts or i dislike them, which causes more anxiety and distress. is this normal when you’ve been suffering for a long period of time? the longer i have this the more doubt i seem to get

Some encouragement as you navigate OCD and your exposures. My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all, and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father’s hand.- John 10:27-29

For the past few weeks now I’ve been dealing with scrupulosity AKA religious OCD. I feel very uncomfortable and I feel like I’m the only one going through this. If you feel comfortable, would you share your experiences with scrupulosity so I don’t feel so alone.

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Is it possible to suffer from both Religious OCD and Religious Trauma? I’ve been wondering this because throughout my struggle with this (as a Christian), I burnt myself out with Christian Content, Church, etc. to the point where I no longer want anything to do with Christianity. And it doesn’t help that others in my life have dismissed my mental health struggles and have also over spiritualized what I have been going through.

I bit lonely and depressed

I am a Christian and I have religious ocd I get intrusive blasphemous thoughts during my hobbies and I worry if I don’t get rid of them I will go to hell because I worry they are causing me to sin and I don’t know what to do

So i like this guy da da da and we have been seeing eachother for sometime now and we had a fight over wanting to call off things and he initially didn't and i did and then he got mad about that cause we have had this conversation a few times and he said now he wants to but i didn't then cause i had an emotionally roller coaster kinda day that day and didn't know what was coming from my mouth and but then things escalated and i tried to make amends he said he wants time to think i was like okay but the part that scares me is all along this relationship i have been looking at astrotalk this app with astrologers telling you about your life and i have been diagnosed with ocd so I run to reassurance and i did with this someone told me to leave him and someone told me to stay and someone said its okay to wait but now the thing is i dont know who to believe at this point and whether or not to believe it at all cause any trigger makes me run to it so i am not in the best space tbh i am asking for reassurance from random strangers on an app that can lie to me and i will believe it cause sometimes it will give me the reassurance i need and that is just making me so mad at myself that i have gotten to feel so weak because of a guy and this time as well i spent money and spoke to someone and they said all will be fine but what if its not and what if things dont work out and maybe she is not right and the others as well and more than that maybe this entire thing is a lie and I believe in god so why am I believing in this and wouldn't god take this as a sin maybe? And think if i dont trust him and trust these people then it will be so and god will punish me..

So i like this guy da da da and we have been seeing eachother for sometime now and we had a fight over wanting to call off things and he initially didn't and i did and then he got mad about that cause we have had this conversation a few times and he said now he wants to but i didn't then cause i had an emotionally roller coaster kinda day that day and didn't know what was coming from my mouth and but then things escalated and i tried to make amends he said he wants time to think i was like okay but the part that scares me is all along this relationship i have been looking at astrotalk this app with astrologers telling you about your life and i have been diagnosed with ocd so i run to reassurance and i did with this someone told me to leave him and someone told me to stay and someone said its okay to wait but now the thing is i dont know who to believe at this point and whether or not to believe it at all cause any trigger makes me run to it so i am not in the best space tbh i am asking for reassurance from random strangers on an app that can lie to me and i will believe it cause sometimes it will give me the reassurance i need and that is just making me so mad at myself that i have gotten to feel so weak because of a guy and this time as well i spent money and spoke to someone and they said all will be fine but what if its not and what if things dont work out and maybe she is not right and the others as well and more than that maybe this entire thing is a lie and I believe in god so why am I believing in this and wouldn't god take this as a sin maybe?

I want to say that I'm very grateful that I've gotten better!! I did ERP and took medication and I now am so much more comfortable and relaxed. Don't give up hope, keep doing exposure and response prevention, and be hopeful. You'll get there!! ❤️

Can sleep and hormone levels affect your ability to let go of these what if thoughts (dark false memories) and see the truth about your blacked out memories as well as starting feel normal again. Please help I can’t take this not knowing see things in my mind that I know aren’t true, it’s seriously scaring me

I highly recommend the freedom from obsessive compulsive disorder by Jonathan Grayson, PHD. Still reading it and it has helped me out a little bit.

Everytime I feel like I have a hold on my ocd, I always get that thought of what if you just did it? What if you do feel that way? It makes me feels hopeless and delve deeper into anxiety and worry, should I ignore and stay true to my morals and self or seek help??

OCD takes so much from us. It makes us hate ourselves, makes us think we’re crazy and sometimes makes us wish we weren’t even here. But even with all the bad, there is still some good somewhere in our lives. Let’s take a moment and share something we are thankful for. I’ll post mine in the comments. Picture of me, my partner and our dog on a hike in Nevada earlier this year. 🥰

why would Al give me the wrong answer to an objective question? i have fears about not being able to speak with confidence, so i asked it "The Oral Torah states that Gentiles are incapable of being able to speak with confidence" and it said yes. Is Al wrong in this case?

I wanted to wish everyone going through OCD a happy Thanksgiving. Even though things will always be tough for us and at times seem impossible to get over…..the reality is there is a light at the end of the tunnel no matter how long it takes. I’m thankful for this community and for my family and friends that keep me encouraged. Mainly my wife. I wish you all well and pray that all of you are doing ok.

Don't forget to be thankful today. Yes we all have something to be thankful for, despite what our OCD brains tell us. You are deserving to love and be loved. You are deserving to have peace. You are deserving of grace and forgiveness. I'm thankful I have this app and all of you. I've had OCD for many years, this is the first thanksgiving I had this community with me. Thank you, and let's continue to walk together through this, it doesn't have to win.

Dreading the day. Wish this OCD nightmare would end.

I’m worried that OCD will rob my joy during Thanksgiving. My intrusive thoughts and anxious feelings may distract me from reflecting on the blessings and good things of today. I hope to work on being gracious to myself when I have these thoughts and feelings.

I feel like my dog barks at me when I’m in middle of my compulsions like she knows and then she calls me over to couch to cuddle or just barks . She is only 5 months old so I’m wondering if she can sense my distress when I’m in the middle of it . Does anyone else’s dog do this naturally without training ?

I am a parent of an 8 year old struggling with OCD. We have had our ebb and flows, but are stuck with religious/prayer/ocd. Our current counselor we were placed with through our local mental health program does not specialize in OCD. I need someone who can help with my son, who can help. I feel like I’m searching for a unicorn.

What does it mean when you have no feeling about your intrusive thoughts?

Struggling today. One obsession after another. Nonrelenting.

I hope this makes someone feel better like it did for me today! When we are “in it,” we forget how far we’ve come and how much progress we’ve made.

I have weird existential fears like “what if I’m meant to be miserable” and “what if I have a stutter,” etc. My specific obsession is “what if the Bible/ Oral Torah” says that these fears of mine are true? I asked ChatGPT a fear of mine with the question “Does the Oral Torah address the concept that people can simultaneously exist as both human and nonhuman?” It said YES, but made no reference to where in the Oral Torah that was stated. I’m so confused and scared..

Went down a rabbit hole

Imagine you’re trying to build a Lego skyscraper or something like that, but for some reason you have been focusing on the middle part of the skyscraper only, looking at the directions, knowing exactly where those blocks are supposed to go. Like you live studied the instructions a lot, and you know what that middle is supposed to look like. But every time you go to build the middle and place those bricks in their exact spots, those pieces fall to the ground. And eventually, it dawns on you that you needed to build a good foundation. That’s sort of how I’ve felt. I get so stressed out about the details and standards that I forget that I need to focus on the foundation. Even as a 24 year old, I still am learning basic moral stuff and life skills, but when it comes to the Bible and my religious life, I feel I’m actually making progress. So maybe there’s a principle in that illustration that’s true. And maybe other’s experiences aren’t totally the same as mine, but I thought that this was kind of true in my case.

I’m kinda scared kinda not. One of my themes has popped into my head and I’m not scared of it as much as I usually am. And then I searched it and still not to scared of it. I mean the fear is there but not as bad. Kinda worried the thought is true now.

Who of you are Christians and have had to learn to live with OCD as a Christian? It’s one heck of a ride!!! How does it affect you?

I caught myself reassuring myself when I was talking to my husband and stopped myself . I’m realizing that my reassuring behavior is from all the cbt I’ve done so in a way it’s good because it makes me brave enough to try eRp because I know I don’t need to think about the evidence anymore like it’s time to let it go because knowing the facts hasn’t improved anything so the next step is erp. So I guess this a hopeful post ❤️…. Wait lol am I reassuring myself right now ? 😂

Can’t get my mind to be quiet enough to sleep. Thoughts of the past and future. I was first diagnosed in childhood age with ocd. I’ve been through every damn treatment and tried different meds. Nothing ever works. It’s like I feel like I’m lost in thought 24/7.

I struggle all of the time with feelings of guilt over a perceived moral wrong I committed. This holds me back from enjoying the things I enjoy in my religious organization. I feel a compulsive need to confess and get reassurance that I am okay and do not need to be corrected or chastised or anything like that. Despite comforting words from friends about the matter the issue always comes back and I need constant reassurance. I want to be able to reassure myself and have peace again.

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Is this ocd? I have negative emotions that come up at church and about my daughter. Like disgust. I hate to admit that publically but it is what I’m experiencing. I don’t want to feel negative emotions towards God or my child but it really puts me in a bad mood and just makes feel so disconnected from myself as I usually didn’t feel negative emotions towards these things. I just want to think and feel happy about God and my daughter. It’s been 18 months of pretty much labile emotions towards them and I just know that’s not my baseline. Is it just the ocd making the emotions seem louder an attaching a story? UGH

I asked AI “Does the Oral Torah address the concept that people can simultaneously exist as both human and nonhuman?” and it said “Yes.” I don’t know if it is wrong or not.

Brothers and sisters, I recommend to you to read about Saint Thrrese of Liseux The Little Way, her little way of living holy. She knew she couldnt do big heroic acts but she accepted that she could do small acts with great love for God. So us with ocd are sometimes bound by limits but we shouldnt despair, we can still serve God in those bad anxiety days by doing small acts of love for Him. If you are having so many intrusive thoughts and anxiety and feel out of control, try a small act of love for God, pick up some trash off the floor, smile at someone, eat something you like, say Jesus name with love, small acts given to Jesus are multiplied by Him. Jesus knows our suffering and knows how difficult it is to live with ocd so imagine how much He will treasure our small acts of love

I had a bit of a rough day yesterday but I did not let it stop me from living my life! My partner and I had some really great quality time together and spent the day visiting the town where we first fell in love. It was so special, but MAN, was the OCD screaming like a pissed off 2 year old in the background! The entire day 🤦🏼‍♀️ Every day I feel like I’m learning more and more about how NOT to engage with intrusive thoughts. Understanding this concept has been more challenging than I expected but all progress is progress. What has everyone else been up to? I hope you are able to allow yourself even just a moment of happiness today. You deserve it! 💖

My thoughts are so loud rn, and making me sick to my stomach. I can’t shake false memories or intrusive thoughts. I just want to end it all..

I don’t really know what’s going on. So I struggle with scrupulosity and other things. I’ve been holding off on all the intrusive actions and things but it seems it’s only making me worse and I just don’t know if I’m exactly going the right way.

Idk if this is part of OCD but I literally can’t go 5 seconds without questioning whether or not what I’m doing/ how I’m feeling is efficient and correct and morally right in the grand scheme of my life and existence. I don’t know if it’s just part of getting older and becoming more responsible and self-aware but I legit can’t even have a conversation without triple checking everything I’m saying is honest and fair or if I’m actually having the right feeling or response or if I’m not being empathetic enough it’s fucking exhausting and I feel like my soul is slowly slipping away and I won’t be able to get it back. It’s very difficult

These are just thoughts. They can not hurt me. I can sit w idk.

Comment below a compulsion you resisted recently or a trigger that you handled well even if it was hard! Let’s celebrate our mini wins together 🫂 It’s not about what we do perfectly, but consistently! ⬇️

I’ve gotten really good recently at being able to let OCD scream in the background and just go about my day. As long as I have things to do. But at night, ugh. At night as I lie in bed I have nothing but my thoughts. Every night for the past few weeks I have woken up and immediately the rumination begins. Every awful thing I’ve ever done in my life comes back to haunt me. And if during the day, something I’ve done in the past is a 3/10 awful, at night it’s a 7/10 awful. I also start worrying about my health. Things that during the day don’t seem scary, or just a little scary, become absolute monsters and I’ve convinced myself that it’s serious and I’m probably dying. (Even though I’ve gone to the doctor…) Anyone else experience this? How do you stop the rumination when you’re alone with your mind?

Cried to God today begging for help and guidance to ease my violent intrusive thoughts. I have my first day of OCD therapy tomorrow. This app is a relief knowing I’m not alone and that there is hope 🥲

I’ve been through a lot of therapy to help my OCD and trauma - was able to get married and get a job. Tonight I’m having a really bad set back and it makes me feel crazy again and I get scared I’ll feel like this forever. Set backs are the worst truly I always have to wonder if it’s God again but I know it’s just my brain.

If anyone follows him. He is live right now (11:00 est) doing Q and A on YouTube and Rumble.

OCD DOES NOT STOP US FROM LIVING OUT OUR LIFE! DO NOT LET OCD STEAL FROM YOU! Just a reminder for you today 💕

Having a really hard time sitting w idk today.

Does anyone else with ROCD get plagued with constantly assuming the worst of their partner? Is this something that anyone has gotten through? It is like my OCD is forcing me to look for reasons to doubt if my wife is a making a decision or taking an action that makes her a bad person. Any tips on how to handle these obsessions in the moment? What would an ERP approach look like here?

psalm 25:5 says “lead me in your truth.” “Your” as in “God’s truth.” does this mean that truth is subjective and that MY truth (which includes my instructive thoughts I perceive/ overthink to be real) are also true even if they are not part of “Gods truth?” Don’t know if this makes sense at all.

hello am new here. started taking new meds and i have been feeling great. I’ve always suspected that i’m different than others. It’s only been mostly confirmed lately. I am sure i have intrusive ocd and that’s okay. Learning to love everything even the unknown and the undestined!

1. Can you imagine things and still be aware/see your surroundings? 2. Are they in first person

How long does it take to start seeing consistent relief from distress when you stop seeking reassurance?

I feel like I'm falling back into depression.... I wasn't depressed in months........ As a Christian I feel so bad........ I love the lord and I hate religious OCD...... God bless you alllllll....... The lord loves you❤.....

“Live life anyways.” (Not my post, but it describes what has helped me incredibly in OCD recovery) “The OCD trap steals your time and our life. It tells you that you need to put all your time and energy into preventing your fears from becoming a reality which then leaves you with little to no time for yourself, to enjoy your life. Choose your life over OCD. It can be so hard and so exhausting but OCD doesn't deserve to win. Insist that OCD sits in the passenger seat rather than the drivers seat. Live the life you want, not absent of fear, alongside it.” -@lauren.goes.to.therapy

hey y’all. my therapist recommended meds for my OCD. what are anyone’s experiences w medication?

Has anyone kept a job while being quite compulsive? I’m looking at a job where I chat to people online so they can practice their English. I’m still quite compulsive about not lying and other religious compulsions that would affect my speaking. How have other people coped?

I’m still starting to learn mine. They include… - Accidentally Doing something embarrassing or shameful in front of people you look up to (even small things) - Feeling super insecure on a day - Spontaneously get a message from someone who I like. - Waiting on someone I like to message me back. - See/hear/think of someone who is in trouble (in pain) and I get this feeling like I need to help them urgently!

1. Can you imagine things and still be aware/see your surroundings? 2. Are they in first person

I feel doomed. I don’t know if God is real. The ocd shows me no other option that He isn’t. I read my Bible every single day as a routine not a compulsion. I just don’t understand why it won’t change. It causes me to question all things in existence to the point of making me feel like this isn’t just ocd it’s schizophrenia which is then going to cause me to never know the truth or my family or why I am here again. The Bible explains why we’re here but my brain says it’s not enough. This world has been flipped upside down to me since 2020. I am exhausted from all this misinformation we have now. It breaks my heart. I just want the Lord to help me. I don’t want to question who He is and I don’t want to believe what my mind is saying but it feels like I have no hope if I cannot distinguish between what is false and true. I just don’t understand how this could even remotely be a good thing but God says He will finish a good work that He is started. I just find it so like. Untrue. Now. Like. I don’t see Him 😭😭😭. And day 7 of dreary weather. It’s making me so angry today. I know that’s the anxiety but I’m just fed up. I’m tired of the lies feeling so real to my mind that my reality gets distorted.

Sometimes I feel like I will get punished for making the wrong decision. Sometimes when I do make the wrong decision I do punish myself- seems like a self fulfilling prophecy. This makes me afraid to live life and make choices. I think it’s OCD mixed with life stuff- but I just want to be able to be a normal human and not have to walk perfectly to be ok! Can anyone relate?!

Hi dear friends today I was reading the Bible Proverbs 15 to be exact! And I felt like I don't know everything what it is teaching me OCD makes me go crazy I can't read the Bible like anyone else !!!! I fell like I missed out on something I can never read a chapter without me worrying that I'm going to miss out on stuff or don't feel good after reading a chapter it's making me go crazy I fell so overwhelmed but I love reading the Bible and I don't want to stop I just wished OCD would go away from my faith!!!!! So faith and OCD are seperate

i rely on God to help me discern my intrusive thoughts from reality. however, james 1:6 says that you need faith in him in order to get wisdom. to be honest i don’t even know if i believe in him i just cry out in case he is there. but now im like, “will i no longer be able to discern my intrusive thoughts (are they now true) bc i will not get wisdom from the lord as i have no faith?” Not sure of this will make my instusive thoughts true

I’m getting married soon, my fiancé is moving in with me in a couple of days. I have stopped going to church and listening to this “God” voice because it would just cause me even more confusion. I’m scared I’m always sinning. I don’t know how to be myself sometimes. I have had some really good days, but I’m at a low right now. Being intimate with my girl is nice, but getting closer to the date I’m getting scared. What if “God” wants me with someone else. What if I’m horrible for this, what if she is? OCD is scaring me right now .

What does recovery look like? I have been really trying not doing the compulsions and I just sit with the anxiety. It’s sooo soo hard. When does it get easier. I feel like I’m losing my mind.

Had a rough day of relapse. Comment below your favorite thing you remember that helps you in the middle of a relapse so we can all be encouraged! ❤️

Ok so I have struggled with religious ocd for quite a while, saying the same scripted prayer every night just so everyone I know and love will be safe and stuff like that but recently I have started deconstructing from religion but I’m still feeling compulsions to pray that prayer because what if something bad happens even though that’s no longer what I believe, what do I do?

Sometimes I think I'm a broken person. A broken person w bad throughs and sensations (GR) My theme used to be POCD, but I'm doing better. Now it's more into my religion beliefs😪 It's sucks, but for instance I now that is just my mind lying to me!

Maybe a Trigger Warning? I can't seem to find someone going through what I am going through, so if you are 1) currently worried that the Israelites are special in some way compared to the Gentiles (or similarly about men and women, etc), and 2) no verses seem to completely disprove your worries, then please let me know! Especially if you, too, don't feel heard whenever you talk about this.

I was thinking back to when my existential thoughts were REALLY BAD and wondering if maybe I had psychosis?

Trying to not compulsively pray in the bathroom.

Anyone else relate? It seems the second I wake up, the intrusive thoughts immediately hit and it’s so hard not to give in. Funny how this used to be at night. Now my nights seem to be OK. I hate when OCD switches it up! 😩