i’m having such an intense existential crisis. what’s the meaning of anything?? and i’m christian so i feel guilty for having these thoughts but if gods really not real that means everything is basically a social construct and has no real meaning. i literally just want to clean my room and not be bombarded with these thoughts bro HELP please!!!
i’m starting to feel like if I write out my thoughts, it might be considered a compulsion and it might make things worse, so is talking about your intrusive thoughts to someone else or explaining it like using this app for example, is it considered seeking reassurance? sometimes I get really bad thoughts that I’m too scared to even talk about them
Does anyone else experience this.. where they think they had a thought but then they forgot what the thought was about… for me I think I had a blasphemous thought but I can’t remember if I did or didn’t and it really is making me anxious and worried. Does anyone else go thru this?
Sometimes, I wonder asserting my spirituality just translates to me being nuts in reality.
sometimes it’s like to keep a worry in the back of my mind where i can observe it, even if it’s uncomfortable because i’m scared if i let it out of my sight it will come back full force and actually come true 🥲 I’m feeling guilt and fear right now i feel like allowing my obsession to exist with reduced anxiety means i’m basically allowing the possibility to come true, I know that’s not the case but i’m just like what if tho
or relate? I feel like ever since i started learning to sit with my thoughts + anxiety, my tolerance for the specific theme I was dealing with is better but my tolerance for newer intrusive thoughts is lower. I don’t know if it’s because now I don’t have the safety of compulsions but new intrusive thoughts are almost unbearable now and i catch myself doing compulsions like avoidance and thought suppression even for thoughts i’ve allowed to just “exist” before. I feel like im taking 2 steps forward and 3 steps back
It feels like with passing day my Mental state of Mind is Disintegrating, And just keep repeating over and over again that I Hate my OCD, everyday these Intrusive thoughts keep pouring in and I’m just so mentally tired, is there anyone else that can offer advice
when you’re trying to let OCD go is it normal for the intrusive thoughts or symptoms to get seemingly worse, like literally scarier and more unpleasant cause that’s me right now and i can’t tell if it’s just how recovery goes or if i’m genuinely just doomed🧍🏽♀️
how is everyone feeling? (this is a safe space! :)
Brothers and sisters in Christ, we must accept one thing first before we move forward and that is that every day is a battle. A battle against temptation, against fear and all bad things. Ocd reminds us every day that we cannot give up the fight, we must keep fighting for love, for peace, for mercy, for Jesus. Giving up doesn't mean resting and relaxing, giving up means losing hope and not loving when we have to. Go to therapy, listen to your therapist, do erp, live your life, love all, forgive all, smile always even when things aren't the best, smile because our King is with us, Jesus, the Lord, God, the Almighty, the one that is Faithful and loves us. Every day will be a battle sometimes harder sometimes easier but fight with the proper weapons, prayer and trust in God, the Holy Sacraments. Don't give up, but keep in mind that even when we feel like giving up, go to Jesus and give Him the battle and ask Him to give you strength. It's not easy, we must accept this, but it is possible. God is always with us and victory has already been achieved in Christ, do not be afraid even when you are afraid. Don't be discouraged by your weakness, give it to Jesus!
does anyone else have obsessions about the world ending or thoughts like “what if the rapture happens any minute now”!? i’m thinking about it non-stop this week and i’m terrified that everyday will be my last. i also can’t stop having horrible thoughts about all my loved ones being sent to hell. it’s torture 😖
Had my fourth therapy session this week. I’m so thankful I reached out for help. I’m finding what works for me. I highly recommend reaching out for help. It’s hard at first, gosh is it hard! But you know what’s harder? Living in the torment of your mind. I also found and love Chrissie Hodges on YouTube. She’s a fellow OCD warrior & her memoir was so enlightening to read. To all of us but especially to those that are at their worst at this moment, do not give up!! You’re not alone and you can survive this. Much love to all! ❤️🙏
one way I see my ocd manifest is in obsessive thoughts about getting pregnant. My bf uses a condom and pulls out every time in addition to that and I still find myself wasting hours a day obsessing over every detail and convincing myself I must be pregnant. I am not sure what to do about this or how to find some relief. I want to be able to enjoy my life and not allow these irrational thoughts take over. I sit and analyze every detail replaying the same scenarios in my head to the point I am losing sight of reality.
I wish i had an ocd therapist wow
I didn't give in to a compulsion on Sunday even though my ocd said you'll be miserable for the rest of your life if u don't. I have magical thinking so one thing had nothing to do with the other. I did what I was supposed to do and not give in but I've been very anxious since then and I feel very emotional. Its very hard to not give in to the ocd when what u fear feels like it's happening. I'm doing the right thing and I feel like shit so what am I supposed to do?! I know that giving into the compulsion would go against the treatment but I know I would at least feel better and get out of this hell! This week was the week before my period so I'm trying to remind myself that the feeling could be because of that but I just can't stop ruminating and wondering if I'll ever feel better.
I struggle with balance. Now it is 90% ministry and 10% self care. I spend 100% of the time being aware of the Holy Spirit in my life. I don’t eat enough calories, I don’t exercise, I’ve lost a lot of weight, my sleeping is all over the place, it’s effecting my family and friend relationships. I am single and a piano teacher. It’s hard to focus on teaching because I’m listening to the Holy Spirits leading with each student if I should pray for them or share Christ with them or their families. I have a big heart for evangelism. I don’t watch tv. I’m always in my head and freak out over missed opportunities. I want to have balance. I can’t go anywhere without being aware of people and feeling led to share Christ and offer prayer. I know it’s my calling just have a hard time doing daily tasks. I don’t take my medication at the same time every day. I was so fed up with it all I took a prescribed sleeping pil and slept most of today. I know the Lord doesn’t drive me. I don’t know how to set boundaries with myself. I don’t know when to stop evangelizing. I was at the mall, 2 Walgreens, Target, Food Lion, Harris Teeter, and Walmart sharing Christ and offering prayer. It’s hard separating ocd with what I’m truly being called to do. I want to be obedient to the Lord. I’m feeling anxious and overwhelmed of what I think is being asked of me. Sorry so long.
Does anyone feel like it's a bad thing? I feel like it just a phase or something..
I started my summer session at a community college next week and I’m already anxious about my OCD and anxiety affecting my future grades. I have to prove to my parents that I can work fast and get better grades. It’s just that my first university experience was completely ruined due to my OCD.
This anxiety in my chest 😫 I know all to well God got me through it the first time and he'll get me through it again. I'm just tired
Hello everyone, I just wanted to let anyone know about the “strangeness” that happens in my head, my ocd is weird because I never thought I had it because people would often disregard when I would tell them. I guess they thought I was one of those teens that just wanted to have a mental illness to sound “cool”. I’m an adult now & it’s gotten worse to say the least. Everything stresses me out, apart from my anxiety everything is just straight up weird, let me explain. One of the strange things that happen in my mind is what I named “the number system”. Where in my mind, I associate numbers “especially 1-100” with specific people or specific events, & I always have to do things in a certain number, or I panic. I always have to enter a door exactly 1, 4, or 8 times or my stress level sky rockets. I have to wash my hands 4 times, & whenever I wash my hands any other time, I feel an omen like something bad is about to happen. This happens not only in certain things, but in most of my daily activities, from turning on/off lights, opening doors, to turning in the tv. And the more I do it, the more it stresses me out, I’m trapped. Of course to get rid of this I often try to do activities like playing video games or taking walks to bowling or lifting weight. It is useless however as it follows me in my activities as well. Whenever I’m playing video games I make my character jumo exactly a certain amount of time or enter a room a number of times. I always have to lift in order or in a pattern. What made this worse is the fact that there was once where I woke up feeling miserable around last year, with the biggest omen, then I had an urge to call a family member that I won’t name. This family member along with another, had LITERALLY just been in a car accident less than a minute when I called them. They’re both ok & doing well, they aren’t harmed, but had the angle been a bit to the left, they both could’ve died, this incident made everything worse. I’m afraid of them going through something like that & feel that if I have another omen something similar could happen. I don’t really have friends, only a few family members that I’m close to. I’m also very religious & I know I also have scrupulosity which is religious ocd. I even have to pray a certain amount of times because I often have blasphemous thoughts whenever I pray & feel like I’ll be punished for doing so. I turned away from religion a while ago but I had another incident in 2017 where another family member of mine was diagnosed with a rare disease in which he was paralyzed, & he could be cured from a month, to a year, to never. I turned to religion because I felt alone & had nothing left, he ended up recovering in about three months, & became more religious. Idk I haven’t told anyone this stuff but it’s freaking me out, especially since the only people I talk to are a few family members who don’t really know much about mental health. I feel like I’m slowly losing it. If anyone had anything similar & is in a better position please feel free to help my situation. There’s been times with I hit myself in the head in frustration (nothing serious, more like a slap in the forehead) as I’m losing patience with my mind. I’ve always had this since I was a kid, but never to this extent.
I definitely feel like I’m doing better compared to when I first started ERP treatment but part of me still remains skeptical. Like have I really conquered it or am I somehow faking that things are better.
I was having bad intrusive thoughts and I started crying and ocd said I was laughing but I wasn't. I then started crying more and ocd said I was laughing when i was crying and now I feel like I was disrespectful and now my anxiety is horrible.
Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with excessive guilt and ruminating thoughts. I did things as a teenager that were bad, although I didn’t quite understand them. I don’t feel comfortable sharing but yeah.
Has anyone on here done inpatient care/ outpatient therapy with religious OCD? What did that look like? What kind of exposure exercises did they have you do? We don’t hear much about the treatment process for religious/spiritual OCD I feel like
Any advice on how to stop ruminating would be great! Having a rough week. Thanks
So, I have been so happy with my partner recently. Our entire relationship in itself is just beautiful. We’ve been looking into apartments, we’re meeting each others families, and just spending as much time together as we can since we are long distance. He’s my second relationship I have ever been in and he’s also the first guy I will ever be doing this with like….ever. Every now and then I get the occasional thoughts of my abusive ex and I wish him farewell and blessings because I don’t hate him. I am in a space where even the OCD isn’t even important and neither is the trauma. But, today as I continue to look for apartments and decor and think about babies and every other thing me and my boyfriend have talked about, something in the back of my head keeps trying to… “creep in” (if that makes sense) to try and say but your trauma or what if your boyfriend isn’t even the one? what if you hurt him? what if he hurts you? wouldn’t it be easier to be alone? what if he’s not even your type anymore like what if he begins to be unattractive to me? Then it feels like I’m back at square one. My ex becomes the focus and I become the problem. It even feels like I am trying to insert him in places he doesn’t need to be in. While I recognize thinking of people from your past is normal, why does the person who caused me a whole bunch of pain and suffering get my brains attention at random and god-awfully horribly timed moments in my life where I have moved on and made peace with who I am and what I have been through? I feel so guilty because then I ask myself well do I still love my ex and it’s not true and even when I think about the pain even my ROCD knows it isn’t true. I just feel awful and horrible. I feel like the worst girlfriend and like I don’t deserve him. I’ve been through a lot and it hurts to even think that I may hurt him. I love him. Why doesn’t my mind just conform to that?
I did good with no giving into a ritual but I was of course left with the if u don't do it then this bad thing will happen. Usually after a day I'm able to move on but I find myself ruminating about this fear since Sunday evening and although I don't plan to give in to the compulsion to do the ritual, I feel like I'm going to be thinking about this for quite a while and that in itself scares me.
I want to love myself and enjoy life and achieve my dreams. I feel that OCD is in my way.
It's basically tell me if you stream that game, you're going to he'll. I fear this. What should I do?
I am so scared. I have been doing so well but randomly ocd just started attacking me more and more and I try to ignore like I did before but it won't stop. I slept like 2 hours today and I have cried so much that my throat hurts. I want to have peace in ny head and I want these thoughts to go away why won't they? I had no intrusive thoughts a couple days ago but now they are horrible and constant I feel like I'm going crazy. I want this all to stop I want to be normal again.
I’m seeing improvement. Today was just my third session, but I’m not feeling as depressed as last week. I’m hanging on to faith that this too shall pass & my happiness will return.
I need help. I decide to have a therapy call but idk who, but what I'm looking for is someone who doesn't judge alot, who is very understanding expectfuly with my thoughts, asking questions about OCD, expectfuly some hacks I can do to calm myself down and stop doing habits that will hurt me, and for my health, I ask for help please and thank you. 💖
anybody else feel like they’re justifying their sin by trying not to worry about what may or may not be against God’s will? for context, i have terrible break-up urges because my partner is an atheist and i am a new Christian. i hadn’t considered this would be a problem until i started reading about it on reddit and every comment said that we have no choice but to break up - if i didn’t end it, either God would not forgive me or our relationship would be doomed forever. i’ve read and re-read the verse on being ‘unequally yoked’ to the point that i can recite it from memory. my partner and i have been together for a long time and hope to marry within the next couple of years. i’m now terrified of going to hell because i want to continue building my life with this man. everything i read online tells me that “no good Christian would want to share their life with an unbeliever” which makes me then doubt my salvation because i still love my partner the same as i did before coming to faith. if i don’t drop everything and leave my current life behind to ‘take up my cross’ i fear that i’m not a ‘real Christian’ and will be punished. to top it off, i’m also terrified that if i do marry him, everyday for the rest of my life will be in sin and i will never be able to stop repenting or be happy without feeling incredibly guilty for disobeying God’s word. not asking for reassurance or advice, more curious if i’m the only person on the planet in a situation like this!? 😵💫😖 there’s a lot more to it but i don’t have the energy to type it all out…
That's the main point of ocd recovery. But there is a little problem. My intrusive ocd thoughts are gone but now ocd took what i care about, existential questions, questions about God, wanting to know what is really a relationship with God, what is really His words and what are misleading false words, and im obsessed with these, im always trying to find what is true, what are His words. Sadly even religious people mislead others, every religion says different thinks and says that they are the truth... So i try to find who is God. But you cant use here uncertainty cause then you just stop working on learning about Him. I know some will say "stop obsessing about God and just try to believe and trust in Him". Once a really good man told me this and i will never forget it "God doesnt wants you to believe in Him blindly, he wants you to know Him and have a relationship with Him. Believing blindly is just being religious,God doesnt want that".
does quality of life with ocd actually get better in future? or will i constantly have to remind myself for the rest of my life that it’s just ocd
You can get a happy life by meditation do it trust me just watch the thoughts without disturbing them and you can eventually get rid of all your mental disorders
Ok I question this when I was 18, is it ok to think about where our souls officially came from? I question where mine comes from and it freaks me out alot, like where we officially came frome, do we decide to be recantation, or anything? I believe in God Christianity,I did a prayer to ask God to reincarnate to a different life and soul, I'm confuse am I the only one?
I was okay for a while and I didn't have intrusive thoughts the entire weekend while I was on vacation but as soon as I got back I had a realy bad episode and ocd has been tormenting me ever since. I don't agree with the intrusive thoughts but they won't go away and I can't go to sleep. I need to wake up in like 5. 30 hours and I need to get sleep but it won't stop. All the things I learned before to help my ocd are not working and I am so scared. Anyone been through this? I can't do this anymore.
I’ve dealt with for several years now Relationship OCD, Religious OCD, Pure O and it’s been really getting to me lately. I’ll have a couple days where I’m being more mindful and able to function like what feels like my old self before the OCD got , but then the switch of OCD always comes back on. I start obsessing over my thoughts again, not able to go back into that mindful state for more than a couple seconds to a minute before the thoughts come back. When the thoughts come I feel like I’m a different person, trapped in my body and it feels like I have more times as that different person in comparison to the person whose mindful and making the most of what I’m dealing with. I try not to fight the thoughts, but I always feel entangled in their grasp and it’s hard to feel like it’s not inevitable that I’ll live with this for the rest of my life. I try and think more positive thoughts, and I know I’m not on the full dosage of my meds yet but it’s just a struggle. I wanna love living again, but in this state of the obsessional thoughts it feels as if I’ll always be trapped in this mind with no chance of escaping to the side I enjoy living in.
Hey y’all, I haven’t been on here in over a year for various reasons. But I decided to give it another shot! I love Jesus down to the core of my soul, so having religious OCD has been the catalyst for worlds of trauma. I would love to share about it (with discretion) to anyone who might be wondering what it’s like for me. 🫶🏻 Thanks for welcoming me back!
So I just wanted to share that for all you women who suffer from PME (premenstrual exacerbation) yes there is an actual term for when your ocd gets worse right before your period, my doctor is having me try not taking the sugar pill week in my birth control and just continuing with the next box. She's going to have me do that for 3 months and then every 3 months I will use the box with sugar pills so I will get a period 4 times a year. She doesn't want me never getting a period but apparently this method can help PME because your hormones will be steady no up and downs. I am just starting so I will have to wait until next month to see if it works but fingers crossed that it helps! I will update u all!
I'm wondering, cause I want to try finding ways to relax besides watching my childhood favorite movies, I want to try new things but I don't know what to start.
Have y'all ever struggled with just feeling off or weird. It almost is a feeling of something I have experienced before. I think it makes me more and more stressed as I try to solve it or figure it out, but I am trying to practice my ERP.
--> what is real? People can rest with "everyones reality is different, i believe what i want" but that makes me bad, like i can choose what i believe,what will make me happy,thats egotistic. What is the truth? Even the words of God(bible) is percieved differently by people, then how do i know what is God actually saying? It feels like i just make a reality that makes me feel good but thats not reality.
I read about God words and spiritual things alot cause i believe the two connects, yet i see alot of spiritual gurus who doesnt believe in God or sees God as just a metaphore for good things and they believe in reincarnation, some believe in non-duality, that everything is fake, you live in an illusion and its so confusing. This made me think that everyone lives his/her own reality, i talked about this with my therapist and i asked what is the truth and she said "what you believe, your own truth is reality". Okay this is all good and beautiful in a sense but after i thought this is so egoistical, the truth is what i believe, so that like i make up something to make myself feel good about my life... theres no reality, everyone makes their own "reality", that someway seems egotistic for me. What about the bible then? The word of God? I believe in God and i want to believe that theres one truth, His truth but in the christian community people still take Gods words how they want to take it. Some people will accept that theres no real truth but i cant, it makes me feel narcisisstic that i believe things that makes me feel good... this topic makes me depressed...My mind makes me guilty for everything... And if theres one truth, God words, then how to know what is good for you? Some things that i learned from spiritual people helped me but then i saw other things they do and it made me think that all is bad what they do and i should avoid it,and now i feel bad without these tools...
Does anyone get very triggered by deconstructing Christianity or religion videos. I grew up Christian and would still consider myself one but since dealing with OCD seeing these video trigger me so bad and I am wondering if anyone else feels that way? It’s really interfering with my way of connecting to god. I really do respect people that have deconstructed their faith and believe everyone is on their own journey I just think my ocd is attacking one of the things I value most.
Does anyone else with religious ocd or scrupulosity feel like God is angry with you and unforgivable I’ve been feeling like this and I’m really scared I’ve committed the unpardonable sin I had a thought about the Holy Spirit and I quickly became anxious and from that point i feel like God is upset with me and that I’m unforgivable any advice or help?
I’ve been on 10 mg Lexapro for almost two years and switching to Prozac tomorrow 20 mg any tips or things to look out for? Would love to hear people’s experiences if it did or didn’t work!
i understand that these thoughts aren’t real, but whenever i don’t follow them bad things truly do happen. i know it’s just my brain finding patterns and it’s all a coincidence but it’s enough to terrify me back into my patterns. if i don’t follow my schedule to a t, something bad will happen. if i don’t do some random thing my brain told me to do (eating soap, kicking the table, hurting myself) something bad will happen. sometimes i look around and my brain just tells me i’m not allowed to use certain things anymore, no matter how important. most of my clothes, school supplies, and food is now considered “bad”. it’s so frustrating but part of me finds comfort in it. i like feeling like i have control (even though i obviously don’t) over what could potentially happen. i feel like i’m answering to this higher power and anytime i upset it i have to offer something in return so it doesn’t cause something awful to happen. usually it’s hurting myself or eating disgusting things like soap or vinegar. does anyone else relate to this even slightly? i feel so alone.
I made a mistake and I don’t know how bad it was, but I can’t stop feeling bad about it. I feel like idk what to do, or if I should even do anything. Normally I’d say that I’m just feeling guilty, but this feels like an OCD thing. I feel bad. I did something I’m not sure was okay. My stomach hurts :/
This morning I woke up fighting with my brain again, thinking I'm actually talking to a 'spirit' in my head. I talked myself out of it slowly and distracted myself away from it. I'm very new to OCD as I was just diagnosed two weeks ago. But this is something I've fought with for eleven years.
Anybody else have issues with googling stuff in hopes to feel better about something, usually health related but then usually just feel worse?
I learned that Ocd sometimes can be something false that we learned in the past and if we work on that then ocd goes away too. Not with everything but it does work like that. I had a religious negative thought that i learned in the past that good people die early because the world doesnt deserve them... and this made me afraid to be a good person cause then i might die young... I dont know how to work with this without rummination cause that would make ocd worse, what i know is that "maybe maybe not" doesnt work. It doesnt work cause when you dont know something then it just makes you depressed. I remember in the beginning when i had harm thoughts i used this method, i said "maybe i will kill someone maybe not" and i felt terrible... made me depressed cause it was like im irresponsible. Many people say stop trying to figure out the thoughts but my recovery started when i realized that im not these thoughts, its not what i value.In time you say "maybe maybe not" but deep down you know its ocd and a lie... I dont say trying to figure it out is good,if you use it too much then its not, but you have to realize the thoughts arent you or that are lies that you learned and believed. So how should i work with this "good people die young cause the world doesnt deserve them so i might not try to be a good person" fear without falling into rummination?
My father is always watching 'fundamentalist' programs on TV and this has made me very nervous. When watching these programs, my past comes to mind when I had high vocation crises that even made me have nightmares and increased my anxiety. On Tuesday there will be a mass given by a priest who is a fundamentalist and I'm nervous because I know my father will attend. I'm afraid of having intrusive thoughts that keep me awake at night and of spending hours on the internet researching the subject of preaching. Not to mention that these days my cleaning OCD has been getting in my way a lot, at any time I get nervous about rubbing alcohol gel on my hands or washing.
Curious to hear people’s experiences. I’ve been in an OCD flare up for about 5 months now after going off my medication (sertraline) abruptly in July of ‘22. I was fine until about January of this year. I’ve been back on sertraline for about 15 weeks or so now, which has helped a little bit, but not as much as it did before. Thinking about switching to Luvox, which was another medication my psychiatrist recommended I try (if I wanted to try something new). Anyone here on Luvox? Anyone here switch to Luvox from another medication? What’s your experience been like? (Not asking for medical advice — just would like to hear experiences to help inform my decision)
Does anyone have an OCD therapist in NC they’d recommend?
Has anyone with Scrupulosity/religious OCD that is a christian does therapy with a therapist here? How has that been for you?
I literally hate OCD. Its debilitating i wish i had my life back. i don't like feeling like im fighting against good and evil. i just want to cry !
I have religious OCD, as well as perfectionism OCD (when it comes to grades especially), as well as relationship OCD (retro active jealousy, constantly worrying people are mad at me) my biggest compulsions are asking questions, reassurance seeking, and then when it comes to my religion compulsively researching things or wanting to confess things I think are sins. I worry a lot about not being forgiven and going to Hell for simple mistakes or things I don’t even know if they are sins or not. I love being Catholic, but sometimes it’s very hard to enjoy it with my OCD. I’ve noticed I worry a lot about people being mad at me and having to do things to get back in their graces and I do the same with God. I know I can overcome this! (Please do not leave any comments that will give any reassurance especially faith wise or things contradictory to my Catholic belief thank you:)
I’m scared of the dark again, some of the irrational beliefs I have to fight terrify the shit out of me, makes me feel like I’m going crazy or like this isn’t OCD.
Hello. I’m new here. My first therapy session is tomorrow. I’ve sat at my work desk all day today & gotten nothing accomplished. I’ve been totally focused on googling, reading, going over & over in my head all the intrusive thoughts I’ve had. I was doing really well up until two weeks ago. OCD reared it’s ugly head & I couldn’t shake it like I’ve been able to in the past & I can feel the depression creeping in. I feel like I’m going crazy. I wish we had switches to our brains like we do computers & we could reboot. I’ve struggled with OCD for as long as I can remember. I was in elementary school when it started. I’m 45 now & it’s only gotten worse with age, for me anyway. I’d much rather go back to my school days when I was obsessed with order & cleanliness rather than deal with the awful intrusive thoughts I deal with now as an adult. I applaud those of you who speak out. To know I’m not alone is a help.
How do I know if it’s me doing these thoughts to myself sometimes I feel like I repeat them to see if they sound like it’s coming from me and it scares me cuz I love god but I be thinking bad thoughts one after the other when a bible verse is quoted and people bring him up but I know it’s not me idk how to explain it cuz it feels like it’s me but I feel like I’m so sorry like no I didn’t mean that
Hey friends, I just wanted to encourage you with the hope of the gospel: Through Jesus’ death, which was completely sufficient to pay for our sins, we are made righteous and have eternal life. His grace is completely sufficient and He is with us and intercedes for us daily. I know what a burden religious OCD can be, but know that He walks with you and that there is freedom to be found. Not overnight, but freedom will come!I used to think there would never be a day that I would enjoy scripture and my relationship with Christ again but that day has come. I still struggle, get frustrated, etc. Keep going & know He sees your heart. 🩵
It’s been a minute since i’ve been on here, and each day that has gone by i’ve lost more of my ability to express my feelings. I don’t know how to feel anymore. I’m overwhelmed anxious happy sad all at once. It’s like a storm of emotions that all drag me in different directions like a puppet. I like talking to people, I really do. But it’s so draining to hear other peoples problems as if I don’t have my own. I like being here for my friends and spreading love and light in their lives, but each time I spread light, my light dims. I long for someone to genuinely ask me how i’m doing. Or want to hang out with me. Truth is i’ve never been anyone’s first choice friend or relationship wise. I feel really strange about that though because I have so many friends there has to be at least one that would want my presence. Sometimes all I want to do is sleep, sleep and live in my dreams. Live in a place where it’s beautiful and perfect and everything lives in harmony and has its own beauty and symphony of love. I find myself questioning things about human life and that also bothers me to a certain level. There are times where things feel unreal or like to good to be true. I don’t know, it’s like everything is to specific. Like who would of thought of creating flesh bags with organs and bones that can speak walk and breathe. It’s just weird to me how it all leads to dead ends. Even though i’m a Christian I fear death and what’s beyond even though I shouldn’t. But on a good note i’ve been doing so much better since starting Zoloft. I mean there are some days where I get a little bothered but not as much as I used to. Im starting to enjoy school even though it’s about to end. Yeah that’s about it lol, hope you guys have a great day🫶
I’m a little bit confused on the ERP I’m practicing. I believe I’m doing it correct for new intrusive thoughts bc I let them run through like normal thoughts without bothering me, but when it comes to the guilt and shame from the original thought I had I can’t stop the feeling. Do any of you have ERP suggestions for guilt or shame or worrying about judgement from others?
I’ve been struggling with OCD my whole life. In my early years it showed up in more common ways like counting steps and needing symmetry, but as I have grown up other themes have taken over such as contamination OCD as well as both moral and religious scrupulosity. Recently the moral scrupulosity has been really bad. But it has been difficult for me to open up about it and search for treatment because 1. I am scared that I will be viewed as morally and ethically bankrupt and 2. I am transitioning to a new city and don’t have any resources set up when I move. I want to find a counselor who can do ERP as I have had success with this for my contamination OCD but I also would like my therapist to be religious as my faith is truly important to me. Any ideas on resources that can search for that specific criteria without spending loads of money on several different therapists?
I say swear words/profanity in my mind, i heard these growing up and sometimes i still hear it. It gets triggered when someone says a certain word or its just randomly gets in my head and at first its like funny for me,but then i realize its not good to say these things about God. I dont get anxiety its just not a good feeling and it gets me angry that i decided i will not speak like that yet i get these thoughts randomly everytime
Does antibody else anxiety get worse when they first up there dose but then it usually subsides after a couple weeks?
Sometimes I get to the end of the line with a rumination spiral when I’ve looked at an event from every angle and I finally get some lasting relief. I’ve been stuck on one theme for a week and I think I’ve found myself again at the end of it. Feeling at peace today! 🤍☮️ I’m hoping this theme doesn’t come back (at least for a while) but in the event that it does, I’m thinking about writing down all of the thought loops that I got stuck in as sort of a way to do expedite the process and lessen the amount of time I spend ruminating. Has anyone tried this?
I'm a huge gamer and struggle with devil ocd and I'm currently playing a story game and my ocd saying the character I'm playing as is the devil
I did sth terrible I think I said the intrusive thought idk why I did it but I have been avoiding it for years and now happened and I am so scared that everything will bbe bad for me I can't calm down I don't remember I think ocd won it's over now I feel hopeless
I had a terrible day yesterday. Does anyone fear just the thought of the devil and being possessed by the devil? I know I’m not. But anytime I think of anything having to do with the devil I have to repeat what I just did while having a good thought, of Jesus. I’m a Christian and love Jesus but have this disease called OCD. Yesterday I drove around for 2 hours trying to get my thoughts correct. I’ve been seeking help but really just need to know if anyone else has the same problem. Please do not preach to me about God. I know I’m saved but my OCD is just unbearable.
I’ve had it my whole life. Many times through my life I’ve wish i were dead because of that and a lifetime of trauma. It’s frustrating when people who are generally happy tell me to look on the bright side and ask that I compare to myself to less fortunate as if I don’t try to already. Yes I know we all have problems but many people don’t have problems like us. And if you have ocd paired with childhood and adulthood trauma, ptsd, adhd, anxiety, and depression then you are as good as fucked. I know this post is negative but that is the point. The point To illustrate that I’ve been tired my whole life even after seeking a lifetime of help through self, family and friends, therapy, and medication. Being tired doesn’t make it better but damn oh damn does the only relief come when I’m asleep. Might as well doze off into eternal slumber.
okay so i’m about to have a breakdown and i’m really scared. after experiencing derealization a couple weeks ago i’ve been anxious about being in a dream or a coma and just not knowing it, and every time something is a coincidence it freaks me out. like if i’m thinking of a tv show and then i see something about it the same day, i feel like that’s a sign i’m in a dream or coma and making everything up on my own and especially recently i’ve been seeing a lot of coincidences happen and a lot of things related to comas and reality being fake are showing up around me. and now those fears are spiraling and making me question reality as a whole. i’m really scared and i just need some reassurance. i know i sound stupid. i feel stupid.
Today was my first day taking medication for my ocd. I was wondering how medication has helped you guys if you are taking it. Like does it help you forget about thoughts that are distressing you? In my case all my guilt and anxiety come from one thought I had and I decided to give medication a try to help me overcome the guilt and shame because of the thought. Instead of like getting further distressing sexual thoughts, my thoughts are now the stress of feeling like a horrible person and feeling as though I cannot be a teacher or a part of my church or even make new friends type of a thing. Does medication help with that kind of stuff too?
Anyone else experience worsened OCD when traveling? I was super excited to travel international and see my family and just RELAX for once. But ever since I’ve gotten here my anxiety and OCD is terrible. I can’t enjoy my trip with having an anxiety attack or just feeling checked out of the situation. It makes me want to leave and go home but I want to stay here and enjoy my time off. Any help would be appreciated
i need someone to talk to, my pocd thoughts are terrible. mine are really specific and i’m not sure if it’s because i was exposed to as a kid. i don’t even want to say what my thoughts are i just want them to stop
Hello! This is my first day on this community and first post. One thing I thought today when looking at a post from someone else is that my religion isn’t the problem. It’s more my relationship with my religion. Sometimes I think my religion asks too much. But plenty of people in my faith don’t obsess about it the way I do. I think it isn’t so much these things in my life I have blamed for being too stressful as it is my relationship with those things. Any ways, just a thought, looking forward to turning this weakness into a strength and advantage for me!
Is there anyone on here who struggles with these themes together? And if so what is your experience.
Does anyone else have OCD off and on? I have OCD off and on since I gave birth two my two sons and I feel like now that I know now what it is.
I never thought that me trying to help a friend would back fire 🔥 me , that’s why it’s important that you look out for yourself and trust god with everything . In the process of finding a place just wasn’t liking living where I’m living anymore and my roommate says I shouldn’t let anyone take advantage of you so she’s starting with me and I’ve always been there for her , and I told her I’m thinking about moving way before this time and she’s now giving me until June so . Just pray for me please.
I was doing so well a few weeks ago but now I’m spiraling. I’m just so mad bc this is the time of life I’ve been waiting for and ocd is ruining it all. All I worry about is what people would think of me and if I would even have a job or be seen the same if people knew my thoughts. I just don’t understand how a thought can cause so much distress. On top of it I am a part of a strict church and work there so I feel like if they knew I would be not accepted and that I’m ultimately going to hell. I wish this feeling would just go away and I wish this never happened at all.
I have this annoying thud in my chest it’s annoying it’s like a ticklish feeling in my chest it’s so annoying does anyone else deal with this ?
People without OCD will never understand people with OCD and anxiety just got told by my roommate of 3 years that I’ve changed for the worst. I’ve fell off on cleaning 🧽 I fell off on a lot of things since my anxiety started last December . I’m ashamed about it , but me following my faith is what gave me hope .
My ocd is off and on , it sucks , currently have a aggravating itchy feeling in my chest. SMH it’s all to deal with .
How did you get over ocd trying to say you had the thought on purpose when you didnt? It is what is keeping me stuck rn and I wanna see if anyone has dealt with this and overcome this.
I was doing so well and now the last two days have been horrible. I grew up in a strict Christian community and I feel like my ocd has taken so much of that away. I don’t feel good enough anymore to be a Christian and I’m so jealous of people lately because they are living the life I want to live.
